melo the almighty(:

177

2011-05-31T10:43:00.003+08:00

Just because I find the need to keyboard smash, I am here. because i know nobody fucking reads this thing so i can say as much shit i want here. and this is just for venting purposes so if you happen to be reading this right now, i would appreciate that you close this tab/ window and leave tyvm.

okay, fuck you internship. fuck you srsly. you told me i was gonna get my pay on 25th may and now you tell me im only gonna get it on 15th june. OKAY, BEAST FANMEET TICKETS ASIDE. you think i dont have other things to pay for is it? huh? just because you live a good life sitting in that high chair of yours earning idk how many thousands per month, doesnt mean that interns like us live a good life too. you may be a good parent and all but hello, not every family lives a fuwa life like yours. I FUCKING EARN MY OWN KEEP. i fucking gave up working at CK because of internship. at first i thought, nvm, internship still got $500 every month, can get by one. and dont even get me started on fucking bullshit why i cant work part-time on weekends. it's not that i dont want. CK schedules are filled to the max on wkends and even if i wanted to, i dont get the chance. i've been working at CK for wkdays for dunno how long since sem 2.2 so you dont come and fucking give me any bullshit about part-time jobs and what not. and dont even expect me to take from my parents because i know they cant afford, which is why i worked part-time in the first fucking place.

so now i basically have close to $0 in my account and you expect me to survive another 2 weeks. MY BEAST FANMEET TICKETS HOW. yes i am that superficial. I CARE ONLY FOR MYSELF AND MY BEAST TICKETS. bite me. take your own fucking money and give it to me i dont curr i just want the money asap so i can pay for my BEAST fm tickets fucker. okay im too angry to continue the whole story i'll rage later.

FUCKING CHEEBYE IM SEEING HIM LATER HE'S GONNA GET IT FROM ME.

176

2011-03-02T03:28:00.002+08:00

srsly, im like | | close to exploding already. maybe i have already developed schizophrenia but just that i dont know? lol. turning into macbeth maybe. 8'D okay not funny.

so yes, i had a twitter rage just now. im sorry for those followers, but you know. twitter is a free place. just unfollow if you dont want to listen to my nonsensical rants/rage/kpopstanning. i mean, not that i forced you to follow me right. 8D not gonna repeat my twitter rage here but im just feeling a little down and out that's all.

how does it feel like to be a kpop idol seriously? if i could just live it once; i think i would die happy. too bad i cant sing though. i can only dance. /sad life OKAY ACTUALLY IF I COULD EVEN GET AS CLOSE AS JOINING PREPIX OR YG OR CUBE AS BACKUP DANCER I WOULD DIE HAPPY. anything just so i can get out of this insane shithole to keep my sanity together. (=_=;) everyone in this place is insane. heck maybe me too. but at least now i feel like im sane. so excluding me for now. idk just, let me get the fuck out of hereeeeeee. ugh.

175

2011-01-11T23:51:00.002+08:00

hay thar. im here to rant again. OOOH WHEE~

so life sucks. what's new? i mean, not that i give a shit anymore. im just gonna be the laid back character in my school life from now on. Cs and Ds are fine as long as you give me my cert. who the hell cares about DHL and shit like that? you want my awesome gpa? go on, take it. if you think you can live up to it go ahead. i've never been the sort to aim high and score high anyway. this was all pure coincidence when i was in year 1 okay. I DO NOT WANT THIS. so get the idea you freaks. im not like those who work their asses off just to be up there. for one thing, i dont give a shit about studies. for another, let's just say my brain is too intelligent that i dont need to do shit like that to get to second place yeah?

SO YEAH FUCK THIS SHIT, the presentation for MICE imma just gonna fuck it and not do it. 10% giveaway? yeah i did that when i was in 1.2 for marketing when i forgot to do that bloody peer evaluation. back then it caused me much heartache cos i lost my A thanks to that, but now? HAHA I DONT EVEN FUCKING BOTHER ABOUT As AND SHIT LIKE THAT. so why do i even care so much. if eventually i can get my cert, im willing to even go to year 4 just for that shit. repeat whatever shit i've done this sem. yeah sure fine. different classmates? oh well not like my current classmates treat me like i exist, so what's new? im just gonna be this antisocial kid emo-ing. whatever. seriously.

yeah life, troll me all you want. so you think you got rid of the family problems part for now you can troll me more for school and shit like that right? well let me tell you this. i dont fucking give a damn anymore. as long as i graduate with something higher than 2.0 means i will get my paper. i have a whole 1.55 worth of gpa for you to deduct if you want. GO AHEAD. shit this fuck. pfft.

im gonna be honest and everything. because right now, all i wanna do is to just work and earn money and save. and repay all the debts im owing. this goddamned amount i dont even know where it came from. ugh. and more than half of it is not even mine to begin with! grrr. i wanna earn money now and save for the year-end leisure trip to korea with friends! im really looking forward to it. :/ i feel like marking it on my calender but my SHINee calender is to precious to be drawn on... *stares at onew* dubu im not gonna do anything la stop staring back at me. /delusional yeah so that's what i feel like doing. apparently if i work + study, i've calculated. i cant even earn half the shit i want to save. so imma just gonna fuck school and work whenever i dont have scheduled classes! i dont care about anything else already. assignments and shit are gonna be over soon \o/ internship... ugh. if i dont get a response from launch imma just gonna crawl into a hole and die 10 times over. yeah.

and i think the SSM peer evaluation is a joke. i dont even go for classes. i bet my evaluation will be 0. HAHAHA. oh well.

in short, life sucks. kthxbai.

174

2010-10-03T01:09:00.002+08:00

OKAY I ASSUME THAT NOBODY VISITS THIS BLOG ANW. SO IM JUST GONNA RELEASE ALL MY FUSTRATIONS. RHRN. FUCK OFF IF YOU DONT WANT TO READ SOME FUCKED UP BLOGPOST THANKS. :D

firstly. i dont give a fuck about this whole rental thing anymore. you fuck up the house rental and now we kids have to suffer. what kind of adults are you seriously. damn fucked up. i just settle nicely into the environment, just got my study table, my own space, my own wall space for posters, my comfortable life. then this screwed up rental thing have to come along. bloody fucker of a landlord you nabeicheebye fuckyou godie. i hope you are haunted by 10,000 child ghosts because srsly, you making my life a miserable mess is not a very funny thing here. fucker. and hello auntie use your brain pls. how can 10 ppl fucking squeeze into a bloody 3 room flat. we have 4 study tables, 1 dining table, 1 sofa set, racks, and a whole lot of other rubbish. you think we can fit all these into a ALREADY-FURNISHED 3-room flat that alr has 4 ppl living in it? USE YOUR ASS AND THINK ALSO CANNOT RIGHT. ugh. sometimes i dont even know how stupid you adults can be. fuck this.

then comes the second problem. if you see pee on the kitchen floor cant you just use water to rinse away wtf the bloody toilet like only 5 steps away you have to ask your niece who is in the living room to do it. knn i know it's my dog but come on we live in the same house cant you just help abit also. i know you got your own problems but i got mine also right? nb. like you think whole world only you stress like that. if my tolerance is low i also go imh alr lor. fuck. and you two stupid cousins idekwts about you two bloody bimbos. when got money, spend like fuck. then when got problem, try to act politically correct. bloody hypocrite. i feel like slapping your dumbass bimbo faces. fucking idiots. and i stan my kpop is none of your bloody business you go stan your weird shit sai i also nv complain. nabei la what kind of fucked up situation am i living in.

okay i know im not living in the worst of conditions but fuck this seriously. just when my life picks up a little things have to take a downturn. as if my exam results isnt a depressing enough issue. fuck. then got this house rental thing. i bloody hell dont want to move back to grandma's house la. she one old lady alr so sad need to support that useless uncle liao then we need to go squeeze with her in her 3-room flat and make her suffer more. you all dont use your peabrain one leh. and you bloody use your lifetime savings and dump into a stupid bloody fucked up business which i told you NOT to do, just cos i have better foresights compared to you. now you lose all your money, is in a fucked up pennyless situation, and now we are going to homeless soon. how cool is that. you bloody retard.

and im like fucking hungry now i want to cook noodles also cannot cos the bloody kitchen light is blown and nobody wants to fucking change it. fuck fuck fuck. mum is out with useless boyfriend and auntie is in the room with her useless boyfriend. WHAT'S WITH YOU GROWN UP WOMEN AND USELESS BOYFRIENDS. SERIOUSLY. DUMP THEM ALREADY. OPEN YOUR BLOODY EYES LA. USELESS MEN = THOSE WHO CANNOT GIVE YOU FINANCIAL SUPPORT AND FUCK YOUR LIVES UP EVEN MORE BY ADDING ONTO YOUR EMOTIONAL STRESS, GEDDIT?! FIND SOMEONE WHO CAN HELP YOU WITH THE FINANCE AND YOUR EMOTIONS CAN. YOU TWO STUPID SISTERS. UGHHHH IDEKWTS ANYMORE.

and as if family problems are not enough to add on to the bloody fire, cosplay has to come in to the picture. i mean seriously, i can compromise but it has a bloody fucking limit. if you dont like what i suggest, then suggest something better. dont just say it sounds ok but very kpop-ish. yes i know it's very pro kpop because that's the only thing im interested in now and going according to what you want, which is a video, that is the plot i can think of. but then. you said it sounds ok only. so i ask you again. what you want. and you dont have any idea how you want it to go. srsly fuck this. why am i even in this fucked up cosplay competition when it's stressing me out so much. i rly want to quit you know. and put 100% effort into the kpop dance one instead. because. i think it srsly gives me more satisfaction than being stuck with some whiny person who keeps saying cannot dance cannot sing. ok i know you cannot dance cannot sing. then what can you do? tell me la! then at least we can plan sth tgt right? then i ask you what you want to do. all you say is you dunno. how fucked up can this be. we only have 5 wks you know. need to sew costumes and rehearse one you know. we need to get approval also you know. CAN WE JUST FUCKING DECIDE WHAT WE ARE GONNA DO?! BLOODY FUCK. if you dont like my plot srsly, can you either give me a better one or something. ugh.

okay now ranting to someone else is not really helping either. because he doesnt fully uds the situation. and im tired. from explaining. i cant get anyone to agree with me. so fuck this. rly. FUCK. THIS. ALREADY. I 90% WANT TO DROP OUT OF THE COSPLAY COMPETITION ALREADY.

ugh. hungry. and tired. and irritated. is not helping. im going to just. sign out of skype and twitter soon. and just. read fanfics on my iphone til i slp la. fuck.

173

2010-07-29T16:38:00.002+08:00

uh... i know i mentioned that i will upload streetfest pics the last time i was here but i didnt do so. D8 okay anyway nobody reads this blog so it kind of like just died. but since nobody comes here, i thought it would be a good opportunity if i used this platform to say things that i couldnt mention on twitter or anything. lots of things have been on the top of my mind, some happy some not. but ah well. just ranting it out will make me better i hope. i have a feeling that the only person who may come across this will be raynor lol. best buddy if you read this, msn me afterwards lol. :D

alright so since when did i become such a big SHINee fan? okay first things first. i wasn't in to k-pop until recently, like start this year/end of last year. so i've missed out a lot of things when i wasn't into the k-fever yet. the times of dbsk, suju and wondergirls are times when im not totally into this whole fad yet. when i really got into this whole thing, 2AM became my first love. then with the release of SHINee's latest album, Lucifer, i fell more in love with them. primary reason - taemin's long hair. i think some ppl do know that i have this crazy fetish for guys with long hair. but sadly not everyone knows. ahh whatever. anw, i really admire taemin's long hair, and i do love the songs in the album as well. so question is, is it really wrong for me to only love them because of their new album? for me, i dont see what's wrong with it in the first place. so stop questioning me since when i became their fan. im not jumping on to the bandwagon or anything just for your information. not because they're like the most crazy and hot topic around for now. it's because i genuinely like taemin (and his hair), because he just reminds me of myself sometimes (being childish and naive etc). i really want to dance like him as well, he's my next dance god after jo kwon lol. :D but as much as i love SHINee now, i still have 2AM in my heart. so ppl, dont question me if i jumped over to SHINee or what. NO. I STILL LOVE MY 2AM. and i am still super sad i couldnt go the fanmeet on tgx day 1. but i still bought the album nonetheless! so it shows im a true fan right? pfft. im gonna buy SHINee's albums too to show support okay. i will buy both type a and b alright. so ppl please stop coming and ask me why im suddenly into SHINee. it annoys me.

secondly, i want to wish don a happy birthday here, although i think he wont ever come across this lol. and yeah, wanted to have a celebratory dinner of some sort tonight. so i asked my mum if we are gonna have dinner. and nooooo, they are gonna have dinner tgt with my mum's "boyfriend" and i wasnt invited. not that im sulking, cos i think if i see him face to face, the first thing i'd do is kick him in the nuts or give him a tight slap or flip a table at him (for real, im not kidding. ppl who know me well, you should know i have a temper and DONT MESS WITH ME.) but hello? my brother's birthday dinner and i dont get invited, and he gets? what kind of fucking reality is this man. he's has always been an asshole, and everyone sees it. but nooooo. blinded by love. or so she calls it. that fucker's an obvious shit and fucktard wth. i would sue him if i had the opportunity. i would get a gang to beat him up if i had a gang. im dead serious. if i were the leader of DOLLARS he'd be dead by now. fucking asshole. ANGRYYYYY.

and then comes school. i think i mentioned this so many times on twitter that everyone's sick of this. but hey, you dont understand me you shut up. you dont want to see my tweets dont follow. get it? this is the first time (after jc that is) that i felt that school really sucked so much that my absences just keep increasing. hey, not that im doing it on purpose. does anyone have any fucking idea how fucking stressed i get with school? nah, i dont think anyone can come close to feeling how i felt. having a useless group mate in every single project is one thing. lousy classmates another. retarded school location is the third. what more to make school more sucky? at those points in life i looked forward to nothing else but cosplay and events and weekends together with the great ppl. even cheer was a drag (which led to my disappearance shortly after school term started for the sem). even jc wasnt as bad because i had great classmates and friends who understood me, and dance was the next thing that took things off my mind. but i genuinely hated jc for its system, its teachings and its regulations. it's fucked up. that's why im enjoying poly, which im not so much enjoying for sem 2.1 thanks to TAS and a whole lot of other rubbish. cant wait to get over this semester. although i think my gpa's gonna spiral down like shit, you think i care anymore? im not under any fucking scholarships, im working to earn my own keep. who needs all those things to my name? DHL, STB scholar candidate... whatever. you guys are the ones who have come up with this image of me being 'angelic', 'innocent' and whatever else you've thought me to be. sorry, i am not that kind of person you guys think me to be. im evil, and im like a gangster, so dont mess with me. you want to play punk with me, you'd end up like that certain girl on facebook. if you're all talk no action (NATO), then fuck off. im not interested in ppl who can only say alot behind ppl's back but not right in the face. useless. grrr. thinking about it makes my head hurt. lots of shit at sentosa, and im not missing anything there.

exams are coming up but there's yog to deal with. i dont think i'd fail or need to take supp paper. but this sem, since it's already screwed, im just gonna do whatever i think i can, and just pass it. heck with 3.88 or whatever. heck it. projects, screw you. exams, im gonna eat you up. all these subjects, you're gonna die and fuck off from my life okay. dont mess with me and put me in a nightmare anymore. i dont want any title to my name, i dont want any high gpa that's so difficult to keep. if life's just screwing with my results then so be it. i dont believe i cant do anything without good results. pfft.

it has been a long long post so far. but nope, im not stopping yet. if you're tired just close this window. im not begging you to read it. im just ranting that's all. listening to k-pop calms me down in a sense i guess. oh well. i still love anime dont worry. hakuouki and vocaloid, i'll be back with you guys soon! but for now it's Lucifer and Up&Down and nothing else yeah. ^^

gahh. let's move on to more happy things. cosplay! yay. for the past month, it's seriously been a hell hectic. but hey, i didnt neglect my projects or anything amidst all this. so dont go around accusing me for not doing my work or i'll seriously slap your face. there was cosfest, tgx and the ph shoot. cosfest was fun cos we had a weekend chalet, which was seriously damn enjoyable and fun. :D lots of epic things happened and well, yeah. everyone was cool. (: tgx was a mad rush! thanks to ilr project plz. but im not gonna mention about sch anymore. it was fun! day 1 ph paired up with almighty jesuke. really could feel the kira-ness and shiawase-ness to be having her as a partner. taemin i love you yeah. (: day 2 back with my lenny, with awesome okita and heisuke transformed into GIRLS. pretty and epic. gahhh. *rin gives loves to all* man, tgx sure was epic. not to mention awesome cosplay photog well-known on an international basis, SHIROIN was in town! enjoyed super epic moments with him, and all's worth. :D ph shoot was full of crack i swear. and im gonna get my head cropped off. ahh well. taemin~~~ im so glad you were my vincent. and i fail as your servant. i will uh, serve you better when i sk for your casual shoot. *raises eyebrows* now it's just epic planning for the rest of this year. planning for 2nd cf trip! and gonna take part in that teenage competition AND IM GONNA WIN IT. i want to do kpop twinnie. ): since im cosing girl i want to dance to miss a's bad girl good girl plz. ahh. crack be win! if we incorporated crack with serious stuff i think we'd stand a good chance, dont you think? ahhh. more tbc when the judging criteria is confirmed i guess. lol. planned for events like afa and stuff as well, photoshoots are piling up (i have no idea where my money's gonna come from), and lots of tentative rubbish plans that keep popping up GOSH. seriously need a proper diary to keep track of all these. AISH. but i guess that's all for cosplay so far. taking a break for sewing and shooting and whatnot for now, need proper planning and time management and work in order to supplement this lovely hobby of mine. im thankful for all the friends i made through this hobby. i love every single one of you. (:

oh yeah and im still with darling in case anyone's wondering. lol. just cause you dont hear about us doesnt mean we dont exist already lol. just that we're all busy with our own stuff, and we dont get much time together... but we are still in love. ^^ just hope we have more time... and more money... i want to go on epic shopping with darling soon. i want to buy stuff... i want to shop... i want to dress up to go out. D: i never ever put make up unless it's cosplay. i never do bother to dress nicely unless someone asks me to. i think i should start to put more effort in dressing up i guess. lol.

ahhh. it's been so long since i typed the first sentence. i think you must be falling asleep as well. if you ever reached this part, good for you! otsukare~~ but i dont think so lol. just mindless rants blah blah blah. i need to go do my fem reflection paper which is 20% weightage and it's due tmr. \o/ im awesome arent i. and i barely started on it whee~ im awesome. seirously man. haha. ahhh fuck those things lah. if i cant do well then i also heck care. lol. maybe the reason why i left it til this last minute is cos i dont really care anymore? yeah. i dont really care anymore. okay. so fuck it. fuck you school. *notimpressedplz* im gonna do abit of work and toggle between SHINee and school byebye people if you ever existed.

172

2010-06-24T23:34:00.003+08:00

been ages since i've been here, but feel the need to publicise some stuff. \o/

mummy bought me a new earpiece! *hearts* and it's super pretty, didnt expect her to get something like this for me. :D bye to sonicgear, hi to audiotechnica! ^^ expensive stuff, i would be happy with just the same old sonicgear model though. but who minds something more exquisite? although i feel sad i broke my streak of using the same model of earpiece. because my previous two earpieces are both sonicgear, same model and same colour! haha. :D but anyway these are pretty, so hope they'll last me longer! ^^

aaand i got an A for the first assignment that was returned to us! :D festivals and events management field trip report, which i did on Singapore Arts Fest. awesome shit. thought my work was crap, but turned out to be an A surprisingly. i thought this sem was a goner! but not all hopes are lost! 4.0 is still within reach! ^^ hope that accounting test that is gonna be returned next wk will not be a disappointment. :/

i am a happy girl today! :D met with lenneth dearest for dinner despite the numerous setbacks! (esp with my mobile being uncontactable and etc) she has a new craze now! silly girl. if you ever read this, im gonna buy you lots of agar powder/make you lots of agar for your birthday. i'll make you an agar birthday cake! LOL. it was fun. and totemo shiawase desu! i feel loved by okita. hurhurhur. *smirks to self* okita-san ilu! ^^

the only thing left now is to finish up everything i have on hand! projects, school homework and god COSTUMES. cosfest is next wkend btw! :D 3rd and 4th july! tgx is the wk after on 10th and 11th july. do come support and have a look if you're free! :3

i miss darling. havent seen him in two weeks! i think i should go back to regular blogging. (if i have that much time to youtube around why not right?) although i think nobody reads this in the first place. i should try to revive it so that ppl will read! haha. when im more free i think i shall add a twitter column on my blog like claudia's! ^^

updates on streetfest with pictures will be posted when im more free! perhaps tmr in sch when i have a longggg 3-hour break. :/ im gonna be doing accounting now. see ya peeps! (if you exist at all)

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2010-04-08T15:56:00.001+08:00

Epic stuff.

Especially Sign and Bo Peep Bo Peep and sang really manrily! *hearts* jo kwon super uber cute in Sign prz, doing gain's part. 8D

170

2010-03-31T15:23:00.003+08:00

currently being really bored at home. i chionged finish kimi ni todoke, which is an absolutely lovely anime to watch! sigh. now i have no show to watch. so im going back to gintama. which i cant even rmb where i last stopped. zzz. there are no taiwan shows that attract my attention as well. wgm 100327 sub is not released yet, and II. AM DAY ep 3 also not subbed... OTL|| WHY DONT I HAVE WORK! T__T

im thinking, when will it be a good time to upload a new deviation, where i can get alot of views and faves. sigh. my pageviews are a pathetic 4k. im still noob i know. but ahhh. it's depressing to learn that others have like 10k pageviews within such a short time and i have only 4k despite being a deviant for 8 months. ;___; i think girl cosers who do more guy chars get more pageviews than girl cosers who do girl chars. SIANZ.

and and and i think i want to go back playing hello kitty online! it was the only game i was interested in after all. and i stopped because i didnt have time to play it cos it was project chiong-ing during sch term. so yeah. if raynor or cy or someone wants to come back to hko with me, i wont mind playing it again like now im so super bored OTL.

anw here are some awesome cool photos i took while walking to sch for training yesterday. the fallen frangipani flowers are so pretty! the whole grass area was covered in them. i didnt take those that were on the path, as you can see from the edge of the second pic those that are on the path are squished horribly and has turned brown. sad. but those that are on the grass are super pretty! the pink ones look like cherry blossoms! isnt it cool to have a photoshoot underneath this tree? haha. but it doesnt happen all year round i suppose. but it would be really nice to have one if you get a chance to do it...

TALKING ABOUT PHOTOSHOOTS. i want to shoot with ash and kei on friday!!! zzz. they're gonna be shooting at an awesome japanese restaurant and i want to shoot too! ): too bad i cut my hair and i dont have a substitute wig that can be used for chizuru... damn why cant i cosplay guys! ): am super depressed now. i think ash will kill me if i propose i wanna do a guy char just cos i want to shoot bah. sighs...

shall go emo then. bye!

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2010-03-29T14:47:00.002+08:00

okay, i like never blog ever since end of exams lol. too happy. i guess i lied about wanting to blog more often. :p if i could blog on my iphone i wouldnt mind, it's just that somehow i cant type in the posting space on my iphone.

anyway! so many things have passed. nationals, darling's birthday, long-awaited kaitoXmiku shoot with koko, the mad rush of shana shoots, dance, and new-found job! lol. the results for nationals were a bit disappointing, but nonetheless everybody gave their best! so it's alright. and with the end of this year's nationals concludes new goals for myself! :DDD i hope to achieve ______ by next year! :D if you want to know what are my new goals you can come ask me. i dont want to put it up here in case some ppl call me bhb or sth lol. :D

AND RAYNOR CHIA! it's not i dont reply my tagboard okay! it's just that if those ppl got blog i will go their blog and reply luh. -.- and it's been so dead anyway. haha. OMG MISS YOU MAN. lunch soon okay! cant imagine life without you in cheer though. :/ GRAHHHH.

and currently im now stoning at home because i havent been called to work yet. and there's pretty much nth to do cos i've chiong-ed finish all my shows and animes the moment exams ended. so im finding new shows/animes to watch. please recommend if you have anything nice. (: i've just started on kimi ni todoke, a really funny and cute kind of anime. haha. but im so bored so im like finding things to do between the episodes. so, after i watch another ep i will sign up for twitter, then aft another ep i will upload sth on dA... and aft that i will try to find sth to do. lol.

BTW! PLEASE PLAY SOCIAL CITY ON FB! it's kind of a cool game. like restaurant city, but you need to pay more attention to it than rc. haha. quite cool. check it out and be my neighbour okay! :D

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2010-02-24T17:17:00.002+08:00

yay just finished macroecons paper! ONE MORE LEFT TO GO! :D f&b please let me get distinction. ;___; i want at least a distinction this sem la omg. anyway, i really dont want to say this but, econs has been my most confident paper so far. like WOW, it's econs and im confident?! something's wrong with me man~~~ but yeah even though i dont want to admit it's still the truth... lololol. MAYBE I HAVE A SECRET POTENTIAL FOR ECONS! yeah right. if i had, 70% i wont be in poly right now. -.-" ahh whatever. econs better do me good ah.

going for dance later! it's super stressful omg dicky why your item so killer one! TT TT i dont think i can rmb all the steps omg. HOW. shit. ;___; vetting on saturday, im screwed. \o/

okays i shall go watch one ep of wild bunny before i leave for dance! it's at suntec omgomgomg. talking on the phone with keikei make me lag behind my schedule. D8 this is the wk that my money will drain out from. whee~~~ NO MONEY BANZAI! TT TT

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2010-02-23T18:43:00.003+08:00

im just happy that i managed to finish my pom paper. details shall not be discussed. D8 i've come to the conclusion that i indeed hate econs. because nothing is going into my brain! argh. im like so brain fried and brain dead now.

what are the interesting things that happen to me during this period? it's definitely got to be my desperate camping at youtube 2odsubs1's channel for WGM ep 19 updates. i keep refreshing the stupid page. all the way from when i reached home from marketing paper until at night. then just when i was about to go sleep (i still had 4 chapters of POM to study the next morning), i refreshed the page AND THERE IT WAS. the subbed episode! i was like crying for joy literally. it really saved my brain from going down the drain. :D THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SAVING MY BRAIN CELLS! *hearts~*

and today, i have no more motivation to study for macroecons. D8 cos i watched the latest ep of wgm already. ;___; so i went to watch wild bunny, and now im so stuck to it cos 2PM is full or retarded crack shits. 8DDD so there is my new motivation~~~ yay~

i just watched this video on youtube, the cut where you can see jo kwon and gain on the float in hong kong's version of chingay. and the MCs were like saying their names out in cantonese. it was totally ROFL stuff. if i translate that to chinese, jo kwon's chinese name would be Zhi Quan and gain's would be Jia Ren. like hahaha omgggg. :DDD

kk i shall attempt to get back to studying. hur~

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2010-02-22T12:28:00.002+08:00

marketing paper finished just about one hour ago. yeah i rushed home. cos i didnt want to make myself feel worse from the exams atmosphere. everybody says they didnt do well. but compared to me i think they're alright. at least they finished the paper. i think i lost close to 16marks for questions that i didn't do. wow. and plus all the mistakes that i make? confirm there wont be an A for this paper already. if i can get even a B for this subject i will really be jumping for joy. screw myself for forgetting peer evaluation. i might have gotten A for coursework otherwise. this is bullshit.

i finised the first three chapters of pom already! am so proud of myself. although they're just really short chapters but still, the satisfaction from completing 3 chapters during the walking journey to and from school is just awesome. :D im such a pro yo. kekeke~ 9 more chapters to go, hope i can squeeze everything into my tiny brain... i need... GREEN TEA. it's my version of red bull. :D i want hershey cookies and cream chocolate! whee~ okay i shall go buy some later to energize my fried brain from marketing.

goodness. jiayou to myself. i feel like ranting 10,000 things but it isnt possible. im waiting for WGM EP 19 to save me from this madness. 2odsubs1 please hurry and save a poor soul here... ;___;

OMG I NEED A NAILCLIPPER LIKE NAO. where is it why cant i find it when i need it?! ARGH. *flails*

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2010-02-21T00:01:00.003+08:00

hmmm let's see... end sem exams are starting on monday and i havent even touched anything. am i screwed or am i screwed? prepare for a lousy gpa this sem yo~~~ *dies in one corner* the worse thing is, i dont even feel panic. i can even blog and it's already SATURDAY. no wait. it's sunday midnight already. whee~~~ im so screwed yo~

the dance alumni item is going really smoothly, hope the vetting on next sat will turn out fine. there's so much to digest from today's practice! omg. *flails* i really want to master the steps and put up a good performance! afterall it's been almost a year and a half since i ever stepped on a proper stage for a dance performance. soy'b was kinda like crack skit and dance so it doesnt really count, but the feeling and satisfaction that i gained from the soy'b performance made me confirm that i want to do the alumni item! cant wait for the concert now. ^__^ those who are interested in going for it please let me know! it's on 17 april at RP cultural centre! nice concert venue yo~~ *hearts* more details tbc. 8D

BEG IS IN TOWN! omg omg omg. why am i so poor and why do i hate alcohol. D8 if not i would have went to their mini concert at zouk which is TONIGHT. okay i think it's going on NOW. ;___; GAIN~~~ i really want to be one of those fans that hold big boards with neon coloured words! and they MUST read: JOKWON *heart* GAIN in korean!!! kyah~ they're so cute together in wgm they should seriously just date and get married. *fangirls excessively* i can see now why kpop is so popular. i really really understand now. (:

can you see omg omg omg they are so cute! 8D jokwon the child husband and gain the pretty wife~~~ *hearts*

ahhh. ;___; kk stop the daydreaming lol. i think i have another ambition! but im still a long way from it. i was thinking, maybe i should be a translator! like those professional kinds. i realise i kind of develop interests in languages easily. like now i have this urge to learn korean! which is like so .___. because i once said before that i'll nv touch korean stuff except if it's tkd. but here i am now fangirling over a korean couple. -.-" but anyways, i think i'll be an awesome translator if i can master jap, french and korean. in addition to these three languages i have chinese, english and also cantonese. omg i'll be super pro yo. 8D OKAY STOP DAYDREAMING.

we fell in love~

is a really nice song. ^___^

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2010-02-19T00:25:00.002+08:00

pic spams!

im bored. waiting for ppl to come msn me. i want to go back watching my wgm!!! JOKWON AND GAIN! *heartsu*

my miku! *awesome hearts inserts* chio is chio~~

the bouquet of rose from shinji on v-day! ^^

coco lovely is being retarded so i had to take a picture with her! so cute~~

me and darling used an application on my phone to make neoprint-like photos. we used the picture that we took on v-day/cny day 1. haha! it's the nicest picture!

decorated by darling!

decorated by me.

i love this app it's so cute with the retarded rabbit~~ 8D

okay issues settled! im going back to wgm. YAY~~~

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2010-02-14T22:25:00.003+08:00

it's FEBRUARY 14 2010! :D

this is such an awesome day because;

1. DAY 1 of CNY! Happy New Year everyone! (:

2. Valentine's Day! Love you lots darling; hereby wishing everyone a very happy valentine's day as well!

3. My 14th month anniversary with my darling as well! ISNT THAT SO COOL. :DDD

anyway. went to places to visit for cny purposes. also went to darling's relatives' house to visit too! :D there wasnt much valentine's day atmosphere but still it was still an enjoyable day because i got to see my darling. (: shall upload pictures another time! ^__^

since this is a festive season and joyous occasion, i shall not mention about what i wanted to blog about for the past two days. but seriously, i think we need to have a thrashing session. okay just when i mention i wont talk about it i already feel like typing a long essay about it! .__. *self-restraint* i shall control myself! maybe tmr or sth. :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! *hearts~*

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2010-02-06T02:31:00.002+08:00

i'm gonna die for my comm skills 2 summative test in like, 6 hours. ohmygosh goodbye distinction. T__T arghhhh why am i so unprepared and uneasy for the test tmr?! :/

anyway, i just cut my hair. SHORT. and it's highlighted! :DDD i look more like a poly student now. yay! except that perhaps i look more like a design student than a business student. OH WELLS. i still like my new hair. thanks to hairstylist alex from archers! it's a salon at citysquare mall. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED TO GO FOR HAIRCUT! they have awesome hairdressers~~ ^^

okay im going to get some sleep zzz. tmr summative test, then shopping! :D for new year clothes. i know it's lateeee. D: but i shall get some nice clothes hehehe. and then after that is work on sunday. gambatte myself~ T___T

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2010-02-02T18:32:00.004+08:00

i've decided to be more hardworking and blog more since the whole project saga is over now. ^^ it's been a crazy month ever since school started after the christmas break. Now it's just rushing to finish my cds roleplays and then it's final exams! which, im totally unprepared for. :/

so im here randomly blogging about stuff because im really sick and i've got to stay home. which is a good thing since i should be getting more rest, many people say. but then again, im missing out on alot of things in school and during lessons, which i think will reflect on my final exams grades. SIGH. wonder if i can still keep my gpa above 3.9 this time. )8

i had ABC chicken soup for lunch today cos i didn't have anything better to eat. after moving to my new house, everything's so convenient and i just totally love this place. i can sit in my room without any fan or aircon on and still feel cold! my room has such an awesome view and it's so windy. (:

my interesting pasta decided to form the word YO while i was eating it just now, so i decided to take a picture. super cute! they just happen to be there when i scooped it up. (: reminds me of myself and ash cos we always use the word yo nowadays. haha.

after soy'b has passed, i cant help but feel a little empty. there's nothing to rush for now since the next event's like lightyears away. so maybe i should find sth new to do! okay i should get a job first. HAHA. my super unreliable promoter job pays peanuts and the incentives are like shit. actually to conclude, there are NO incentives. i cant wait for the cafe to open! i hope it opens by march so i dont have to go find another job to pull through for my holidays. maybe i'll just go work at an ntuc or sth. i like to be cashier. (: anyone has a cashier job to recommend? i dont mind counting money and scanning stuff for the whole day. :D i know im weird.

i miss all my cosplay friends! sigh. next event hurry come soon. ):

i also miss blazers and my clique alot, but nobody seems to miss me lor. hahas. favian, i want to eat pie now omg. .__.

ZOMG my last post is being flushed away into archives. ;__; in case you havent read go to my january archives prz thanks. XD

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2010-01-31T15:18:00.007+08:00

awesome, it's been almost two full months that i never blog alr. :D i didnt blog about my malaysia trip, eoy and soy (yet). haha why have i decided to come here? because of soy'b lor. cause it's super worth mentioning. (:

just some short updates here and there about what has been happening recently. In chronological order from the most outdated to most recent. (:

1. Malaysia trip.

went with darling, shinji, ash, yukino and kaen. Epic 5-day trip to KL-sunway to attend comic fiesta 2009. Stayed in a three-star budget hotel with relatively good facilities, only the room very small. LOL. but everything else was fine! and the company made it worth staying there. it was fun. (: shopped at the event itself and bought lots of stuff! cheap yo~ bought my huge yellow bag from times square. spent lots of quality time tgt with best friend ash and epic friend shinji and darling. *hearts* it was awesome yo! we should go travelling again soon, with kei and skye ya? :DDD

2. EOY

epic shit i cos-ed guy character. icee came back from aussie and wants to do her rosiel. so i accompany her cosplay, but had to do michael cos no other char to do. sara no link with rosiel, LOL. so borrowed costume from ash(: a picture from shinji who debut as a photog at this event~

me and icee's pair shot by eriol! :D

after the event, had dinner opp bras basah the coffeeshop with the usual peeps~ dinner was awesome seafood! yay. it was nice yo. ^^

3. SOY'B

EPIC EVENT! all thanks to organisers NGEE ANN POLY JTC and special thanks to lenne! me, ash, kei and jes put up and epic crack performance and took part in a competition and won first! haha. had lots of fun, even though i wasnt feeling well and my fever is like on off that day. got to know epic awesome ppl such as lenneth, kanasaii and cvy better. met kaika for the first time too! didnt get to see circus-usagi though. T___T it was enjoyable with kei being my cute awesome len! i think the default costume looks nice on you seriously. :DDD thank you for doing it with me even though you had found that version ugly. lols. i love you lots! i shall not post unhappy stuff here, please refer to my deviantart for any negative issues regarding the event. (: im still searching for that certain kaito and gakupo pair who molested me and kei prz. LOL. here's a picture from shinji who took jump shots of me and kei.

i dont have our group shots yet but i'll blog about it when i get them, i promise! with jes as amazing kaito and ash as bishie akaito. :D

below this post are the videos of our performance. there's some coding problems with blogger so i have to put them at the bottom of the post.

part 1 of our skit got cut off halfway and lots of funny things happened cos togu couldnt find the music tracks. HAHA. seriously crack. part 2 is the second run, but it's the full thing. thank you to this person who took video of our performance! double click on it so you can watch it at youtube. if not, full screen it so you dont get the video cut off by my blog skin table. .__.

so that's it for now, i shall wrap up my blogpost. (: in case some of you still dont know i bought an iphone. \o/ best buddy! i will lend you to play apps one dont worry! then when you get yours we can play like multiplayer apps. 8D

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2009-11-30T23:53:00.003+08:00

hmmm. it's been a long time since i've blogged. lots of things took place and was too busy perhaps. :D so now for some quick updates!

afa was awesome! did ranka on day 1, lenalee 3rd uni on day 2. shall let the photos tell you how the whole event was like and the awesome ppl! :D anisong concert was so-so in my opinion. ultimately disappointed by the amount of time they allocated to miku. and for goodness sake they reuse the digitals from project diva, which the psp game for miku. i mean, i was still high and everything but it was such a budget performance that i didnt even feel like miku was in singapore. it just felt like she was being projected onto a screen while someone plays project diva on a psp. -.- so yeah. day 2 may'n was awesome! new songs and some mf songs. fantastic. :D but still, it didnt make up for the disappointment for miku. ):

day 1

bishie twins hayashi! *hearts*

epic verse! :D you are awesome dear!

darling and i! :D we took other pictures but they looked funny and unnatural because of the way he smiles. this one is the best out of the lot. hurhur. .__.

awesome group picture! my favourite from afa'09. considering the number of pics i have of myself for day 1, this is one of my favourites man. (FYI, exclusive camwhore shots the prevailing count of external photogs pics is ONE.)

now for day 2! (one picture only though. :D)

awesome lavi kaen and pretty pretty luka engracia! *gives love*

i would like to thank kei for being my fantastic pretty and sexy sheryl! *chuu~* you are epicly awesome okay! 8D and my lovely alto engracia! you are freaking awesome too! *hearts* also thank you to hayashi for taking care of our bags! (: i think you all didnt have alot of time to enjoy yourselves at afa, im so sorry dearies! :x will saikang for you all next time when you all have shoots or what k! *love* and thank you ash for helping me and KEI sew the lace on our skirts. HAHA. i told you, it's worth sewing for man. YOU GET TO SEE KEI IN A FREAKING SKIRT. PLUS FEMALE COSPLAY. 8DDD and thank you to my sheryl so much, for helping me paint my awesome ribbon with LION on it. :D it's pretty man! ^^thank you saku for lending the sheryl wig even though you didnt know who would be wearing it in the first place. but im quite sure it was worth it right? :D and to all saikangs of our group: you all are the best! to all those i've met on both days: you guys are awesome too! LOVE!

that kind of wraps up afa. oh right, i've yet to get pictures from yan hui and chuan min man! :D the two of them were so funny on day 2. esp chuan min and her kaname fangirling. LOL.

there was also run for hope on afa day 2 morning and i had to perform. so the day was very rushed for me. but im still glad i made it for the performance and am quite happy with my own performance! b-toss was successful and exceptionally high, but the landing was abit :/ HAHA. but it was still good man! thanks alot bases raynor BEST BUDDY and daniel! thanks ck too. (: the video can be viewed here: http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?comments&v=219290023416

watched quite a few movies last weekend. actually only a couple. twilight saga: new moon and 2012. new moon was very draggy, dont expect action cos there's practically none. 2012 was draggy as well, the ending was far too optimistic for its own good in my opinion. but the cg was epic and fantastic. :D world coming to an end in 2012, do you believe? me, certainly not. (:

the last round of scholarship interview today! epicly screwed up i think. i dont know, just didnt feel like i performed very well. but shan't mope on it cos i think i've tried my best. the answers i gave may not be politically correct or whatsoever, because they are derived from my true feelings. so i've already done my best, i leave the rest up to the panel and my cm (by now the results are already out, it's just when they are going to notify us). whether it was good or bad news, it was a wonderful experience. thank you lecturers, cm, and panel! :D

just in case you're wondering, im not dead yet so yeah here's my 'once in a blue moon' update. (: bye~

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2009-11-09T15:51:00.003+08:00

GOOD LUCK TO ALL MY DEARIES & LOVELIES TAKING A'S! :D

- dedicated to: tj dancers, cg24/08, gamma cheer, 2408 darlings, cedarians, koko, yoyo, jing -

Blazers performance this saturday at marina barrage! Time to be confirmed. (: our 8-ppl team, jiayou! *hearts*

Yesterday we had this small event at the Frontier CC opening, which is just opp jurong point. It was so cool cos a few of us were hired to go there and cosplay and have fun. like seriously. and the pay's really good! i feel that i've been paid really well~ TwT *cries in gratitude* anyway, i cosplayed Kagamine Len from Vocaloid yesterday! :DDD happy that i finally did i vocaloid cos~ and it's supposed to be a guy btw. .__. got 'sabo-ed' in a way by makoto to do len while she was supposed to do kaito, but she didnt go... *sad* anyway, the costume was borrowed from beloved hima-chan! *hearts* love you dearie!

i wanna do len again! but not with hima-chan's stuff cos i feel very paiseh from borrowing from her also. maybe when kei gets her len default and i'll kope it from her. 8D and i shall find a rin and then it'll be 8DDD. so here's a zi lian picture or myself from yesterday~~

you'll find this picture everywhere. haha. cos i love it alot even though it's self-taken and it's really damn zilian. but oh well. i know my wig styled wrongly luh. just take it that len went in the rain and his spikes got washed downwards okay. 8D i guess that's about it for all my zilian rants. haha. wee~~

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2009-10-28T16:07:00.006+08:00

blazers performance was great! although lots still need to be improved. :D but anw, all stunts up! which is really really good considering we only have an average of 6 trainings to prepare for the WHOLE performance. it's really an achievement! GO BLAZERS! *hearts* lunch at pasta mania with daniel, faezah, khai, rynne and michelle was epic fun! me faezah and michelle bought kids meal cos we figured we wouldnt want to eat too full to let our tummy burst out. :D then aft khai finished he played with his food and came up with this "artistic work". guess if you can see what it is? :D

anw, have been feeling unwell for the past few days. which is really upseting cos i missed out on alot of stuff.

1. training

2. my first htm marketing tutorial (omgimscrewed)

3. jap and french lect

4. comm skills (i think my grp members are gonna create havoc w/o me around)

5. TOFU SAO'S BDAY CELEBRATION ): ): ):

today went to see doctor again to take another mc for today. went yesterday alr actually but he only gave me one day of mc. but this morning woke up and felt really horrible so i took another day off. and i got two new medications. so WOW. now i have a total of 6 medications, out of which 4 are for my stomach. -.- fantastic. just awesome.

this is a picture taken of the number of pills i have to take JUST FOR MY TUMMY. the new medications that i got today are not added yet.

on a side note, the festival/celebration i went for on monday was awesomely cool! even though it was tiring. it's to celebrate 九皇爷圣诞. which means it's his birthday. so there were like 花车 and lion and dragon dance performances. and there was this cool military band made up of senior citizens! even thought their marching is not up to standard and is kinda slow, but their playing of the instruments is still awesomely good! i was really amazed. here are some pictures from the whole event(:

one of the 轿子that is used to carry 九皇爷.

up close! abit blur lol.

a boat carrying devotees' well-wishes(:

the boat was burnt up.

im not very sure of the procedures and what is the significance of each procedure, but im sure i'll get to know them and learn slowly if i attend it every year and research on it. (: i really miss the festival. it's been such a long time since i've been to one. i used to go for the festival when i was young and my dad would bring me there to see all the cool stuff. a pity that he doesnt do such stuff anymore...

anw, here's a photo of me and darling! it's been so long since i last took a photo with him. -.- the last time was hakuouki photoshoot which was in july. wth. -.- so long right. we camwhored in the bus cos we kept thinking that the photos are ugly. this was taken using my phone. it's one of the nicer pics. there are other pics in his cam. but not uploaded yet. haha! i'll post here when they're uploaded. (: including snapshots of blazers from the performance! :DD

i love you!

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2009-10-12T02:54:00.003+08:00

ahh~ one week more before sch reopens! kind of excited... but kind of not looking forward to it either. i wonder what's going to happen to me this coming sem... cheer training is gonna be stepped up cos of nationals and upcoming performances, projects as usual, and to top it all off... i have cds. and the thing is that im under the cert prog, meaning im taking 4 cds, 1 more than normal students... which means i'll be even more stressed. argh. kami-sama, tatsukete kudasai~~ T__T

on a side note, im in nationals! surprisingly. but im really sad that best buddy is not in. thanks to evil stepmother of modern days. this is like male version cinderella gosh. best buddy, i hope you're back for training soon. everyone misses you... come back soon! and the fact that im in nationals means i cant miss trainings as often during sch sem anymore. i seriously hope i can find the time to cope with schoolwork, cheer, cosplay and work. :/ sounds really hard to me.

well, if i can manage to pull off that STB scholarship i've been aiming then it solves the work part. i mean, $500 per month is enough to keep me alive. but the implications that comes along with it are quite serious... things that i must sacrifice at times... and the effort that i need to commit. sigh. why am i in such a dilemma.

i need to start sleeping early too! shit man. sleeping at 3 - 4 am is a really bad habit! i need to slowly change my body clock back to school hours if not im gonna be dead meat! blazers camp's crazy hours didnt seem to help improve my sleep late wake up late habit. sighs. talking about habits... i think i really need to change some of my bad habits. it's really tough cos i've tried, and somehow the same issue just slips out of my mind at a certain point of time. so now i got to really remind myself to change my ways, or else everything's gonna turn into a disaster. i dont want that. i'd rather die than to see that end. if the only thing, or rather, person, that's keeping me alive is being removed from my life, i'll just wither away and die... but this is not a suicide note yet so dont worry. (: everything's fine now.

I REALLY WANT TO GO FOR THE i love anisong CONCERT! because because, hatsune miku is gonna have her debut concert in singapore! although she is just a virtual character and may appear on stage being just a hologram... I STILL WANNA SEE HER AND LISTEN TO HER! but tickets are so darn expensive. $188 for both days! i mean like, if you want to go for the concert might as well buy the two-day one cos there's may'n on day 2 and miku on day 1. but im broke. i need to pay for my comic fiesta trip (which has been reduced to a pathetic number of 6 ppl going now), my bleach costume and wig, my dream nds lite, my konapun toy... what is there leftover for me to go and watch miku? ): sigh. i really hope money comes to me soon so i can get my ds. i really want to play harvest moon on a ds like right now. rawr.

enough of rants i guess. i want to see darling tmr. so i guess i'll be going over. (: i love you my darling. :DD kk i shall go and watch animes and stone until i fall asleep now... shall blog again soon...

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2009-10-10T01:09:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASH!~~ <3

my blog's not dead okay geok! see, im updating it now. :D

cheer camp was on 1st and 2nd oct, it was fun! but super tiring. i shall give a short summary on the camp. (: day 1 begin with cleaning of mats, then some bonding games, which were really funny. then it was lunch, and then stunts! in between we had some discussions for our mini routine competition in our groups. then it was dinner, more stunts, and practice for our mini routine. then it was night time dota with the guys and i got pwned badly. but it was hilarious! nice game. (: i need to train more so that i can play with them again. playing with others really is a big difference compared to playing with the computer/AI. day 2 started off with a 4km plus jog around bedok reservoir. my knee was hurting so badly i couldnt run too fast so i jogged behind at a leisure pace with geok, favian and terence. the uphill was -.-" then we crawled back to sch for breakfast, and it was more discussions after that. coach came and it was stunts, coach left and we practised for our routine until it was 6pm plus. then came the time to perform. team 2 did well! *claps* our team screwed up majorly cos everyone was blur-ing. haha. and we didnt have a full video cos nobody managed to take a full video! sighs. but overall, camp was really fun! thanks to su hui and larry for preparing the food and drinks! (: and the seniors and exco as well! camp was really enjoyable, although it was kind of tiring and sleepy. haha!

there's a performance coming up and im pretty excited. really hope best buddy can come back and join us in the performance. (: miss you best buddy!

im having a shoot tmr and im majorly freaking out. what if i dont pull off the char well? what if i ran out of poses? im quite sure kei will clobber me. ||OTL anw, i just hope it'll be okay. anw first time shooting with KOKO! *hearts* im sure it'll be epic fun 8D

oh forgot to mention about seoul garden lunch last wk! it was epic. didnt expect to see so many ppl! cos saku brought her MF ppl along. met new ppl! fuzzy! (: she's a really nice person! :DDD twins were quiet as usual. dearies you guys gotta open up more okay! tmr's a chance for you to open up to ppl like ash. :3 gambatte ne! *hugs* and next time guitar hero with us! *imagines bishie twins playing rock guitar* 8DDD haha oops. we'll have fun another day! (: in conclusion, seoul garden was fun but not fulfillng cos they didnt have what i wanted to eat. coffee chicken and teriyaki chicken! RAWR. must go taka next time! ^^

that's all for now. im waiting for wed to come so i can blog about the k session with blazers! (:

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2009-09-26T03:21:00.004+08:00

haha i was watching pretty cure episode 1 and came across this scene. it's like damn funny pls! look at the equation. the teacher in the picture is like asking one student to solve this. why dont you try solving?

it's so lame. it cannot be solved! HAHAHA.

anw, i just decided to watch pretty cure cos i remember watching it when i was little. okay not very little. like a few years ago. although it's lame but i like it still. maybe cos of mepple. i have a mepple soft toy! :D okay i shall not continue ranting. i just decided to post this up because it's funny.

anw gynamstics today wasnt very productive but it's fun. :D at least tried back tuck again twice! abit unsuccessful but i shall try again next time! :DD and learnt the basics for front walkover. going to be successful soon! about 3/4 there alr. haha! just need to know how to land in the bridge position after hand stand. ^^ that's all for today i think. oh yeah and jumping on a gigantic trampoline is damn fun! but it can hurt when you fall. haha. yup that's all! :DD

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2009-09-25T02:47:00.002+08:00

training was fun today but also quite solemn as well, cos of the 2 hours thrashing session. but all was good! hope after clearing up all the misunderstandings we will be able to work together better and grow closer. ^^ today didnt do much cos of the thrashing session, so ended up doing 1 hour worth of pyramid. the only new thing learnt today was pop up high table top. which is really scary. i tried three times in total but failed the first two times. FELL LIKE CRAP. first time fell backwards, second time fell forwards. but both falls werent caught on video. :DD and weikee is sad because she couldnt capture my falls in time. -.- highly sadistic! but i would've like to see my forward fall though. they said it was damn nice and looked like a layout but it's a FREAKING FALL FROM A STUNT lol. haha. :D but too bad no videos. maybe i should try layout at gymnastics tmr. :D LOL KIDDING. that's mission impossible at least until i complete back tuck. or at least gather the courage to try back tuck. :D anw, you can always watch the successful video of my pop up high table top at http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=141301417527, haha. i cant say it's the best and it looks damn ugly but still, am quite proud it was a success in a way that i stayed on top of the stunt for a few seconds lol. :D enjoy! ^^

P.S meeting engracia and jing tmr! SO HAPPY. and they get to meet each other hahahahaha. :D

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2009-09-23T03:13:00.003+08:00

everytime after working at a food fair, i would think about this: how do freaking parents teach and discipline their kids nowadays? they have freaking no manners or self-conciousness you know. so irritating! they want samples, they reach into your counter and grab your sampling cups by the bunch, and wave the cups in your face to ask for samples. like what?! are you begging or something for goodness sake. seriously! they have no issue of respect here. so you think what, promoters are there to serve you like you're royalty? oh please. wake up from your ideas man, parents of obnoxious kids. we are there for the sole purpose of introducing our products to you, and to facilitate the transaction of money and goods. we are NOT there to serve and please your kids just so you'd get a small bottle of drink that the amount that we earn is practically insignificant. some parents are the best i swear. when you leave your bottle of sample on the table, turning your back to get their change, they reach in and grab the whole bottle and fill up all the sampling cups of their kids and grandmas and grandpas to the top, leaving only half the bottle after the whole round. and they put it back onto the table without saying even a slightest 'thank you' to you after consuming more than half a bottle or your freaking sample. seriously, i have no idea what singaporean parents are turning their children into. sample-detecting freaks? the kids just go anywhere where there's samples. and they wont budge until you give them a cup of sample. some are even worse, they dont even leave until they've had their fill. when you dont pour for them, they start asking you 'can i have more sample?' or 'can i have more? just now not enough.' i mean like, what? dont you feel paiseh asking for so much samples? do you not have shame? and you didnt even ask your mum or dad or whoever to buy after you drink so much. it's annoying. and the thing is that as a promoter, i cant say no to anyone who wants to try a sample. i cant stop them. but i swear the kiasu-ness of singaporeans is really getting to me.

so parents, please, do not teach your kids the wrong things! dont ask them to go around and beg for samples, it just makes you and your kids look pathetic for goodness sake. we should have a good culture and dont bring disgrace to our country. only sample when you are interested. not just take and go just because it's free! -.-

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2009-09-18T01:57:00.005+08:00

hmmm havent been blogging for quite some time... i ought to, since it's holidays now. haha... anyway, many things have happened ever since my unfortunate birthday, but i'll just update on the few important ones. ^^ i think it's gonna be a really long post so dont continue if you dont have the stamina. :D

11sept'09

Chuan hui's birthday celebration! had it at timo's house cos it rained, and ruined our supposed picnic plan at pasir ris park. so we made super last minute arrangements here and there and everyone rushed to try and make it a decent celebration for our birthday girl. turns out quite successful except for the surprise part. cos ch kind of expected timo's house when she went to take bus from orchard with wt. but oh well! hope she enjoyed! we had too much food in the end and my cocktail had more than half the huge bowl left! D: sad. i think it got thrown away by phyllo's mum when i brought it back that day. and it was super disgusting! the thing kept leaking through the ice bag when me timo and ch went to walk walk at marina square after the celebration. and it dripped on my leg like dunno how many times. and it made my slippers sticky. super eeew. i wished i had thrown it away at timo's house. T__T caralyn joined us to walk after she was done with yingen who was working at suntec. ch and timo bought stuff, but i was too broke to shop for anything. haha. and we all left for home at about 9.30 plus. heh~

12sept'09

cds cluster selection day! met michelle at the library to do our cds selection! i was abit late so she had done hers alr. in the end the whole thing only took about 15mins! compared to if you access from home i think it'd take you more than 3 hours to get into the sch network. then after that met raynor best buddy for lunch at east point's 18 chefs! i've been craving that for quite long lol. so met and talked alot of crap! the food took super long to come for some reason. i think half an hour? we were baking in the hot sun cos we were sitting outside. but it was fun anw! it's like so cool to be talking about so many stuff with a best buddy. :D esp cheer stuff! haha. hope we can get into nationals together! :DDD

13sept'09

work at expo. it was epic. cos the human flow was pathetic! maybe cos of the comex show at suntec taking place on the same weekend. D: but what brightened up the dull working hours apart from darling working with me was that bishie twins wei qi and wei yi came to visit! and gave me a super cute stitch folder! which im definitely gonna use next sem. XD thanks guys! and their mum gave me and phyllo dumplings! so nice! love you guys! and phyllo treated them juice in return. haha. i hope they like the juice! and hope it suits their healthy fruit juice tastes. :D apart from that, me, auntie esther, auntie doris and darling bought this carton of instant noodles from our neighbour stall. cos 1 carton has 8 packs of 5 packets, and it was cheaper that way. 1 carton's only $12 for 8 packs as compared to 1 pack for $2. and the mee goreng was not bad so we all decided to share and buy two packs each. haha! the brand's ABC from malaysia, try it if you have the chance! i find it so cool that they include keropok inside the noodle packet. :D so special! i prefer myojo's one for taste but this has novelty of the keropok. so i dont mind buying it. ^^

14sept'09

9 months for me and darling! and 15 months for mark and claudia! they're really a funny couple! and i applaud for their love for each other. :D they dont seem to quarrel at all! jealous. haha! but im happy for them anyway. so on that day i went out with darling and his cousins and his cousin's girlfriend. okay mainly andy, dickson and dickson's girlfriend azlin. andy got pangsehed but his gf again, cos she was working and couldnt make it. sigh! i hope to see her soon. i've never met her before! :/ so yeah, we went wild wild wet in the afternoon. bought a bikini at sheer romance cos i didnt have a swim suit. i guess i wont be wearing it much though. see how. :D there's nothing much at www actually, it's only my 2nd time there, but there's really nothing much to do. we pretty much stoned at the children's playground and kept waiting for the giant bucket to pour the water on us. i think we sat there for about 5 rounds of the bucket pouring water down. lol. we had nothing much to do anyway. so yeah. and after that, i felt unwell and didnt go for training. even though i brought all my training gear out. sigh! disappointing. shouldnt have played for so long and caused myself to feel unwell. lol. and btw, the movie aliens in the attic is not nice. it's not worth watching actually. it's a lame show just like hsm. -.-

16sept'09

had dinner at near phyllo's place with some of his relatives. it's the kind of 7th month festival dinners they have with auctions and stuff. it was crazy cos the uncles there were all smoking under the freaking tentage, making the whole place stink like hell. and my poor FOX jacket caught the smell. argh. *pissed off* but anyhow, the dinner was quite nice with the abalone (albeit small) and the kong ba baos! :D the auction was irritating but i was just there to enjoy the food. the guy who's on the stage holding the auction is seriously irritating! he can repeat the amount in hokkien for more than 10 times in a row! so he goes like "$100, $100, $100, $100, $100, $100, $100, $100...." in hokkien. -.-" and those ppl are freaking rich! they can bid for a martell gordon bleu for like what, $3k you know! freaking crazy shit. D: i was stunned. and they paid COLD HARD CASH for goodness sake. it was seriously crazy. those wine alcohol liquor had the highest bids. then those for charity one, only like up to $1k at most only. -.- freaking drunkards/smokers/potential lung cancer patients. -.-" not that im mean to curse but well, you should know how you'll end up like for excessive smoking and drinking. i mean for goodness sake, you just finished smoking a stick and moments later you pop another one into your mouth?! if you dont get lung cancer then i dont know how lung cancer patients kena lung cancer in the first place. -.- enough of those irritating ppl. hur~

17sept'09

training! after a whole wk. haha. finally did my extension liberty again! after so long. thanks larry favian terence. :D wanted to try heel stretch but unfortunately over stretched my right leg during stretching cos bryan-possessed-weikee forced my stiff right leg down. seems like my right leg's knot is still there. D: ahhh i miss daphne! how i wish she could help me step on it to get rid of it for me like she used to. haha! tried mid-tiering today for 2-2-1 and swedish fall shouldersit level. 2-2-1 was okay cos top top was rynne. just that need to remember the techniques more. but swedish fall was a big, epic failure. i just dont have the strength to push geok ghee's leg up! argh. feel weak. rahh. I WANT TO FLY. I CANT BASE. I DONT WANT TO BE STUCK MIDTIER-ING. I WANT TO FLYYYY. hur. that feels... better. lol. i want to go up swedish fall next traininggggg askdlajskdjal. okay nvm. lol. shall stop outburst-ing. haha! choosing nationals team this month end. scary! i want to get in! i hope best buddy and michelle gets in to cos i think they deserve it! ^^ i hope to get in too! dont know what are my chances cos of attendance, but i'll work hard and hope for the best! :D

hmmm seems like a long post. oh well. :D

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2009-09-05T23:22:00.003+08:00

I LOST MY FREAKING PHONE ON MY BIRTHDAY.

im so pissed off now cos now all my contacts are lost. i dont give a damn about my lousy broken phone. i need my contacts back!! ): pls kindly send me an sms starting from tuesday, 8 sept, if you see this post. include your name and birthday pls! thanks alot(:

im just gonna post about celebration with tj darlings another day and today's shopping day with darling another time. totally no mood now. cos even the pictures i took with darling are gone now. this sucks.

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2009-08-31T02:26:00.000+08:00

im going to post about thursday and friday~~ sat and sun (working days) will be another post since i have ALOT to rant and discuss. haha.

thursday was the last paper rht. manageable, but not easy. very tricky... but anw, it was the first and last paper that i left early for. i left about 20mins before the paper officially ended. like omfg i left the examination room early for once... but anw, it's over so WHO CARES. so after that waited for the whole class to finish and we left for tampines together! they were going to celebrate thaijin (TJ) birthday and i was going to meet my lovely temasek jc (TJ) darlings. she insists that tj refers to her-.- k anw, met shermaine at the inter! then claudia at the mrt station! ether came to look for us at action city looking like a farmer, and lastly dyane auntie was late and we waited for her at the mrt. they were supposed to be shopping for teacher's day present but didnt get anything in the end. so we proceeded to sakura at safra tampines! supposed to be celebrating claudia's birthday! i forgot to pass her her present OTL. gotta remember to bring it on thursday! meeting them to celebrate me and dyane's birthday! XD so okay, we were one of the first few to enter the restaurant and the last few to leave! we were there for 3 hours plus! haha. and the waiter gave us a strategic seat! it was like just next to the sashimi counter. we were all drooling! except for dyane who doesnt like raw food. but she still tried it in the end. we took lots of sashimi!! i think total-ed up to about 4 plates if you put all the sashimi that we ate together. claudia herself took at least 1 and a half plates! she estimates about 40 pieces, haha. we were taking alot of food and chatting our way off! more like bitching actually, HAHA. but it was fun! and i cant wait to see zong and everybody else! im looking forward to chalet~~ ^^ although i think it'll be in the middle of the sch term... sigh! but it'll be alright~ and we played the "I NEVER" game. SO FUN! found out about alot of funny incidents about each other, and i had fun sharing as well! miss them so much. took group photos, but cant upload cos of blogger. :/ and the iconic number 10 clip! highlight of dinner actually. haha! i'll upload pics next time! and i shant reveal too much about number 10 cos i dont want that certain someone to be embarrassed, haha. XDD

friday was supposed to be celebrate-with-boyf day but turned out to be jogging-and-exercise-your-fats-away day. woke up late, at around 12 plus. then waited for phyllo to wake up and we went to ehub to have fish and co express lunch. then aft that was supposed to head for orchard cos i wanted to go kino and the new shopping malls, but because of a slip of my tongue i suggested going home to rest and then later on go jogging at the reservoir, and it came true. -.- i think he was too lazy to go orchard that's why. in the end i ran 4.1km around the reservoir and he stopped halfway! i had to wait for him cos i dont have anything else with me except for my mp3. and i was afraid of losing him. so i jogged backwards as we did in training while waiting for him! cos it's slower and since he's walking, he'll catch up with me eventually. was tiring but i was glad i finished the course! proves my stamina is still can make it one. :D hope i wont die for the physical test kelwin has in mind... but the sense of achievement is damn high, i like it! but cant do this too often luh, puts alot of stress on my knees. :/

i'll upload sakura pics when blogger allows! love my darlings~~ cant wait to see them on thursday again~~ XD

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2009-08-24T23:49:00.000+08:00

omg why is blogger constantly having the same problem?! i cant put coloured text AND insert pictures AGAIN. anw, two papers down! microecons turned out to be quite a breeze. ob was seriously damn screwed. i was just trying to make my answers sound correct. D: it was really bad. i dont even know if my answers are correct. hurhur. well forget it. now is chiong for iht and rht! which i have barely started omfg im screwed. Dx

anw... had a few disappointments recently, and not very convenient to voice out here. so those who know... hope you can keep it to yourselves. ^^ sigh. really feed damn sad about stuff. really. plans got cancelled, relationships became rather tense... neglection... still got i dont know what. but oh well. live with it. perhaps it's only temporary... i hope so. :/

i shall go watch khr 147 then go sleep alr... oyasumi nasai~~

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2009-08-21T17:44:00.002+08:00

im so glad that microecons is over now. this stupid subject that i've been struggling with ever since last year. but then again, i've only done about 1/4 of organisational behaviour and it's really bad because the paper's gonna be on monday! i havent started studying for iht and rht as well, which will be on wed and thurs. ): BUT! dinner with 24/08 darlings aft exams is the best thing im looking forward to! and darling promised to bring me out on friday. ^^ yay! :D

i dont wanna hear about your additional stuff. what i asked you were never properly considered isnt it? only those ppl of higher popularity seems to interest you. im so sick of it. im not even involved.

so now i should seriously cherish every minute that i have and try to study! but with the saikanging for skye's cg shoot tmr and natsumatsuri, i think my day'll be burnt up sadly. i'll still try to study though! i'll be bringing my ob book around. :D

it's sickening. stop trying to make use of me to achieve your own goals. im just... not worth it right? i can be pushed around easily anw...

just some updates while im waiting for monochrome factor to load... it's an anime that i've lost track since dec last year. D: oh my that's like so long. im looking forward to the end of exams! (: all my animes are waiting for me~~~ :D

you are damn stubborn. seriously. and now it looks like the plan's cancelled cos d2 i have other stuff. it's just being thrown aside like rubbish... so im free on d1 again huh.

macross frontier, pandora hearts, tears to tiara, hayate no gotoku S2, haruhi suzumiya S2... WAIT FOR ME~~

what's befalling on me... my most precious friends... seem to be turning their backs to me... and i dont know why...

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2009-08-19T08:43:00.004+08:00

finally blogger's working! actually wanted to blog yesterday then when i hit the 'publish post' button, the internet connection went down. in the end there wasnt any saved entry so my post was just down the drain. so here's a new post! with pictures. :D house-sitting for spidey now btw. and ash is SO LATE. she's not here yet. D:

toy con for the past weekend had been really fun. saturday cosplayed as sheryl nome from macross frontier and sunday saikang-ed for saku, skye, ash and shuki. was running all over the place to look for ppl/run errands. tiring! but oh well. being helpful always bring benefits. such as the sunflower! *hearts*

i dont know why the picture is blurred. but yeah, this is my sunflower-giver, skye! she was singapore's representative this year for WCS. :D

for those people who've watched macross frontier, you'll probably know that i cosfu-ed for toy con. cos i seriously failed sheryl nome. was supposed to do ranka but couldnt get the freaking wig! asldkjlakgsdhja. so end up have to do sheryl nome. =w= and it was quite bad cos i looked like a 10-years-younger version. SIGH~ oh but we had a sheryl army! consisting of me, saku, beckie, skye and hiyuki! we were all sheryl nomes but in different versions. so cool right! and adding on shizu and her friend and this other random sheryl nome... ended up there were about 8 or more sheryl nomes in total on saturday. so it was quite epic. haha! here are some pics anw. ^^

picture taken by eriol~

SHERYL ARMY! *hearts hearts*

one of my individual pictures which actually looks nice (although chibified. RAWR)

so yes, that's for sheryl nomes. day 2 (sunday) i was saikanging so i didnt see much stuff. was busy fangirling over misaki for her len! LIKE OMG SO HAWT. 8D totally bishie! ^^ and i had a chance to molest her HOHOHO. *evil laughter* super hot~~ i think i'll fail as len for afa when i do with saku... ): anw, so ash did gino and shuki did anya, from code geass. i dont have a pic with shuki so here's one of ash looking bishie! (ash, you're not a failed gino la pls. -.-)

credits to gf for lending his pants! :DDD

so yeah, that's the end of toy con... met alot of new ppl! which im happy for. now i know more cosplayers :DDD ariki, skye, hiyuki, beckie, jing, asumi... wee~ :D natsumatsuri this sat! cant wait~ in the middle of my exams though. Dx but oh well, half a day off wont kill i guess. i'll just have to put in more effort to study! ^^ supposed to start on microecons revision now but i've been slacking! must get back to it soon. only 6 chapters left! jiayou! must chiong all by today! :D

that's all for now~~ it's a long post i guess. haha! (weiting, got pictures leh! XD)

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2009-08-14T01:08:00.002+08:00

am currently damn pissed off with a certain individual whose origins are not local. i wont be surprised if that person who read this wont know that im talking about him/her. since he/she failed his/her english horribly. determine the difference between need and want. and im not ordering you around. im merely proposing a request. sheesh. get your own life and dont mess with mine like i've offended you alright. all i did was ask, like seriously. anw enough of that fat blob.

watched khr in bcs today! but it was ultimate slow in streaming. one episode took 2.5 hours to load! how crazy is that? even my slowest internet connection is not that slow. i hereby conclude that tp should provide faster internet connections to help students keep up with the fast-improving technologies. haha. okay im crapping. lol. anw, was so touched when mini mosca protected spanner-san! D8 nearly teared. he's like damn cute pls! i thought it had battle abilities because it always threatened tsuna with its hand, with fingers resembling barrels of guns, so i thought it was to shoot bullets or sth. then in the end it's like, it shoot popcorn out. -.- but still mini mosca is so cute! and it died. T___T so sad! stupid deathstalkers. disgusting propagating lumps of flesh. ARGH.

training was the ultimate. learned like so many freaking things today. but havent finish learning one thing then proceed to another. then havent perfect one thing then move to another also. but oh well. it facilitates learning somehow. i need to improve on my pop! it looks horrible and i still cant get it right. hmmmm. i need more practice on it. somehow when i try to remember on one area, i forget the other. like there are so many things running through my mind and things i have to keep track of in that 1.5 seconds when im suspended in air. gotta improve! i cant let my seniors and peers down. :D did extension liberty again today for the 2nd time, first time was on tues. haha. did okay except ankle keep shaking and hips cant keep straight. ): then tried the omgosh freaking scary extended liberty heel stretch! did it like once and crashed down before they could pop me. ): im sorry guys! and it was an awkward fall somemore. sighhh. need to improve on my flexibility and skill of it before i try that again! (: overall learnt alot for today's training! hope to continue learning and do well in everything! i want to perfect them so much. argh. must put in more effort for conditioning!

this has been a wordy post. so i shall stop soon. but i shall say, if you're going stcc this saturday, look out for a chibified sheryl nome! (:

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2009-08-10T04:30:00.003+08:00

i just realised the fragility of the objects around me. they may appear strong, but deep inside, they're just like breakable glass pieces. kind of made me think about myself as well. am i going to survive this harsh 3 years of my life? i actually have no choice. if i dont survive, i wont be able to in the future. so i must perservere, i must move forward.

cheer up my dear friend. it'll be over soon. and i'll always be here for you! :D

within illusions are real illusions.

within real illusions are illusions.

within truth are lies.

within lies are truth.

that is the mist.

p.s. whose famous quote is this? if you know, leave a tag! :D no prizes though. *test on general knowledge. 8D*

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2009-08-10T00:42:00.004+08:00

yay blogger finally fixed the problem! :D so now i can put coloured text again. i enlarged my font size as well cos weiting requested it. since she say my font very small. lol. and she complained my blog's picture-less. so this entry im spamming pics man. :D so here are a few pictures from the ANGEL SANCTUARY photoshoot! (hakuouki one will be a post by itself when the pics are fully out. ^^) well actually they're just some of the photos that i have with me, and they're rather nice. XD so im just gonna put some up~~

the full AS team! :D [cosplays by phyllo, saku, kei, me, ash and shinji]

sara and setsuna mudou!

michael. [small boy!] cosplayed by ashley:D

sara and setsuna. looks like some wedding! SO COOL.

jibril and her reincarnation, sara. (jibril by saku twinnie! :D)

and i realised i just increased the number of cosplay plans i have. OTL. unexpectedly added one plan for toy con saturday! Dx and for those who know what im doing, keep quiet. it's a secret! :D so ppl, MAKE YOURSELVES FREE ON SATURDAY TO GO DOWN TO THIS AWESOME EVENT! singapore toy and comic convention at suntec convention centre, 15 and 16 aug! :D well if you're going you can always tell me. :D i'll look out for you definitely. :DDD this shall be a short but AWESOME post. happy national day everyone!

btw, i think the lrm t-shirt totally not worth the money. it's damn ugly, im sorry to say. D: i prefer my cg24/08 shirt better! *loves* miss you darlings - claudia, dyane, ether, shermaine, peck. :D

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2009-07-31T23:06:00.000+08:00

Apparently i cant put coloured text on blogger now, and i dont understand why. oh well. (: today was a hectic day! skipped rht lecture (which i seriously intended to go) because of persistant stomachaches. im still having them now at 11pm even after a whole day! sigh. so turned up for rht tutorial instead. had our test on spss, which turned out to be rather easy, although i was cursing at the questions when i first saw them. think i misinterpreted the questions at first read. haha. they turned out to be quite okay actually. except for the last question which asked about the shape of the distribution. i went D: at it. but oh well, 1 mark gone is not a big deal as long as i can still ace the paper. :D

went for lunch at ITAS after drawing lots! meiyan, weiting, chuanhui, caralyn and i came up with this drawing lots system where we draw lots to choose where to go eat if we couldnt decide on where to go for lunch! it turns out to be rather effective, esp for deciding places for eating. :D so today was ITAS! ate the chicken rice there. not bad, better than what was expected. but i couldnt finish my chicken and i had to dump like 4 pieces of meat away. if darren came earlier maye i could treat him as my dustbin so that the chicken would not be wasted, but the cleaning auntie was like one step faster than him and cleared the plate before i could ask him to eat them...

skipped OB today cos of the focus group discussion thing. met daphne darling at aljunied mrt station! then took bus 100 down to the concourse. the focus group discussion was fun! we talked about breakfast and all sorts of foods. :D and we had a go at wendy's food! we tried two items, and one was nice! :D when they open an outlet in singapore im so gonna buy that again! :DD and also, i earned like $80 from the focus group discussion! haha! it's gonna pay for more than half of my rachel wig. .__. haha. so after the discussion, went back on 100 with daphne darling. we caught up alot! esp on dance and studies and whatnot. :D i need to go out with her again! oh man, miss the times we danced together like crazy! and of course not to mention v-day last year was spent with her! :DD sigh. i miss tj. :/

updates on cosplay stuff! upcoming cosplays!
- Blazblue Rachel Alucard
- Chrome Shelled Regios Felli Loss

well im not really that well-off so my plans stop here. as for next year and more plans, have to go through thorough discussions first! and must find ppl to cosplay with as well. :D although i found ash's recommendation of kagamine rin very enticing. :D cos kei wanted to do len. lol~ well, must see if kei really wanna do len or not first, haha. :D and whether she's okay with me as rin. since i look so omgidunnowhattosay. i think i shall stop here for now. i havent finished collecting the hakuoui ps photos yet, although i have some with me. so if you want to go see some of them first, can either go to my deviantart @ melo-01.deviantart.com or sgcafe's cosplay photoshoot threads. (: byee~~

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2009-07-27T00:43:00.003+08:00

hakuouki photoshoot last week, angel sanctuary this week. two photoshoots on two consecutive saturdays! they were super fun! :D damn long never cosplay alr, so kind of forgot how fun it is to cosplay. hahas. (: shall blog about them seperately! heh.

hakuouki PS!

it's a reverse harem game. which means one girl and many guys. HAHA. so i cosplayed the girl. and the guys were cosplayed by kei, ash, cubie, jesuke, rina, mel and misaki(rolo)! we had our photoshoot at sushi tei holland village and botanical gardens! the shoot was damn epic please. throughout the whole day i had to run here run there take photos with so many different 'guys'... and getting bullied by them as well. zzz. but it was a good experience for me to able to cosplay with such good cosers like jes and cubie and misaki and, aiya everybody luhs~~ 8D thanks for not 嫌弃-ing such a horrible chizuru. :/ shall post pictures when i get all of them. 8DD er, okay maybe i wont post all. cos there are some shots that i dont want to post. OTL esp the one that everyone was camping for. like seriously wth~~ so embarassing! and im not even very close to that partcular coser. ORZ super 崇拜 her one somemore. zzz... anw after the photoshoot ended we chionged down to benten cafe at iluma! haha. 15ppl in total lol. so many ppl la. but i met lots of new friends! like bimbo sano (-papercut), cubie, jes, amano, XkaOnslaught, wenz, misaki... hahas. i hope got the chance to photoshoot/cosplay with them again! (:

angel sanctuary PS!

took place yesterday! saturday 25july. haha! it's a manga with alot of sensitive topics like christianity and incest. LOL. and i belong to the incest pair of siblings with kei cosplaying as my big brother and im his little sister. -.- yesterday was epic as well, with all the gay flowers that saku brought! haha! the flowers were like stem-less so kei went to pick up tree branches to use as stems. like wth right hahaha. then everyone started gay-ing with those flowers and ended up taking gay shots. GAH. *does not wish to be reminded* shinji and phyllo were gaying together. so ZZZ pls. i was either with kei or saku. hahas. oh yeah, forgot to mention the place. we were taking at telok blangah hill park and it was at the peak. and it was damn hot. then the sun keep coming out and going back and we kept hiding from it. it was super funny lah. but the AS group is more of ppl that i know la. like saku, freedom, doubutsuen, amano... just that i nv met songster before. and windy came when the photoshoot was going to end. hahas. he damn sad la. kippei was there also for some reason. and omfg he actually recognised me after last seeing me at afa/eoy last year i think. LOL! he said he wont forget my chibi look. like wth. OTL photoshoot ended around early evening yesterday, and we went to just acia at ps to eat. (: after that we went our seperate ways. haha. i will also post up the pictures on my blog after i get them!

so that's about it. in between the two photoshoots are like days filled with homework, chionging projects and cheerleading. practically no time for proper rest lah. zzz. today stayed at home to chiong bcs web proj and managed to finish it by early night time, heng sia. but realised didnt do quite alot of stuff like using new features/functions but heck it la. hurhur. hope it's good enough to get me A or at the leastest a B. ahhh but i dont wanna get B. ): i want to be a straight A student! (although kind of impossible... LOLs) okay i shall go watch my anime and sleep soon, since tmr i have to wake up early for a reason too risky to be posted up here on my blog. hahs. nights~~

140

2009-07-15T21:53:00.003+08:00

happy 7 months to myself and darling and 13 months to claudia and mark! :D

michelle! dont be jealous okay(: there are reasons why raynor is called best buddy. but you are my best michelle! :D and also my bestest stretching partner. ^^ so dont be so upset! (:

hey geok ghee! (: let's go gym someday so you can guide me properly! :DDD

omg, cosfest was super tiring. but enjoyed it nevertheless. :D just that saw some people i wouldnt want to see. but oh well, cant stop her from popping up in front of me even if i dont want to. so heck it~ :D did ANGEL SANCTUARY for day one and HAKUOUKI for day two! female characters this time~ cos i cant pull off a freaking male look. lol. anw kei's big ass wings caught alot of attention so it was a good thing for our whole team. shinji also attracted quite alot of attention with his gas mask and mechanical wings. :D shall not upload photos yet since i dont have the raw ones with me and i'd prefer to upload photoshoot pictures cos they'll be better planned and prettier. (: but i particularly like this one that usagi took. :DDD i want to get the raw so i can put as my laptop wallpaper! :D

HAHAHA this is the one. :DDD it's like the nicest of all AS pictures at cosfest la. *hearts* and kei just so happen to look so handsome here. tskkk. if praise her too much she will climb over my head. so i shall stop here. hahaha. lol.

chalet has been fun as well! made many new friends hahahaha(: like kelvin, daniel, sean/shawn (dunno which spelling)... the rest like sakurazaki, acktosh, julia and zero i knew them beforehand just that i didnt talk to them much. oh wait, i used to talk to sakurazaki ALOT in the past on msn! hehe. :D anw she has gotten so pro over this short period of time and im still stuck at being noobish. sighhh. anw, the guitar hero and rock band at the chalet was super fun and helped to pass time, thanks to maomao and shinji~ :D

im currently addicted to vocaloid all thanks to saya and hibiki! and ash's constant influence. anw, watch this super super funny and cute video by saya, hibiki and yun! YUN IS SUPER CUTE AS LEN. :DDDD

haha it's super nice la! :D

okays i shall get back to doing my projects or else i dont need to sleep tonight alr. OTL.

byes~~

P.S hakuouki photoshoot this weekend, cant wait! ~~just not looking forward to being hugged by 某某人~~ arghhhh.

139

2009-07-09T15:35:00.002+08:00

finally updating. for once. haha. BEST BUDDY, THIS IS FOR YOU LAH TOTALLY.
omg, cosfest is in 2 days! .__. im super stressed out and depressed. stressd by cosfest and also school work. cos i have so much projects and tutorials due next week and i havent completed even half of them! im so dead. Dx depressed by that chizuru at TGX. i am so gonna phail epicly and get overshadowed by all the bishies surrounding me on sunday. noo~~~ T__T and my sara is so gonna be super NON-eyecatching cos i'll be like overshadowed by kei's aura as well. sigh~ ):

im like in the school lab now, stoning. cos it's stupid bcs and i dont understand a thing. i didnt even do the tutorials, haha. i think my class participation for bcs is chui one. lol. cos i dont like it and it's like super unnecessary! -.- and keith is like punching the keyboard playing some game and it's super obvious he's not listening in class cos his keyboard sound is like so loud. D:

cheer training has been good! PT is beginning to have more effect. esp on the abs and thigh muscles! and i want triceps. HAHA. my biceps are growing but not my triceps. which is screwed. okay i shall stop getting obsessed with my muscles. unlike some people... LOL.

i want to rant about some stuff actually. but i realise if i say it out and ppl know who im talking about, it'll cause conflicts. and i dont want conflicts cos i have another 3 years with that particular person assuming that person is still around in my environment. but best buddy has listened to my rants so i shall spare you all the agony. (:

i hope my darling girls have done well for jcts! (: claudia, ether, shermaine, dyane, peck... i miss you guys! i wanna study with you all soon. (: yay! i'll date you all when my exams are nearing so we can study together and you all can teach me econs! :D okay the lab is so freaking cold and my hands are just freezing up.

i cant wait for cosfest seriously. it'll be so super fun. 8D but then again at the end of the day when we go back to the chalet it's back to chionging homework and projects. and i have damn alot of stuff to bring to the chalet and back! thank goodness we have our transportation specialist, maomao and his beloved van! :DDD anw, if you are coming to cosfest, just give me a call or message so i'll go look for you when you reach(: hopefully you cant recognise me! (cos you're not supposed to and im not supposed to look like myself. HAHA.)

i shall stop for now then. i need to go off to make a list of what to bring to the chalet and stuff. HAHA. i hope i dont forget anything. if not, im screwed. i'll update reallyyyyy soon. haha(:

138

2009-06-15T00:45:00.002+08:00

six months! i love my darling LIM BAO JUN! :D forever(:

sounds cheesy but yes, that's how i really feel. many things have been happening lately and i dont have the motivation/energy to go blog about them. sad right. like the pulau ubin trip and the sentosa outing! [poor weiting didnt even get to suntan when she went on sat hahahaha~] maybe i'll blog about it soon or sth. D: im really sorry for keeping my blog dead but yeah. hurhur. after midsem tests things were like crazy so yeah.

im here just to mark the milestone! oh and i realised my grammer is getting from bad to worse. AHHH help me, god of english, whom granted me an A2... =A= oh well, no use ranting about it. i should do sth about the issue, like read more books. yanhui i wanna borrow angels and demons! hahaha. okay i shall go back to peeling my sunburnt skin. :DDD

137

2009-06-03T17:46:00.004+08:00

i should really be studying for rht now since im going to ash's house to play tmr. but then again it's rht, i cant get started on it. cos it's really boring! it's a lame subject whereby we learn how to use this computer software called the SPSS programme to collate survey results. actually it would have been rather useful for pw if i knew how to operate this kind of software when i did pw last year, but oh wells. so currently im getting distracted on the computer while not studying for rht. and the worse part is im going to find darling at suntec later. woots. there goes my plan for studying today. lol.

i shall stop it with the depressing stuff. i really wanna thank meiyan for copying the blanks from lecture 5 for me on monday night! it's like the night before the microecons paper and you woke up from your half-asleep state to copy for me cos i messaged you. im so touched! thanks sao. :D and i cant bear to eat the chocolates you gave! haha.

oh yeah. saturday was fun! went down in the evening to find kei and ash cos kei was having her suzaku photoshoot with rina. :D it was damn funny really. like how she became 15cm taller in the split of a second cos of her wonderful platform boots. HAHA. i tried them on and omg, it really makes a whole lot of difference being 15cm taller! i would be taller than ashley, i would be around phy's height... and i can breathe fresher air. lol. i shall consider getting a pair of platforms by new year next year. hehe. oh yeah and i noticed new piercings on kei's ear! and it turns out that she went to pierce her ear for setsuna! like omg! for setsuna! who is actually my brother for cosfest. lol. haha but it's really cool and i love her spirit and dedication for cosplay. i mean, i wont go and get a belly piercing just cause the character i want to cosplay has one. i'd rather not do that cos a belly piercing is permanent and it's so painful. D: i wouldnt even want to get another ear piercing please. it's like, so painful. haha.

the zoo field trip on sunday was damn fun! went with ashley(: i havent been to the zoo in like 10 years! can you believe that? and it seems to me the zoo is smaller than it used to be. or maybe cause i was such a small kid back then that the zoo seemed so huge. lol. saw lots of animals! and kangaroos and wallabies! and polar bears~ the polar bear really reminded me of coco! haha. so cute la. ate at ah meng restaurant where i spent more than $10 on chicken rice and a drink. so expensive! they're out to make you broke. =A= for the sake of project work there's not much complaining to do. even though i had to spend alot for that day, i really enjoyed myself. and all the pictures that we took are really nice and pretty! (: loved the boat ride so much! it didnt make me seasick at all. haha. i still remember when i became seasick on the cruise in sec3 during oac, on the way to kusu island. haha. but i would really wanna go kusu island again. it's like so nice. hopefully i can go someday with the zoo ppl or darling or my lovelies in tj or the crazy mehmehs of 1K06. (:

stupid ashley made me high over saya and hibiki, these two really good cosplayers from japan. and who started it? KEI. -.- but they are really hot! saya is superrrr pretty and hibiki is really damn damn damn bishie! *hearts* let me post one super hot picture. :D

hibiki; saya~

hibiki *hearts* saya!

i ended up uploading 3 photos instead lol. :D but but dont you agree! saya is so prettyyy. and and and hibiki is so handsome! :D and for one suzalulu pic. warning: gay content. skip the photo if you do not wish to be exposed to gayism. HAHA. the star line marks the start of danger zone...

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so hot right! hibiki is cosplaying lelouch and saya is doing suzaku. :DDD woots. so hot. :D and it's one of the rare times that saya actually semes hibiki. since hibiki is always the guy and saya is always the girl. hohoho. now ashley and kei must be damn happy cos i kena psycho-ed to fangirl over saya and hibiki also. -.- but but! hibiki is the ultimate love. :D so shuai! *_* faints-

haha okay i shall stop fangirling already. hope they have more lovely photoshoots together so i can fangirl somemore. :D i check their blogs everyday! like an ultimate fangirl would. (: i shall stop here since i alr spent the past 30mins digressing. lol. i shall watch bleach tonight! yay! with mummy since i have not watched bleach with her for quite some time now. lol.

rht chiong ahhh~~

disclaimer: all above pictures are taken from either saya or hibiki's blog.

http://dearestsaya.blog111.fc2.com

http://lovexdrug.web.fc2.com/top.html

136

2009-06-03T02:45:00.004+08:00

haha i shall spam pics first(: cos i feel like it. :D

this post shall be dedicated to a photos flood~

firstly! some pictures of 1K06! (:

chuan hui, meiyan, me, weiting!

me and meiyan!

weiting and me! (:

now for the zoo field trip!

a cute lamb! (i think it's a lamb...)

belle, who dropped her hay on the floor. haha. so cute!

the polar bear! (: which reminds me of my dog. :D

pinkie and me at the zoo! we were watching the splash safari show. HAHA. :DD

lalala. now are pics from kei's photoshoot! (:

the full-time and part-time saikang! :D

suzaku: "you have no where to run, lelouch."

lelouch: "nooo...."

the handsome protagonist, me and ashley(:

someone so handsome la. haha.

see see, again the handsome person appears.

and now a random but lovely moment, this is me and my darling(: AT WORK. -.-

fruit juice~ fruit juice~

135

2009-05-28T23:27:00.003+08:00

i feel so hardworking today! i did 200 crunches, 45 pushups and trained on flexibility! :D hey kelwin, i really got do at home one okay! (:

had excel test and i did my ob quiz today also. both As! so happy. im walking towards my goal of that wonderful scholarship which pays me $500 a month man! :D iHT test was an A too! so it's three As already for now. i hope comm skills i cna manage an A as well. ): term tests next wk and i've barely started. as usual! haha. im a super last minute mugger. although im trying to change this bad habit. heh.

yesterday didnt go sch cause i woke up feeling unwell. runny nose and phlegm with tummy ache and headache. so phyllo's parents brought me to see their family doctor since i stayed at his house the night before. (: so nice! then tried to finish up my excel proj when we went back home. after that went to watch angels and demons again with aaron, phyllo's cousin, and phyllo. since i was sick and i ate super drowsy medicine, so i slept though half the movie. haha. then went to taka to watch tj dance! (: SYF + year1 college day item + alumni's item. nice! miss those times that i used to dance with daphne, angel, sheila, dicky, leon and all! :/ oh well. im looking forward to alumni's item for next year's tj dance concert. :D

i wanted to post some pictures but im lazy. haha. so i shall only post one. (: taken yesterday! :D

i love you darling(:

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2009-05-25T01:46:00.004+08:00

lalala. i thought i might update my blog with some lovely pictures i took recently. (:

me and ash at the human wheelbarrow challenge @ TP! 0952 is love. (:

FF distant world concert day! had dessert at ichiban boshi at esplanade. me and darling shared ice cream for the first time. HAHA.

pretty jermain and caralyn at ikea! we went to buy mousepads and camwhore. :D

jermain, caralyn and unglam weiting. hahahahaha.

jermain playing with the children's slide. haha.

secret snapshot of weiting being fascinated by the children's play station in ikea lol. :DDD

i wanted to upload the beng-ish photo of darling but i decided not to spoil his image. haha. damn i should be doing my excel hwk and i digressed to blogging. oh well. damn you excel. damn you stupid tut*rs. rawr. shall let express my anger some other time. now it's back to hwk/sleep! next wk is gonna be fun although it's one wk before mid-sem tests. :/ cause i get to go out with darling on wed(: yay~~

133

2009-05-17T23:18:00.002+08:00

i was unhappy when i heard he wasnt going home with me. i was so unhappy that i nearly couldnt control my tears. it wasnt his fault he couldnt go home with me actually. but i just felt really unhappy WITH HIM. then after we went seperate ways i started to feel really sad that tears were just welling up in my eyes for some reason that i couldnt explain. i was concious that it wasnt his fault, but i just put the blame on him even if i didnt want to. i gave him attitude to show that i was unhappy but he didnt catch the hint, so i got more fustrated. but when he told me he missed me and he loved me, i knew i couldnt blame him anymore. so i ended up being angry at myself for blaming him. i wasnt very nice to him during this period cos i was in a bad mood. it just made things worse. because he ended up being angry at me. i know the fault lies with me but i have no idea why im like this. but it still boils down to one thing and that is i love him alot. and it's because i love him that's why these things happen. i just hope that he understands someday.

im so tired my legs are going to break. oh damn training tmr. DDD:

132

2009-05-08T21:54:00.002+08:00

i didnt go to school today again. ): SIGH. and i didnt manage to get an mc as well! ): im allowed two absences without reason [i.e MC or LOA] for each subject so this time i dont have an mc to cover for rht and OB. that means i cant miss OB and rht again without MC alr. i hope they dont reschedule our timetables so during the cosfest period i wont miss these lessons(:

yesterday was fun! well kind of. went lunch with some of the class guys and jermain at tampines 1 cos comm skills ended early. mr ramesh was on mc so we only had to do some worksheets and plan abit of our essay outline and we could go off. haha. we ate at bbq chicken! it was very empty. lol. the guys who went were timothy, teck ee, ivan [lao er], keith[lao da] and kayhwa. faruq came and join us after lunch. so we accompanied jermain to go play ddr after lunch! and she's really pro. like some mad woman okay. step so fast. -.- haha. then after that they accompanied me to tampines sports hall to find ether and shermaine!

i went there to get my class t-shirt from ether. saw dyane and zongyao as well! haha. it's been such a long time since i last saw them. okay i last saw dyane two weeks ago, but ether shermaine and zongyao has been like more than a month alr i guess. i think i've to go back more often! hehe. shall ask them out for lunch on tues(: yay~ i got my pretty class t-shirt from ether then we cabbed back to school. lol. cos they scared we were gonna be late for bcs lab so we chionged back to school in two seperate cabs haha. our whole class was slacking throughout the whole of bcs! facebook plus ebuddy hahaha. because bcs is really boring. ): excel sucks. sigh. i think i should learn how to pay attention in lab lessons more. :/ if not im seriously gonna flunk excel. and i hope i can catch up with rht and OB since i missed lessons today. rht is gonna be so... ):

tmr's vesak day! got plans... i wanted to go sentosa with the blazers! so sad now im gonna miss out everything. sighhh. and i havent full recovered yet from the flu that i just caught yesterday. -.- i wanna be able to train on monday! so i wont be just sitting there and letting my butt rot while the rest train and have fun. ): i want to have funnnn tooooo i want sentosaaaa. ):

i want to play restaurant city really badly but the kuku acer laptop is not loading my game. RAWR. i want my fujitsu laptop by next week! fujitsu you better call me soon or else i will spam your customer service hotline with spam calls i tell you. rawr.

131

2009-05-06T23:39:00.002+08:00

actually i have nothing much to blog about. oh microecons lecture ended super early today! which made me happy(: and thanks darling for bringing my comm skills textbook all the way down to school for me:D although you're sitting next to me right now but i dont think you can see it anyway. haha. yes, im spending the night at phyllo's house again tonight. for fun. (: no lah, actually it's for the internet access. cos my compaq crashed yet again. ): i want my fujitsu now now now! rawr. can they call me sooooon. ):

i wanna thank my lovely classmates for caring about me! thanks guys im really okay now(: just sore throat no swine flu. (: and edmund lim should just go bang his head against the wall. he is so ANNOYING. haha. super like to ji siao me la wth. he will get it some day. JUST WAIT. mwahahaha.

i saw pinkie alot of times today! and as usual she was trying to irritate me with econs. lol. haha hope we can have some doubutsuen time together soon! hanging around tp ppl too much that i've not been seeing my doubutsuen ppl for some time except for phy darling and pinkie ash. haha.

YAY meeting ether tmr to get the cg2408 shirt! :DDD cant wait. i actually have no idea how the design looks like haha. but im sure it'll be very nice. (: but then again, $18 flown away. i hope my money gets transferred in soon. heh. and im super upset i forgot to bring my psp out of my house today! and it was fully charged. ): now i cant continue my mana khemia game today and tmr. ): i have to wait until i go home after cheer training tmr. rawr.

i hope i can attend training tmr! although im not looking forward to the PT. sigh. which reminds me. i saw raynor alot of times today, and saw zijun and natasha as well! natasha looked damn tired. which worries me about what happened during training to make her like this. :/ maybe i should just watch tmr. hurhur. oh well. i need the exercise but my throat still hurts occasionally. i'll see how about it! (:

and... im going to turn in soon i guess. just giving a short [or not] update for the ppl who actually come my blog haha. which i think, is no one. lol. byes for now~

P.S i want to emphasise the unfairness! why poly no holiday in lieu for vesak day! ):

130

2009-05-03T20:37:00.003+08:00

it's been such a long time since i was last here! two weeks exactly. the last post was before school started omgosh. haha. (: school's been okay still, with the past week filled with cheer training and dance audition. but i've decided to join cheerleading afterall! :D and darling's not gonna oppose to it anymore. (: i love you darling.

school work's been fine so far, with comm skills resembling gp. [the horror of betty boop] microecons is a drag but at least the topics they've gone through are things that i've done before so it's not THAT bad. i think it's gonna get worse soon. and im totally not looking forward to the horror it might bring. just submitted the BCS e-learning assignment two hours ago. and i think it's a really bad piece of work cause i really have no idea how to do it. im so gonna get a D for it. *dies* by the looks of things it's gonna be really hard for me to get the scholarship that i want. ):

okay i shall not dwell on with the depressing stuff. school's been fun cause of my classmates, training and trips to darling's house after school(: i think im staying over at darling's house way too often. my classmates give me the surprised look whenever i tell them im not going home that night or when they see me wearing the same clothes the next day. but his parents always welcome me to stay over especially when school ends late, so im really thankful for that. and of course i gotta thank darling for letting me sleep in his bed and let me hog his pillow and bolster and blanket whenever i stayover. hehe. and he has to squeeze with his brother and his sister has to squeeze with his parents. i love his family(:

back with training stuff! the past week has been really tiring but i always have a sense of achievement after every PT session. but more hell is gonna come. cos for the whole of this week, we've only been doing HALF the normal PT! ohmygoodness me. i think i will crumble below the physically-straining PT... i shall explain more of what the PT consists next time cos when i think of the PT tmr, i start to melt. i dont wanna do PT and tumbling! i cant do forward rolls for goodness sake. and it's the most basic tumbling! i foresee that my cheerleading career will be a very difficult one. hurhur. *bitter laughter* oh well. at least the crunches that we do will help me rid my tummy. :D that's one thing to be thankful of for sure. (:

i miss mummy and the rest! i went back for lunch with casper and sheila the week before and happened to meet mummy, dyane, ashma and the rest while sending the two back to school. after chit chatting with them for awhile, the rest left while i walked to the 48 bus stop with mummy! how i love the times we used to talk non-stop! we have endless topics to talk about! that's what i love about my darlings at tj. (: we crap way too much haha! but catching up with them is always fun(: i hope i can see them again soon! maybe i'll get them to lunch with me on a certain tuesday. but definitely not this coming tuesday cos im having a really bad sore throat and i dont have the mood to eat anything really.

work has been fun as well! worked back at the restaurant on labour day. met alot of new faces. new part-timers and full-timers. heh. but didnt interact much with them. cos i still stick back with my old colleagues more. and i finally get to see my mentor after such a long time! it's been two months since i last saw her. haha! then saturday i was busy working at jurong point selling chocolates. it was fun working with darling despite the bad sore throat. i had to run to drink the herbal drink darling's mum prepared for me like every so often. but also due to too much talking i did yesterdaty, my voice got worse and my throat is inflammed. [i think] it's really painful to swallow stuff! even water. so basically i just lose all my appetite to eat cause of this. sigh. i wanna eat biz park western food. sudden craving lol. btw biz park is the name of the business school canteen! we also have mensa and mensa 2. the western food at mensa 2 is really popular and famous! even non-TP ppl know about that stall. i tried their grilled dory the other day and it was really really delicious! i hope that they sell chicken lagsagne soon so that me and weiting can get to eat it! :D we both dont take beef haha.

i uploaded some really outdated photos but i think they're worth uploading. (: they're taken at phyllo's class chalet! (:

me and some of his class girls! i know cassandra, zhen ni and wanling! haha.

in the swimming pool! i was forced in... -.-

darling and i(:

i think he looks way better when he smiles with his teeth la.

do note his FAT tummy. haha. (:

i shall go facebook now. it's been ages since i went there too. heh. bye for now!

P.S im getting my *NEW* laptop soon woohooo! it's fujitsu~~~

129

2009-04-20T00:46:00.002+08:00

doubutsuen bbq today was hot and fun! haha. i have this really bad t-shirt tan right now. hurhur. and im really dark compared to my previous skin colour. all thanks to darling phy starting the bbq at 2.30pm! then we were all bbq-ing the food along with ourselves. haha. but we stopped bbq-ing at 7.15pm cos the rain was fast approaching from tekong! and the lightning was super scary... and seeing tekong reminds me of mark! and therefore claudia. i miss you guys back at tj! ):

school's starting officially tmr. and i have a two-hour lecture on introduction to hospitality and tourism tmr. i hope it's gonna be fun. all my lectures are gonna be two hours long btw. it's not like jc anymore, with lectures being only 50mins each. i made new friends! not many but still a few. (: my classmates and some of ash's friends. hehe.

the start of school also means i wont get to see darling so often anymore. ): i think i'll be in super duper bad mood cos of this and have mood swings but i guess it's just part and parcel of school life. it's not as bad as compared to mark and claudia! sigh. although i just saw him just now but now im alr missing him like crazy. =A= i am sooo gonna die in poly. rawr. im so envious of wan ting! her boyfriend is in the same school AND the same course! just different classes... so it's not that bad! sighhh~ i sound like im really lovesick right now so i shall stop whining.

i shall go slp now~ i hope i'll have more stuff to blog about soon. oh i definitely will. wednesday probably. im gonna come home and rant all about the microecons lecture. HURHUR. econs ftw~ [sarcasm.]

128

2009-04-18T01:03:00.002+08:00

TP orientation just ended! business school won overall champion for the 5th time in a row~~ lalala. but actually our cheering was quite chui one, i think the temasek regatta pulled our scores up. haha. school's starting next wk! abit excited, but im deinitely not looking forward to econs. :/ it's an econs nightmare! my first tutorial; first period of the week is a 2-hour microecons tut. AHHHH SOMEONE SAVE ME. im gonna go crazy at the rate of this econs nightmare. @_@

hmmm. actually i dont feel much of a difference from jc and poly. cos in poly we're also having tutorials and lectures and lab periods. school starts later, but ends at the same timings. lunch is about the same 1 hour break, the way you study is the same as well. all i can say that's different is that you can wear what you like and tie your hair however you like it. apart from that there's not much difference for the time being. but this is how i feel la. i dont know how the days ahead of me will be like...

it's 4th month for me and phy! yay~ i got to eat crab for the first time of my life too on that day. haha. because he specially went to the supermarket in the morning to get it and cooked it for dinner. (: it was nice! the steamed one. heh. i dont like the one cooked with the maggi chilli thing that much. i prefer normal steamed crabs. haha okay i know this sounds pathetic but this is really my first time eating crabs okay! that is if you dont include soft shell crabs la but phy says soft shell crabs are not counted as eating real crabs cos you dont need to crack their shells etc. heh. it was a nice dinner with darling and his family as usual. (:

rawr im so into harvest moon right now that im like going around trying to download all the harvest moon games that are playable on psp! and the oldest version i've got so far is the first ever harvest moon that works only on the SNES (a.k.a Super Nitendo Entertainment System). and the snes comes even before ps1, so you can imagine how old the game is. i can play it on my psp through the snes emulator. cool right! i love harvest moon. yay~~ and in the usual harvest moon i play, which is known as harvest moon back to nature for boy and girl, all my chickens are named phyllo. WAHAHAHA. i have four chickens now and so they go like, phyllo, phyllo II, phyllo III and phyllo IV. lalala~ okay this is just sth i have been wanting to say for so long lol.

i really wanna join cheerleading in tp! but i cant. because im not allowed to. ): i hope something can change his mind. sighhh. i dont mind dance but i'd rather be in cheerleading. sighhhh. oh well. seeing the business cheer team at orientation just now doing stunts brings back all the nice memories of cheerleading at tj and cedar for me. i miss cheer so much! :/ if i could just fly again, i would be a happy person(: but it's not like im not happy now. it's just that it'll make me happier. hahaha. and you can have nice abs la omg. sighhhh.

okay my thoughts are all jumbled up! as usual. poly lectures are usually 2 hours long! but at least we can use our labtops to take down notes so it's not that bad. (: at least we can *coughmulti-taskcough* while writing notes. hurhurhur. okay this is rubbish. im not supposed to do that if i want to take that cert programme for cds clusters. rawr. i shall stop babbling now. i miss my tj darlings. ppl! study hard! (:

and congrats to TJDANCE for getting gold in SYF'2009!!! it was really good(:

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2009-03-16T02:34:00.002+08:00

3 months isnt a very long time but i've got 100% confidence now that we can make it through(:

tj talentime was damn damn nice! totally worth the ticket price. and those who made it worth? of course it's ODOC! [Our Dance, Our Crew] woots~~~ they were awesome! like seriously damn damn good! i shall find the video and upload it for all to enjoy. 8D the opening was damn cool. leon and the j1s were seriously super good! and leon, you improved alot. :D this is from the the deepest depths of my heart. really! comparing you now and erm, ONE year ago... it's 360 degrees of difference. my hats off to you! and dicky and *lutfi were damn sexy! :DDD damn hot hahaha. :D really bitchy(: im sure dicky will be damn happy at this comment. and nicole and kenneth were awesome as well. lots of feelings poured into the lyrical item. :D and kennethchew, your double pirouette now damn nice alr lah. rawr. ahhh. i miss dancing with you guys... ):

DMC is damn funny. if you're looking for a comedy to watch in the holidays, GO TO DMC. :D it's not all about heavy and rock metal so dont worry. it's more about the life of the protagonist who happens to be part of the death metal band DMC. hehe. watch it! it's seriously damn funny! :D

here i'll like to wish all j2s good luck for their mcts! jiayou jiayou! and hope you guys do well~ dinesh, im still waiting for your details on the whatever party you told me about the other time. haha.

that's all for now!~ happy 9 months to mark and claudia! (:

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2009-03-13T01:36:00.002+08:00

school is starting school is starting school is starting school is starting... OTL im short of cash, and i need to pay for so many things. costumes, chalet, BUY NEW SHOES... and the list goes on. i need a new pair of shoes seriously -quoted from many ppl- cos my old pair is falling apart, like literally. but i cant bear to throw them away cos they're so comfy! and i think it's psychological but only that pair of red and white adicolor i saw at queensway two days ago can replace my current mouldy sports shoes. D: oh well. anyone who wants to donate to my 'melo shoes fund' is welcome to place any small amount of donation. :D bank transfer accepted~ lol. the shoes are only $85 but i cant even afford omg... .__. im poor. freaking poor. if not for CPF deductions i would've bought my shoes alr. and my pay is gonna be real pathetic for this month. like really, really pathetic. *drowns in misery*

i officially suck at pool. i declare that bio students are not meant for games that rely heavily on physics. oh well. im not gonna go there. what with the energy transfer crap that i cant understand. -.- down with physics, up with bio. :D

i cant wait for tj talentime happening this saturday! cant wait to see ODOC in action! :D actually i really am anticipating chew's bboy and *lutfi's girl hiphop. woots~ and i can get to see all my lovely tj friends! yay~ countdown to talentime: approx. 40 hours. :D

pinkie bought her vaio today. sigh. im so jealous! wished i struck lottery or sth. or i were that rich to afford a freaking vaio. D: with the current compaq that im using i think sooner or later it will crash halfway through my projects due to overstress of the system from excessive GAMING. and if that happens, somebody's gonna get hurt REAL BAD.

going for medical checkup part two tmr! gotta wake up at 9am. @_@ sigh. it's like such a torture to wake up at 9am these days. im wondering how im gonna survive when school reopens next month. i think i will seriously die. i dont wanna be how i was in tj. like ponning school and getting mcs and missing school and all the important stuff and leaving behind many trails of mess for ppl around me to clear up. so i shall try to persevere through my poly days. i hope i can. *some light of motivation please shine on me... ._.* i think i will be frequenting pinkie's place ALOT. hurhur. and perhaps phy's. since it's across the road from tp only. D: oh well. when the time comes, we'll see.

i miss dancing. and tj dance. alot. i rewatched the concert cd last night and had alot of fun reminscing about all the dances that we all used to do together! year 1 and zaki and putting chairs for the senior's jazz item and me running around blindly on stage cause i cant see with the freaking lights off and poor kenneth having to help me put my chair into place cause i just dumped it there because i couldnt see a thing. haha. im like talking to myself lol. but it's also sad at the same time cause that was the night show cd, the one without me in it. thanks to some stupid packet rice that was supposed to be for lunch. *sigh* how i wished... that didnt happen. it would make concert alot more enjoyable and memorable. but oh well... and it's going to be one year soon since concert. i cant wait for next year's concert though! if the rest are having an alumni's item, i wanna join them in it. (: abit extra but yeah, i miss dancing with them alot. (:

22march is cheerobics! i wanna go watch. haha! but i seriously wonder if i can find anyone to go with me though. since the next day is the start of mcts... :/ i wish all j2s taking mcts good luck and may you all overcome the horror of examinations soon... (: gahh cheerobics. gahhh cheerleading. i miss gamma too!! gamma cheer'08 is fun stuff! woots~ i miss cheerleading. alot. alot. alot. i wanna flyyy so badly everytime i watch monster on that taiwan dance show. cedar cheer... tj cheer... i miss them both... rawr. ):

okay enough of rants. haha. i really wanna know how everybody did in their a'levels but nobody wants to tell me. sighhh. i hope they're okay. (: alright i shall go off now. i shall update about my boring life again when more things happen hahaha(:

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2009-03-03T23:08:00.003+08:00

i realise i havent been blogging for quite awhile now. haha. i've been super lazy. even though the number of days that i have to work has reduced, i still go out everyday. and the primary reason is because there's nothing to do at home! D: really. slow internet speed does not help in curing boredom. it just makes it worse. for the past week i've been frequenting a place so often that i can call it second home. and that's none other than phy's house. it's like, i go there once every two days. but that's because his internet speed is like damn fast so i go there and watch my animes~ haha. :D

went ikea last week (thursday) with phy(: i havent been to ikea for a long long time. they've got so many new stuffs! :D and phy bought me this:

it's a golden retriever plushie! :D so cute right. it even has a name. it's called pipi and is male. hahaha. (i didnt give him the name but pipi's got a significant meaning.) golden retrievers remind me of weiling. (: after ikea we went down to PS to meet shinji and mao who were jubeat-ing at the dhoby gaut arcade. waited for spidey to come and we went to watch k20! nice show~ takeshi kanashiro is charismatic! hurhur. :DDD then after that went for dinner at just acia before going home.

went for seph's concert on saturday! (: it was held at RP. omg, i have been there like 91289724 times for concerts and performances already. i've even performed there once. *thinks of the super nice and huge changing rooms backstage~~* seph was the co-conductor so we all went down to support! :D the performance was okay but the band wasnt very good. they play out of tune and make lots of weird sounds in the middle of pieces. like all of a sudden you hear a screech of a chair or sth. yeah. so it wasnt that enjoyable. but we were all there for seph so anything else is not that important. (: oh and seph took the wrong music score when he came out after intermission. lol. it was damn funny. HAHA. i bought him a pretty sunflower! i hope it's still alive. D: after the concert, went for dinner at macs with phy and went home after that.

sunday: props making for dissidia! we went to phy's house to do. cos someone didnt go for work. haha. met spidey at his house first to help him carry stuff before going down to phy's house. had to buy fish slice soup for someone and i even brought milo from home for him. tsk. im such a nice person! :D i did my online enrolment stuff at his house cause i could print. after that, while waiting for spidey to be done with his template for his boot covers to help me with the scaling for my onion knight's swords, i fell asleep. D: by the time i woke up spidey was done with one sword and we were going for dinner alr haha. okay im such a pig. i was so unproductive. sighs. went for dinner at blk 85. some place which supposedly has nice bbq seafood. but the nice stalls all had long queue so we ordered from somewhere else. and it turned out to be not-so-nice. the lalas were spammed with garlics and the stingray chilli tasted weird. okay maybe it's just me. i dunno. but yeah, it wasnt as enjoyable as the dinner we had at the food centre next to allson hotel which spidey treated us to. (: aft dinner we went back to phy's house cos i needed to grab a jacket from him cos it was freezing cold. after that we went home~

then yesterday i went for my medical checkup. it's compulsory for tp students. sigh. burnt my money. T__T and i couldnt do the whole checkup yesterday because of a certain inconvenience. darn it. -.- so i have to make a trip back next week. GAH. then after that go all the way to tm to watch suspect x. asdklkjasld. i had to go home alone after that la wlao. i would've prefered ps in 10000 ways but nvm... suspect x is super nice! it's so mentally challenging. not for the audience but the police in the story. yeah. there're so many new jap movies that are coming out at this time! and i wanna watch them all. departures seem like a nice show, handsome suit is abit lame so i dont think i wanna watch. IM WAITING FOR DMC! detroit metal city~~~ it's a supposed nice show. cos spidey said so. haha. so that one definitely gotta watch. :D yeah okay so after suspect x we went over to century square where we had dinner at the soup restaurant. and it's also where i burnt my money at. i didnt really enjoy the food. D: but spent $20 there. sigh. and i think the restuarant is under the same company as the place i work at but im not sure. just guessing. since the management and layout and everything that caught my eye resembles my workplace so much. hurhur~

okay im getting damn sian now. cos i have to work tmr. sigh. and today has been such a bad day. didnt manage to go where i wanted to. and had to go paragon m1 to finish up some saikang for my mum. my handphone bills arent paid. i spent alot of money today. i bought presents. i bought 3 mangas. i spent $25 on kino alone. D: okay la but the things i bought today are nice stuff. :D esp at kino. YAY~ bought the code geass knight for girls fanbook and also some random manga. i bought the random manga because the guy on the cover was hot. HAHA. :D then the third book... i cant say. cos it's meant to be a present. lol. :D

okay i think i've finished ranting! i shall go bathe now. and sleep soon. since im working tmr. sian. byes~ (random ending note LOL.)

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2009-02-19T23:12:00.002+08:00

today was fun! but so tiring. D: woke up at around 8.30am to prepare myself to go down to jurong primary to coach my aunt's house team for cheer! some of the kids are really cute, and they can catch pretty fast. but the boys are just horrendous. you know, the naughty naughty kind and dont listen to you and refuse to learn. and i get super irritated. but oh well, im not qualified to scold them so i cant do anything but tolerate. one hour of practice and i only taught two 8 counts. i am inefficient. sighs. need to work at a faster pace for the next lesson~

then went home around 11am, reached back aroun 11.30am. i decided to go for a swim! cos i've been feeling fat recently and yeah, i gotta keep fit at least. so i went down arond 12pm to go swimming. swam 20laps, arounf 30mins. and i got tanned. yes, TANNED IN 30MINS. lol. there is this white line on my left arm where the elastic rubber band with my locker key on it was there. now i have this ugly white mark. D: sian. after swimming i went over to provence to reward myself! bought a small brazilian cheese bun. :D but after eating it i felt that i swam for nothing. i gained back the weight i lost... DDD:

then after that went to PS to meet the zoo peeps for lunch! at cafe cartel. yes, i know you're gonna go 'RICH KID' but then it's been a long long time since i last ate out in a proper restaurant so it's not considered splurging. :D although my heart aches to just spend $13 on a chicken lasagna... yeah. for lunch, ppl present were ice, spidey, me, pinkie, rei, neko and mao. phy and seph came to join us when we were going arcade. i played the 投篮机! :D one game, with ice. it was damn fun but damn tiring also. damn long never play already! so nostalgic. :D the rest played the usual games off guitar freaks, drum mania, jubeat. after quite some time, we decided to head to paradiz centre for lan. :D left4dead! :DDD

ice and seph left after arcade, so they didnt join us for gaming. it's been like so so so damn long since i last stepped in to a lan shop! and it's only me second time in one. -.- okay, so the 8 of us played left4dead versus campaign! i hate being the zombie i tell you. especially being the stupid boomer who cant do anything. and zombies die easily. i prefer being human and shooting zombies down. :D it's like, stress relief. NYAHA. damn fun lol. i should play left4dead more often. next gaming session: left4dead with leon and kenneth! :D which i hope is soon. we can rope in dicky but i think he will just scream his head off. :D but it's going to be fun anyways! yay i cant wait. (: so after lan we went to have dinner at ishi mura, the japanese food court at pomo. and after dinner, we all headed home. and here i am blogging about what happened today! :D

ice is leaving tmr. i'll definitely miss her! and i want to send her off tmr but she doesnt want any of us to be there. ): and i didnt hug her today sighs. june. JUNE. she'll be back in june. *crosses fingers* icee! come online often okay! :D i'll miss you...

im going to take off on monday night to go back tj and watch dance. :D YAY~~~ cant wait cant wait. ^^

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2009-02-17T00:03:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPIDEY AND ICE! :D

i've been working for a month now. :D and im glad to say that im not getting bored of my job at all! which is good. :D but still, bad things happen to me whenever i have a job. all my previous workplaces have conned me in one way or another. so i end up having to lose something or end up having to pay for things. SIGH. and in my current case it's no different because i lost part of my uniform and i have to pay a $50 penalty. and it's totally not my fault because i left my hat inside my shoebag with my shoes and socks and i went for my off day happily [31jan, which was cosplay challenge.] and unfortunately after CC i fell sick and didnt go to work for a whole week and when i went back, my shoes and socks are still in my shoebag but my hat is gone. like WTFishball. i swear i put it inside my shoebag damn it. argh. now im pissed just thinking of it. and linlin doesnt believe that i actually placed it inside my shoebag because she thinks im thinking up an excuse for losing my hat. -.- but oh well, cant blame her too. because losing a hat and paying a $50 penalty for it makes many ppl skeptical. so yeah. i guess i'll just have to pay the $50 when i leave the workplace in april or sth. sigh. my money. *cries*

great i think i just gained back the weight i've worked off just now. i did sit ups and stretches when i came back from work today. cos im feeling fat. i ate one full bowl of rice for lunch, one and a half bowls of rice for dinner and one whole big bowl of fried rice and miscellaneous rubbish for supper. freaking great. and not to mention i ate part of phy's brownie tonight again. D: so yes. conclusion: melo is growing fatter by the day as she works in a chinese restaurant. SIGH. i need to lose weight. i want to go jogging/swimming/gym-ing. who wants to go with me tell me haha. :D

im damn freaking tired now so i shall go turn in soon. after i hang up. yeah.

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2009-02-15T23:15:00.003+08:00

cute right?! :D my manager gave it to me today. ((: it's for valentine's day. haha. and it has a message on it behind! it says: 送给小嘉宜，要越长越可爱哦。。。stupid baocheng laughed at me. the stupid guy who insists that i call him kor. which i dont. :D HAHAHA. i never expected my manager to give me a chocolate for v-day. :D hahas~ it's cute anyway. (: and i hope li yan gets well soon! she was not feeling well and switched duties with me today since i was supposed to be working in the water bar. and it's the most slack duty among all duties. lol.

im eating the brownie that phy made. it turned out to be surprisingly nice. hurhur. it's like, bitter chocolate with something in the middle which i dont know what it is. haha. i ate like, 1/4 then put it back into the fridge. meh. i shall eat it slowly. :D

my anime is loading so slowly. sighs. i should sleep soon. im working full day for the next three days. D: going back to tj on friday yay! :D i get to see my darlings again~~~ \o/

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2009-02-15T14:32:00.004+08:00

v-day was spent with cedarians and doubutsuen people and with phy. :D it was fun! cedar carnival was damn cool!!! :DDD i saw many of my lovely juniors, who are all sec4 now! yuky, serena, chewan, jerine, shermaine, melanie... and lots more! they are all so old now. haha. but to me, they are still like when they are sec2! watched the dance performance put up by korwoong, nura, xinya, jedi and another girl who looks like dyanna! it was damn nice(: not really contemp in my opinion but then it was good as an attempt! :D you girls better cheoro for next year's concert alright! cos i'll definitely go back and watch. :D and i hope that dicky they all will be doing an alumni item! i would join them if i could. ^^ okay that's besides the point. so yes, cedar carnival. i didnt get to buy the i*heart*cedar badge! ): so sad. cos i spent my money on so many useless stuffs haha. like this balloon apple you see below, and the heart-shaped balloon that kaen wrote junjou romantica on. :D and i bought her this two interlinked heart shape balloon for v-day! played guitar heroes for $3. wasnt really worth it but it's all in the name of helping cedar raise funds. (: damn, if my pay had gotten through i wouldnt mind buying another ticket. which reminds me, i need to transfer the $10 ticket money to shermin! okay yes so then we saw the dunking of mr lim! and i saw mr tan as well! :D and his wife. er, then bought this two felt heart-shaped keychains. gave the pink one to phy lol. [omg phylol. -.-"] then bought a heart-shaped balloon for nowaki! then ya, walked around with kaen most of the time. sorry shermin, aggy, eunice, yanhui, tiffy and minah for pangsehing you all! cause this auntie had no one to go with so i had to accompany her hahaha. :D oh yeah, saw edwin also. he IS a cedarian i swear. and kaen was damn funny with the puzzled look when she saw me talking to edwin and knew that we knew each other. damn damn damn funny. left cedar around 1230 with kaen, and met chuah at the bus stop. she was going to ehub to meet the hc ppl so we took bus 26 together to bedok inter. -END OF CEDAR CARNIVAL ARK- lol.

the cedar carnival brochure, ticket stub, my water balloon apple and jjr balloon. :D

the pretty allen card that kaen gave me! allenwalker is love~

so after that i went to bedok central to meet phy. i was late. duh. helped him to choose flowers. for ash, shinji, mel and spidey. and i was there when he bought me MY bouquet. -.- oh well. better than nothing. haha. it was a pretty bouquet of tulips(: i was dying of hunger since i only ate hashbrown and ice milo for breakfast, so i kept complaining. went to meet shinji and mel at suntec tcc after he was done with the shopping for flowers. oh yes and i met leon goh at the florist outside ntuc! he was conned hahaha. cos the auntie there quoted phy 6 roses for $35 but quoted him 6 roses for $50. HAHAHA. it was damn hilarious please. he bought them anyways cos he looked desperate for flowers for his 'girlfriend' who is apparently some j1. i think i know who. haha. okay so after that went to cityhall. had lunch at the food court at suntec basement. then we went to singapore flyer. we didnt go up. cos apparently some nehneh thought that the tickets wont be fully redeemed yet but when we reach there, the tickets were fully redeemed~ LOL. so we went to some other place which is ulu like hell. shinji thought of the place but didnt want to tell me and mel where it was. so when the cab turned in to thet taxi stand he quickly opened the door to tell the driver our destination before allowing me and mel to board the cab. -.- and the place turned out to be the marina barrage. hahaha. it's so freaking crowded there la! there's nothing to do there, but there are lots of ppl there. it's like ohmygod, what's so nice about being on a damn. -.- but the scenary was nice and the wind made me feel sleepy. thanks phy and shinji for bringing me there. now i dont feel like a swaku singaporean anymore cos i've been to the latest singapore attraction alr. :D then after that went to kallang leisure park to meet spidey and pinkie for dinner. had subway. i wasnt hungry so i didnt eat. i was stoning throughout dinner cos i had nothing to do. lent my psp batt to shinji so i was left with no entertainment. -.- then after that, we all went home. (:

to phyllo dear: thanks for the flowers and brownie and your company for the day(: love you.
to shinji: haha you can think of some really nice places to go to! thanks(:
to mel: melmel! :D thanks for your company as well! ^^
to spidey: hey dont feel so left out of things alright bro. you still got us. (:
to pinkie: some ppl huh, got SO MANY things for vday ah. :DDD

the brownie that i've yet to touch. and dear made it. .__.

my v-day collection of chocolates! (and apples:D)

flowers from phyllo dear(:

my duck got dirtied. ): so i had to wash it with dettol!

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2009-02-14T01:57:00.003+08:00

went to visit tj today! and had lunch with my beloved darlings at 18chefs before that. :D met dyane, claudia, ether, shermaine and zong at around 1.30 for lunch! haha it's been so longggg since i last saw them. i think it was tj open house? omgosh, that's so long ago! it's like, even before the posting results which was before cosplay challenge which was before i was sick which was one week ago. so in conclusion, it's been really long since then. i was happy to see them. (: received a lovely rose from THE guys. :D thanks zong, taufi and das for the rose! love you guys. (:

my pretty rose(:

then after lunch i went back to tj to visit my other darlings! i was scolded by the security guard for wearing the tj pe shirt. i went wtf. hello? it's like MY property and i have the freedom to wear it whenever i want! and it just so happens that i had to wear the tj pe shirt today cos i ran out of white collar-ed shirts already. okay anw, so yeah i went into tj as an official visitor. :D crashed delta and beta's house dialogue, met up with so so so many ppl! sheila, millie, nick, jingwen, korwoong, nura, nevi, cheryl, chewy, ashley, kenneth, leon, dicky, coco, jana, jamie, taufik, zucheng, junie, ashma, weiting, das, michele, jovian, eastina, lynette...and more and more! i just cant remember all the ppl i've seen and talked to today. so sorry! if i left you out please tell me, so i can add your lovely names here. (: crashed road run after that. nth much actually. i missed road run last year, so i got to taste abit of how tj road run is for this year. :D today is a fun day! like seriously. cos seeing all my lovelies again make me forget about everything else. :D i love you guys very much. really, i do. (:

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2009-02-13T01:34:00.004+08:00

讲得有点勉强，让伤心再度重返。
她真的不是故意的，她真的不想。
看来错的又是她了。
花，送给了她们。那可怜的她又会收到什么吗？
他没回复。让她很担心他在生她的气。
这些一点一点的担忧，她也不想有它们。
只是，身为女人，这很难免。
她会嫉妒别人，因为别人的他们对她们很好。
他对她的态度比不上他们对她们的态度。
他为她做的事比不上他们为她们所做的事。
有很多很多东西她都不需要。
她只需要一颗真诚的心。
都说了是野草；它不被很多事拘束。
但是太阳只希望野草能健康地成长。
它只希望野草能够爱回它。

花对我很重要！我很喜欢花。它是每个舞者的最爱。当然也是我的最爱。所以，如果能够收到花，我会很高兴。^^ 我并不会强迫你买花，因为那样子的话跟我买给自己没什么两样。所以，如果你真的不想买的话，就不买算了。我也懒得跟你计较。你要买给谁你就去买吧。没有花，我一样能过活。因为，我对自己有信心。少了一点开心，比少了你好。

“路边的野花，你不要睬。”
-改编至某某歌星所唱的一首歌。很久以前的。

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2009-02-12T01:20:00.002+08:00

today we were talking about dreams and ambitions at the meeting before we start work. my manager asked me what was my dream. and i told her that i dont have one. well, it could be that i have one. just that i dont want to say it out. but at that point of time, nothing came to my mind, so i said nothing. it's truly sad that i dont have a dream to work towards. well if i had to say one, and i mean those really extreme situations where im forced to give an answer, i would say a proffesional dancer. but in singapore... it's hard to get there without ballet background. and sad to say, i dont. so yes, it's pretty impossible. and if we're talking about ambitions, neither do i have one. because my ambition to be a doctor has been blown to bits the moment i applied for a dropout from tj. smart arent i. so yes, im a hopeless lump of thing that survives on goals that are short-termed and easy to reach. because i am not one who can deal with disappointments. that applies to everything around me. yes.

gah. im depressed. damn. dont ask me why if you dont want to die.

kaen can you just go to cedar carnival on saturdayyyy ohmygosh. i want to seeeee youuuuuu. D<

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2009-02-10T23:22:00.003+08:00

yes, it's been effective. so im feeling much better now although i still think about some stuff at times... but oh well. better than nothing at least. i guess. okay i dont know. i shant say im really satisfied with the answers given because im not, but i cant do anything about them can i? so i shall just be satisfied with what i have now. the only thing that really pisses me off and upsets me all over again when i give thoughts to it is the on/off thing only. yeah.

okay i shall stop it with the negativeness. just here to tell you guys that im not dead yet. and i am so looking forward to saturday. :DDD it's going to be the first time im NOT spending vday with girls. HAHAHA. :D i mean, yes okay, im going back for the cedar carnival but what i mean is i wont be spending my whole vday with my girlfriends only. :D i know this is a spastic thing to be happy about but im a spastic person. HEHE. :D ~~i just hope casio doesnt screw me up. like seriously.~~

oh oh. the code geass photoshoot link is HERE: http://sgcafe.com/showthread.php?t=59802 :D go see the pictures! *hearts* ~~please ignore the vulgar picture thank you very much.~~ and im using one of the pictures as my handphone wallpaper. :D guess which one! you wont get a prize even if you guessed it correctly though hahaha. 8D i shall post the omake pics here another time since my mum is pushing me off the computer... sighs. tmr and the day after is a full day at work. *sighs* i shall look forward to friday since im most prob gonna find my darlings at tj! :D and of course not missing out nura and the dance ppl if possible. ^^

k i shall stop spamming. useless stuff i mean. yeah. please ignore all my previous posts. im too lazy to delete them away. but yeah. dont go read them on purpose. please. thanks. take care everyone. (: i shall go bathe and er, talk on the phone? or sleep. depending on someone... yeah. goodnight.

116

2009-02-09T15:09:00.002+08:00

again, a ridiculous post. maybe after a few days as i look back i'll realise how stupid i am. and delete all these posts. but right now i need some comfort which i feel only blogging will give. or that i will feel relieved, albeit a little, just by blogging and thrashing things out here. i dont know if he'll read this or not, or if he will even bother after reading this. afterall i think im the only one thinking about all this and being paranoid. but i seriously cant help it. if i could choose how i can be, i would choose to be able not to think about all this and lead a happy life with you and like you. but just that im a girl, im troublesome, that's why im thinking about all this.

why is it that you dont talk to me unless i talk to you? i know this is stupid. because you would talk to me if you wanted to. but when you dont talk to me on your own initiative, it gives me the feeling that you dont care anymore. not that i dont understand how you feel. but it's precisely because you never told me why, that's why i cant be understanding about it.

why is it that you always eh me when we're out with the others? i know it's another stupid question. but dont you ever realise that you only call me darling when you need me? when you need me to do things for you? and the other times you just go by 'eh' and 'melo'. do you know how i feel? it's like, my boyfriend only whines to me when im needed to help him do something. and other times i get pushed away or distanced by him addressing me as 'eh' simply cos he doesnt need me to do things for him. or that he doesnt want sth from me. again. it's not me not being understanding, or that i cant accept you for who you are. it's just a matter of principles. and the way you treat me. i am not your servant. i am your girlfriend you know.

sometimes i feel like im the only one giving it my best in the relationship. even though you said you'd work hard, i never really saw anything. except when i was sick. how sad. i only get to feel the love when im sick. if that's so i'd rather be sick for all eternity. i dont need big things or material items to make me happy. small things like what you put my name as in your phonebook can show me how you are taking all this. to you i might just be 'melo cosplay' and nothing more right? but to me you are my dearest with a smiley face. because everytime my phone rings and i see a message from you, even if it's just one word, it makes me happy. but to you, i dont know. because what i see is nth more than an address for a common friend. i know you dont like to message. but it hurts me when i dont hear a single word from you for a whole damn day. not even a hello, or okay. you could call. but you dont. you just wait for me to talk to you.

i know all these are small small problems which i shouldnt even be thinking about. but if i dont get it off my chest it's going to be there forever. as to why im not telling you this directly because im doing things like how you always do, the indirect approach. i know i should be understanding about all these and accept you for who you are. but i just really wanted to hear the answers. if you have the answers please tell me? so that i can improve myself to be a better girlfriend to you? so that i know what you feel? so that i can be understanding about them? i really... just needed you to know how i've been feeling. because these things often hurt me so much that i could cry a river.

115

2009-02-09T02:03:00.003+08:00

i know the frequency of my posting is a bit high now but if i dont let it out now i wont have the chance anymore! since im going back to work tmr and i'll probably be some tired lump at the end of the day.

i wanna thank spidey for always being there for me to talk to. i know i was being damn vulgar and not my usual self. sorry. and thanks. i love my brother(: [you. not the real-life annoying brat.]

went blog hopping just now. read alot of stuff. and found that some are truly agreeable. like why "im crying when it's only stuff related to you". and "i cant uphold all my promises because you are not doing your share too." and "your expectations are too *bleep*ing high that i cant even reach if i tiptoed." sorry to those whom i quoted. but i didnt say who so your identities shall forever remain a secret. (:

i want to find a big big hole now and scream my head off into it. and no one shall ever hear of it. i want to let off the steam stuck within me RIGHT NOW but i cant because it's in the middle of the night and everyone's asleep except for my mum who's ironing behind me. i want to take a rose and do the 'he loves me, he loves me not' thing. i dont want to go back to work tmr because im in a foul mood. i want to punch people. or things. i want to bite someone. i want to strangle him. i want to kick some balls. i want to let off the steam trapped within me. i hate myself for all this. it's like im ever the only one affected. and causing trouble. yes im a troublesome ass. and so are you. an asshole.

i think im going crazy at this rate if i still dont find an outlet to relieve myself because blogging doesnt seem to be working and the crux of the problem has become unavailable from cyber reaches. i want to scold the F word out loud and into _____'s face. i really want to. but i shant. im a NICE and UNDERSTANDING person. im MATURE. [yeah, fuck right. that's what you think.]

melo needs a time out.

114

2009-02-09T00:52:00.003+08:00

went over to ayano darling's blog just now to return a hug and realised i got tagged to do some quiz. zzz. but since i know that at least while doing the quiz darling thought of me, so i shall also put in some effort to complete it...

who's the last person you hugged?
pinkie.

do you love anyone?
duh. myself included.

favourite food?
jap food.

favourite drink?
green tea.

do you have a boyfriend?
~~fuck why this question at this time.~~ but yes.

do you currently like anyone?
if i said i have a boyfriend already then this question is useless.

who is your best friend?
anyone and everyone. i dont have a particular bestie to rant about everything to. it's all in bits and pieces. sad right.

how many friends do you have in total?
that's impossible to count.

tag 8 people to do this survey/quiz/whatever you want to call it:
yanhui
shermin
claudia
dyane
kei
risa mummy
kaen
lauren

113

2009-02-08T22:28:00.002+08:00

i know. i suck at crossing roads. so much that i need someone beside me to grab on to. i know im like some baby because of that, always needing the attention and being so troublesome and stuff, and im sorry. i know crying was a stupid thing to do but i cant help it. it was scary. really. nevermind if you dont understand. all i really needed was a hug. really badly. and didnt get one from the person i wanted it from most. but anyone's fine. i just needed some reassurance. but you didnt understand at all. did you?

spidey always knows when im feeling down. thanks alot. i really needed to release it all out. maybe im just suffering from major mood swings. but im glad you were there. as a friend. who really understood. and listened.

sometimes i feel it. the switch that you turned on has turned off. it makes me wonder if all those promises are going to hold through again. and before i know it they just flow out of my eyes. i really dont want a repeat. it's not going to be that easy again. because i know when it happens im only a few steps from jumping down. and ending it all. really.

i know im being an emo loser right now. so my post is very emo. but i cant help things. im really really very upset right now that i can cry any moment. really. i just need this person to come and talk to me and everything will be fine. but this person in question is not doing anything. depression is sinking in. f**k.

112

2009-02-08T01:25:00.003+08:00

code geass photoshoot was so much fun today! :D even though i was just some saikang personnel but nevertheless it was still super fun. ^^ took alot of random omake shots using phyllo dear's gay pink camera but i havent got them yet. :/ cosplayers today: mao as lancelot, ice as C.C, mel as gothic C.C, phyllo as gino, seph as bismarck, pinkie as anya [NYA~]/chibi gino, rina as clovis/C.C and shinji as lelouch/zero. :D sigh. kei couldnt join us today so yeah. went to singapore flyer to have our photoshoot! nice place really. not really alot of ppl and plenty of space! it's the garden area above the carpark. hahas. since i dont have photos except for one super lovely one, i shall upload that one and the rest tmr. (: and this picture is me and ice! with her in the clovis wig. cho bishie!!! super surprising. ice is actually damn bishie also! and actually pinkie ashley turned out to be really bishie doing chibi gino also. and so doubutsuen has three bishie girls! hurhurhur.

iceee is SO BISHIE. *heart melts* HAHAHA.

i look like crap so ignore. D: k i dunno what to spam alr. shall get ready to sleep soon. dissidia meeting tmr hahas. and i dont wanna go work so i shall not go back tmr. but on monday instead. i know i need the money but im still coughing really badly, and i dont want to cough into a customer's food. hurhur.

kk im gonna stop spamming alr. long live doubutsuen. hurhur. fun stuff. <3

111

2009-02-06T23:47:00.002+08:00

i've been watching animes for the whole day today. haha. caught up with alot of series. :D and im super happy wahahaha. :DDD caught up with to-aru majutsu no index, finishing akane-iro ni somaru saka, waiting for new episodes for kuroshitsuji, chrome shelled regios and bleach. although i feel like it's an accomplishment i cant help but feel rather down. cos i havent been working for one whole damn week and im not getting any pay for this one whole week. sigh. i need the money. for 10000 things that i shant mention. cos the list will be too long. hur. depressing shit. i need to set aside $600 for my course fees. rawr. and approximately $800 for cosfest + EOY. great. but not that im complaining if it's for cosplay. :D it's just that course fees... arent really my area of concern isnt it. but oh well. since i lead such a hectic and complicated life i shant complain too much. i just hope by the end of my two months plus of work i can save up the amount i targetted. $1400. SIGH. and i've been sick this whole week somemore. die la. my money... sian.

i've been stuck at home for one whole week already! i feel like an otaku in and out. but tmr, FINALLY, i get to go out! yay~~~ because tmr is doubutsuen's code geass photoshoot! but our suzaku cant make it. ): sighs. at least the GINO finally is gonna cosplay. my god gino's new wig is so damn difficult to tie can. it's like, dry and longggg and tangling. not like the old wig. so smooth and nice and easy to tie. but i still managed to get the pleats done so dont worry. yay im getting high hahaha-- *coughcoughcough* im not high cos cough syrup mind you. that substance is so gross. and disgusting. eeew. everytime i drink it i end up feeling nauseous. it just makes me wanna puke. bleh. k enough of medicine. it just reminds me of more disgusting stuff like antibiotics syrup i used to take alot when i was a kid. the horror. D:

i think i should go prepare for tmr's shoot now. so guess i'll be leaving this post here. need to pack dear gino's wig, makeup and uh. nth else. :D shall bring as little things as possible since im going there to saikang and not play around. lancelot is going but suzaku is not. sigh... why is mj orientation taking up saturday as well!!!! D<

110

2009-02-05T01:44:00.002+08:00

haha this is so refreshing. changed my blogskin and also added a really nice tune to my blog. (: haha sorry this song cant be paused cos i didnt embed it somewhere where you can like stop it. cos of the codes and stuff. i hate html. so i hid it behind the blogskin. :D it's a very soothing song and i like it so much! it's from the anime BLEACH. ((: the new ending song. :D as im typing this im putting the song on repeat on windows media player. hehe. it's damn damn damn nice! *hearts* hmmm. the song name's called sky chord ~otona ni naru kimi he~ by tsuji shion.

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素直な歌が歌えない
飾り付けてしまうから
いつからこんなに楽に自分
守ることを覚えたの？

行かない sky chord
昔ならあったのに yeah yeah
失くした sky chord
誰のせいでもなく自分

きっと大人になることなんかより
大切なものがあるの
きっとそれを見つけらんないまま
大人になってゆくんだ

ずっとこのままじゃいれないって
分かってるよ
歩き出せ
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Sunao na uta ga utaenai
Kazaritsuketeshimau kara
Itsukara konna ni raku ni jibun
Mamoru koto wo oboeta no

Ikanai sky chord
Mukashi nara atta no ni yeah yeah
Nakushita sky chord
Dare no sei demo naku jibun

Kitto otona ni naru koto nanka yori
Taisetsu na mono ga aru no
Kitto sore wo mitsukerannai mama
Otona ni natteyukunda

Zutto kono mama jya irenai tte
Wakatteru yo
Arukidase
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I can't sing a song with a honest lyrics
because I always end up sugar coating the words
When someone as laid-back as me
realize he had something worth protecting?

Don't leave me, Sky Chord
You would've stayed here back then, yeah yeah...
I've lost you, Sky Chord
It's not anyone's fault, but...

I know there are things more important to me
than becoming an adult.
But I'll be growing up the whole time
I'm trying to figure out what they are.

You say we can't stay like this forever?
I know.. so let's take that first step.
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i feel blessed. truly. even though there are ups and downs. as long as i know of one thing, i can continue living. a quote from Kamijyou Hiroki: "I think i can live up to a hundred-and-fifty with these~" :D [yes, that's you kaen. HAHAHAHAHA.*evil smirks*]

i dont know if it's this song or what but my fever is going down! :D just by listening to it really. it's just one of those songs that you can put on repeat mode and not get bored of even after a few hours later. :D i hope i can fully recover by tmr evening so i can go crash suntec mass dance! i really really really want to see dyane, ether, shermaine and mehmeh claudia! and of course visit nura and see how she's doing in TJ. sigh~ get well soon melo! so that you can go back and work and earn what you need to! and go for the photoshoot on saturday! and perhaps that movie thingy on friday. [if you manage to escape work hahaha.] gamabatte ne, jibun. :D

109

2009-02-04T00:11:00.000+08:00

okay, im feeling much better now.

108

2009-02-03T22:37:00.002+08:00

this is the second post of the day hurhurhur and the reason why im blogging for the second time today is because im feeling irritable again. i know i just told yh that im feeling okay alr with all the *bleep*ing just now but then the feeling of annoyance at some person/ppl/unidentified object just came back to me again. RAWR. what's wrong with me seriously. i think it's hormonal imbalance. or whatsoever. i cant say that i cant be bothered with this feeling of mine because im thinking of it every second. zzz. i feel that some person/ppl/unidentified object cant be bothered whether im alive or dead. why? cos some person/ppl/unidentified object has never asked me how im feeling and all. and i doubt that some person/ppl/unidentified object knows my current condition. of me being a half-dead mehmeh sitting at home rotting and worrying and thinking about one million useless things. okay it's definitely the work of the hormones i know. but i cant help but feel this way. whatever it is, i just want him/her/it/them to know how i feel and show concern, that's all. is that too much to ask for? i dont know myself either. i just... yeah. i want to see that he cares. that's all im asking for.

107

2009-02-03T16:16:00.002+08:00

argh. why cant you understand simple english you big-headed moron. it says that you cant bathe her two *bleep*ing days before and after the treatment so which *bleep*ing part do you not *bleep*ing understand?! and it doesnt last for two *bleep*ing months. that's for fleas you loser! and it doesnt 'last' for that long. it's just the treatment period you ass. READ THE INSTRUCTIONS CAREFULLY YOU PIECE OF *bleep*. before you go around throwing tantrums and i see objects flying towards me. now *bleep* off and go play your darn computer.

*bleep* im super irritable now. not only cos of the above-mentioned idiot. but because of some ppl who dont even seem to care about how i am. i've been having on off fever since saturday night, terrible running nose since yesterday morning, cough since last week and a sore throat that just wont cure itself for god-knows-how-long. i missed my *bleep*ing double pay day on sunday, and have been unable to work for the past two days as well. and i didnt go work today, and i have an MC for tmr. GREATTT isnt it? my pay is just going down the drain like this. awesome. i need the *bleep*ing money for so many *bleep*ing things. so many that im so *bleep*ing pissed off about it. not that im complaining about working to pay for my costumes for cosplay. it's just the other things that i have to pay for that are not even in my field of concern! *bleep* and you still *bleep*ing dared to agree with that vp about 'no need to worry about financial concerns, just choose what you think is best for yourself.' and what happens after that? i have to earn and pay for my *bleep*ing school fees! WTF seriously. dont agree with other ppl and make me look like im such a shame when what you're agreeing with isnt gonna come true at all you *bleep*tard. and i spent $43 at the clinic. are you going to pay me back? NO. NO. i will never ever dream of you paying me back the *bleep*ing money. and my *bleep*ing pay is on hold cos of the *bleep*ing accountant who's so *bleep*ing cock-eyed that he *bleep*ing counted $100+++ less for my *bleep*ing pay. *bleep* you chris. *bleep*

i would gladly type out the word f**k but that'll just make my blog look very vulgar and i know some of my friends dont like to see that word. so i shall not. even though i cant *bleep*ing wait to use that word on that *bleep*tard who messed up my paycheck.

AAAAHHHHHHHH. i got 10000 things on my to-do list and here i am ranting about stuff. *bleep* not to mention that im sick and 9900 things cant be done cos of that. *bleep* i need time off from work. when im in a perfectly healthy condition that is. so that i can *bleep*ing do my 10000 things. *bleepbleepbleepbleepbleep* AAAHHHHHHHHH.

i cant wait for the 14th to come.

106

2009-01-30T00:07:00.002+08:00

alma will haunt you if you dont listen to her. *evil laughter*

posting results tmr i cant wait HAHAHA. i wanna know if im in the same course as pinkie! 8D i hope we are. then i can disturb her like everyday. ~~apart from the nightmares~~ HOHOHO. work full day tmr and then it's ice's house! :DDD YAY can see her twin brother! OMG so cool. :D

i watched two movies over the cny hols! the wedding game and love matters. wedding game was nice! [sorry shermin i know you didnt like it hahas.] it was really hilarious. those kind of jokes that you dont have to use your brain to think about to get it, those kind. yeahhh. love matters was not to my liking though. not that i dont like jack neo's movies but it was just horrid. the storyflow is damn weird and sometimes it just dont make any sense to me. the jokes are the usual jack neo humour but i just didnt like them. maybe cause the main guy character is some old man who i dont like. D: so yeah. i want to watch ice age 3! :D

cny was okay. not as bad as last year. since last year my poor brother had to stay at the hospital cos of some very bad infection. so this year, it was much better.
day one!
ppl came to visit. my aunties and uncle. then i left to visit my grandma who stays at the nursing home at changi. ^^ she's much healthier now and as cute and lovable as ever(: even though she's senile and cant remember much i still love her like i used to. then left for marina with my mum and brother. went for dinner and took a walk at the river hongbao and stoned at the national day floating platform seats until 10 plus before going back to marina. our movie started only at 1150 so there was plenty of time to spare. haha. after the game 'the wedding game' we cabbed home. it was around 1.45am then. i collapsed after bathing. haha.
day two!
woke up just in time before phyllo came. was feeling damn stoned even when i saw him for the first time after one week plus. oh. and he was running a bloody fever and having a bad sore throat and he still didnt take medicine. so i chucked him a row of panadol when he reached my house. after eating my lunch [and he was busy being questioned by my grandma. *evil laughter*] my mum suggested we go visit my grandpa. irritating. i thought i didnt have to see him! [i hate him cos he's a big fat jerk] so i dragged phyllo along. haha. [thanks dear.] reached his place at amk but he wasnt around. phew. apparently he had went prawn-fishing. [and phyllo brightened up at the moment the word FISHING was mentioned. -.-] so after stoning awhile at his place me and phyllo left to meet some of the zoo ppl who are meeting for cny celebrations and movie. shinji came in a cab to pick us up. then detoured back to yio chu kang to pick mao up before heading down to marina. met spidey and ice there. went for fish&co.'s dinner before going for the movie 'love matters'. after that shinji mao and spidey had a game of outrun at the arcade. shinji was driving a damn ferrari and he still crashed around. *heartpain* A DAMN FERRARI LA. god. then went to the coffeeshop beside allson hotel to have supper. okay i didnt eat. since i've been eating so much since i started work at dian xiao er. i dont wanna grow fat. D: so sat there and watch the hungry animals eat up their kway chap. then after that took 32 home. (:

at least it wasnt a boring cny! :D get to see my family and darling zoo ppl and phyllo dear(: so yeah. but i still miss seeing the tj ppl! like claudia, dyane, ether, shermaine, peck, all the rest of cg24/08 and the dancers! ): i miss you guys. i wanna see you all soon! i hope i can. :/

i need to go bathe and turn in now. gotta work tmr. cosplay challenge on saturday! cant wait. (:
get well soon dear. who ask you never listen to me and go see doctor sooner. hope you're well enough to cosplay on saturday. :D

105

2009-01-28T00:15:00.001+08:00

everything turned out fine afterall. (:

104

2009-01-23T21:20:00.006+08:00

~~what's with all the promises and everything else. i cant differentiate what's right and wrong, what's true and not true anymore.~~
THE END.
14 holds no more significance.
i accept it. but i will wait.

im grateful for this song by S.H.E. really. it says it all.
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只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属于我们的婚礼
却成了单人结婚进行曲
在这场爱情角力的拔河里
爱我还是爱你
你选择了自己 wo~
撒娇的可爱的粘人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的
如今我还在原地
你却走回你的记忆
你说我爱你太多
就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱
让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我
你说我给你太多
却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口
我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
安静了在我枕边的梦里
我知道相爱原本就不容易
爱不是一加一
努力就有结局 wo~
撒娇的可爱的粘人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是爱着你的
脸颊的泪还温热
却没有人握我的手
你说我爱你太多
就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱
让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我
你说我给你太多
却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口
我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你
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103

2009-01-14T22:49:00.003+08:00

it's one month yayyyyy. like finally. :D why does it feel so long for it to reach the 'one month' milestone. D: anyway. it's finally one month. it's the end of counting DAYS. now it's a significant month. and we can start counting by months now yay!

okay i've got work tmr so i think i should sleep soon. ~~waiting for my hair to dry again. =w=~~ i shall blog about the JJR photoshoot, doubutsuen sentosa outing and tj open house when i have the energy! :D

i miss the dancers and cg24/08 alot. ):

102

2009-01-07T22:12:00.002+08:00

i finally found a job! :D this will end all the daily pestering from my mum from now on hurhurhur~ but i shant post where im working since there are so many ppl who wanna come disturb me. -.- that includes you zoo guys. er okay anw. today was fun! so i shall blog about today. :D

went back to tj to visit my lovely ~~TA1~~ TA2 juniors! had lunch and talked crap for abit. :D present at the lunch: nicole, joelle, millie, sheila, casper, darren and gabriel. haha. glen couldnt make it and jingwen was missing. yao didnt come. lol. so after lunch, the rest went back to play at the stage area and i and sheila went back to sch to crash dance! there was only nicole and daphne darling though. and i was so freaking shocked at the state the pantry was in. IT WAS FREAKING CLEAN AND NEAT AND TIDY OMFG. DDD: first time in history! haha. or at least the history when i was still in tj. yeah then after that we went to look for the rest. they were playing blind mice at the playground! it was damn funny. seeing darren being such a toot. hahaha! and gabriel and his 'pussycat doll' calls to darrenlimthepinapple. -.-and casper being a super retard. it was just damn funny. hahas. had a really hard time laughing at them with sheila! :DDD love you darling! gahhh. i'll miss tj life alot.

and i saw shermaine today! and told her what i wanted to tell her. i felt so guilty for keeping it to myself la. but then again. i dont like the feeling of telling others about these kind of things. it's like, you're showing off. and suan-ing those poor ppl who dont have that special someone by their side. D: so yeah. i apologise for not telling you guys earlier but that's my reason for not doing so hurhurhur. :D but ohmygosh when the rest learns of it i think im so gonna get murdered by them for keeping it from them. gah. when that time comes, i'll think of what to do. hee.

oh so after the playground thing, i went to woodlands to meet phyllo. dont ask me why i was willing to travel all the way down. it's like, woodlands omfreakingg. walked around causeway point then after that went home. he sent me to habourfront then he took bus home. and i didnt know the existence of the habourfront interchange until today! okay wait. i think i knew about it but i just forgot. okay whatever. -.- been suaned enough about not knowing habourfront inter existed alr. yeah. so i went home after that.

okays i gotta go wash stupid peihua's uni for her. urk. i wonder if it'll dry in time... sigh.

101

2009-01-06T02:06:00.004+08:00

this is freaky. right after i pressed the [publish post] button, ~~he called and apologised.~~ OMFG. this is... i dunno what to say. but i wont delete the previous post. cos... it was a fact that i was angry. but oh well. good luck for your science UT tmr. you better pass it.

100

2009-01-06T02:02:00.000+08:00

i cant believe my 100th post is for this rubbish.

i cant believe how insensitive some ppl are like seriously. making others angry and just acknowledging the fact with a simple 'orh' and not even apologising. then expecting the angry one to notify the one who made him/her angry when he/she has simmered down.

like wth. dont you care how i feel when im being called 'irritating' just cos i told you to study for your damn test. dont you get how i feel when you dont make the initiative to apologise to me even when im angry? you've got what you wanted, havent you. you want me to be jealous, okay fine i am. you want me to be angry, and yeah so be it, i am. then what happens? you just run away. and didnt apologise. how nice. and expect me to call you after i cool down? damn you. im pretty determined to NOT contact you all the way til i see you at dinner tmr. bloody hell i think it's gonna affect me pretty much tmr even if i didnt want it to.

i freaking just want an apology and THAT'S IT damn it. i dont get angry easily. and you should know. asdlkjalsjdlakjlsa. im freaking irritated now. and im pretty sure im not pms-ing cos im not having my thing right now. and mood swings arent just in my dictionary. im not that kind of person.

GAHHH. im like killing brain cells for useless stuff. they say love makes you do stupid things. and i guess it's true.

99

2009-01-05T15:41:00.002+08:00

this is depressing stuff. i just finished code geass R2. and cried. why? cos LELOUCH VI BRITANNIA died. for a good cause.

98

2008-12-31T02:29:00.003+08:00

2008 has truly been a great year. met many many new ppl, made lots of new friends, had lots of ups and downs, new school...etc. everything has been such a wonderful experience to me, no matter good or bad. i hope to be able to list out as many ppl as i wish to address here! it's now going 2.30am afterall and i gotta wake up early later on! hee~ in no particular order! :D

my best friends through thick and thin, my lovely darlings!
claudia, dyane, peck, ether, shermaine.
thanks for being there for me always. i love you guys. and i'll definitely miss schooling, eating and doing all sorts of rubbish stuff with you all. words simply cant express the amount of gratitude and love that i want to convey to you all. and and and! i've got sth to tell you guys! wait til open house then i tell you all kay. HAHAHA. :DDD

claudia mummy! thanks for being there for me when i needed you. and always keeping my stuff for me when i dont turn up in school. and always listening to my rants about all sorts of stuff. i love you!

shermaine! my fellow girls-school darling! loved the times when we always gay-ed together! it was so much fun! and i still miss girls school even though being in tj isnt all that bad. :D and you're smart! dont deny it! continue to work hard alright? i wanna see you with all As! 8DDD

ether! my boyfriend! :D thanks for accompanying me at the most random times. and for cosplaying also! i will definitely miss your crap! and you of course la. haha. love you lots! work hard okay? i wanna see ether get all As too!

dyane! you and your taiwan dramas! get watching BLEACH la you! haha. i'll really really miss going to your house for pw and random times to eat and play! i havent read the harry potter book btw. HAHAHA. i'll take my time so that when i finish i have an excuse to go find you. (:

peck! dont drop jc okay you! and i hope you can find sth that you really want to do. ^^ i'll definitely miss crapping with you in class and also bitching about ppl. esp betty boob. *evil laughter* i hope you will get good results too! study hard girl. (:

PAE CG24/08!
you guys were great fun! it's like, when im with you all, it's always endless crapping and fun. it's like those days were so carefree and peaceful. i miss you guys alot! hope we can meet up some day~~~

yingiet! i know we always say want to meet each other but never really had the chance to... i was thinking, after 5jan! cos ether peck and claudia got test! so yeah, maybe between that period and school start we can meet up. :DDD i've got alot of things to tell you too! ^^ hope to see you soon(:

JAE CG24/08!
i know i mia from school alot. hahas. sorry about that! and i hope you guys had fun at CIP! ^^ i'll definitely miss the times with every single one of you. im sure you all will do great at a'levels! so, jiayou guys! :D

DOUBUTSUEN!
you guys had been great fun! although i always mia from dinner and stuff. HAHAHA. and im really grateful that i have such great friends like you guys!

pinkie! you're always complaining how bored you are when you're working la. be glad you've got a job okay! i need one now. D: and when you get your vaio i am so gonna invade your fac and find you everyday muahahahahaha. :D

kei! hello chibi suzaku! i will chiong AS la dont worry. and im 99.9% confirmed doing AS. the 0.1% left is for choosing the character only. hurhurhur. anw, whenever i see you i still feel like pulling your now-shiny-pink extensions. HAHA.

spidey! omg i seriously cant believe you actually FORGOT a GIRL's name. HAHAHAHA. that poor poor girl. oh well. and stop calling me dinosaur alr la wlao! that time... i hope it was the right thing scolding you. and i dont bully you all the time okay. :D im a nice person!

mao! i missed the ben and jerry's fest. D: so sad la! and the vermonster thingy. ARGH. and there goes the chance when we could eat b&j ice cream for free man. -.- hurhur. oh well. there's always next year hahahahahaha. :DDD

rein! you. you and your candies. are going to make my teeth decay la! such a big packet of sweets! but thanks so much(: and you owe me my white painty marker you. and you never did repair your aaroniero mask right? hurhur. XD

shinji! dont stress your labtop too much la. it's so poor thing sia. maybe your vaio will get tired of working for you and come to me instead. 8D and your hair grew out! you're not botak anymore. HAHAHA. good la. then phyllo cannot call you botak jiji alr. HAHA. (:

seph! i saw the video with you inside! quite long ago. your band one. and i can spot you easily. :D and i want to see your japan photos lehhh. but too lazy to go create facebook acc. HAHAHA. if i ever create one i'll go add you as friend so i can see them. hahas. :D

ice! YAY you're coming back soon~~ we've only met ONCE irl! so sad la. so when you're back, im sure we can see more of each other. :D and i cant wait to see you again. hahas.

neko! you big-mouth-only-eats-chicken cat! no. 1 arcade go-er la you. but but but, you're seriously freaking good at music games AND ddr. i dont dare to play ddr with you alr la! you're always tanking me anyways. haha. and if we play at my level i think you'll be bored also. HAHAHA.

phyllo! you make the number 14 more meaningful to me! [other than it being allenwalker's noah number. :D] and i know you're like the happiest guy to know that im going POLY. just cos you dont like jc ppl huh. [im having the most trouble typing this for you you know. cos i dont know what to type. -.-] thanks so much for everything. and for chicken. :D love you.

TJ DANCE!
i love you guys! you all are the supporting pillars and reason why i hang onto jc for so long. dancing has truly bonded us together hasnt it? no matter where we all end up, im sure we wont forget the nice times that we've spent dancing, laughing, playing, eating and doing all sorts of fun stuff together. TJ DANCE BANZAI! :D

sheilatoh! my dearest junior of all! :D i'll miss you alot alot alot! and i will visit as often as i can okay! and, you must update me about dance stuff okay! so you cannot dont go for dance. :D although im not there to accompany you anymore, i hope you will grow independant and have fun dancing still! dont lose your direction alright? love you lots!

daphne darling! the really responsible leader of our crew! thank you for all the times we've shared. im sure you will make dance prosper even more! i'll miss eating and talking to you after leaving tj. but i hope we do keep in contact and update me if dance ever needs my help or what alright? :D

kenneth chewchew! ehh you really improved alot from the first time i ever taught you how to dance. i can still remember our first prac. HAHAHA. and the funny video bo zhong took with terence teaching you how to danec. LOL. now you are vice pres! and a great dancer too! thanks so much for all the times we've spent together with the other two guys! haha. and always taking the train home with me after dance. :D will miss you! take care. ^^

leonOH! what's up pro businessman! you must be earning alot right now with that glib tongue of yours. HAHA. without me around i hope you dont disturb sheila too much okay! or else i will seriously come and HAUNT you. haha. take care!

dicky! i will miss you alot! dont cry when im not there okay. like you did at concert. haha. i'll miss all the times when we have so much fun bitching about others. :DDD they were really worth bitching about hahahaha! and you are the potential zaki-to-be! continue to work hard and im sure your techniques will sure surpass chew's triple pirouettes! love you!

TA1s!
guys, it's been great knowing all of you! those who are in my OG and those who are not. the times i've spent with you all are the most childish but also most relaxing ones. :D i hope you guys wont forget about me after i leave okay. and about that meet-up... maybe next week after you guys start school HAHAHA. :D 3 more years to a's doesnt mean you can slack all the way ah. must study okay! but ppl like glen dont even have to study sure get A one la. smart ass. haha. as always, you guys can still talk to me about any problems you all have even after i leave tj! keep in contact yeah? :D

P.S glen, rmb you told me that you dont want to see my face for another year right? [that time when i told you i might be retaining.] you should be happy now you dont even have to see me next year. HAHAHA. :D just kidding. ^^

TEAM JUDGEMENT!
you girls have been so much fun to be with! although we had a little conflict not too long ago but i hope we can let bygones be bygones. although now i wont be with you all for cosfest but spiritually and mentally i will still be with you guys on the day itself although i'll be doing sth else~ at least im still there for photoshoot! :D im sorry for the trouble i brought about. i will learn how to deal with my emotions better next time. ^^ and sorry for mia-ing the thread these days. haha. internet connection very weak, and it takes ages to load one freaking page. so i got lazy and i hardly go cafe anymore as well. um, i'll try to go as often as i can! and those peeps who are interested to come kpo at tj open house, it's 13jan09! :D 10am to 4pm! yups. ^^

JJR PHOTOSHOOT!
you guys have been such a fun bunch to be with. everytime we have an outing it's always crapping and abit of discussion only. HAHA! it has been so much fun and i really cant wait for the photoshoot! although i cant stay for the bbq... sigh. but i still hope that decorating the 'house' would be lots of fun and also the actual photoshoot itself! gambatte! :D

ayu! you have been such a nice and wonderful leader! i hope you and coughjavancough will last! can see that you are super happy being with him la. it's so obvious. almost all your posts got the word JAVAN in it. :D it's been nice knowing you as a friend and im sure we'll have alot of fun sabo-ing the terrorist pair on the photoshoot day itself. 8D

kaze! stop calling me chibi-san damn it. im not that small you know.

xiaohau! you idiot. stop harassing mandy and stop being such a hjj. HAHAHAHA. and you're so gonna block the chalks and whatever miscellaneous stuff that hiroki is gonna throw for me and nowaki-san man. 8DD

SEMPAI!

kaen & yukino

kaen! hiroki-sensei a.k.a lavi! you've been such an epic person this whole time that i've known you la. HAHAHA. the BHS will exist now and forever MUAHAHAHA! *evil laughter* you will never escape from the BHS members. hehehe~ and i cant wait for 2010 to come then you can organise the super cool shaman king cosfest team! :D your cds are still with me la i shall return to you soon. okay anw i got alot of things to talk to you about everytime one la so yeah, i'll just leave this for now. :D i hope your wig comes soon hurhurhur.

yukino! my nowaki-san and BHS leader! :D i cant wait for photoshoot to come. then we can carry out all the BHS plans. HAHAHA! your gray contacts are still with me dont forget! i'll pass them to you when you come trim your wig at yukiya's house sometime soon. hehe. :D and i really do remember you from my secondary school days. maybe cos i look different back then. DONT SEARCH THE YEARBOOK PLEASE. i look like some weird toot la. hahas. im still quite impressed that i found you from the yearbook though. :D

DARLING WIFE!
ayano
my dear allen-darling! your allen and lavi both damn cute okay! stop saying you cf or else i'll smack you! and, stop reading doujins and fics late into the night! school's reopening you nehneh. and i cant wait to see your lenalee cosplay at SOY. that is, if you're going la. hurhur. i should try to come online at more normal timings so i can talk to you online luhs. Dx miss you lots! let's go on a date soon alright. :D [even though sch is reopening. for you. HAHAS.]

EOY D.GRAY-MAN TEAM!
the way we got together was truly epic! but i cant deny that i had lots of fun tagging along with you guys. ^^ it means so much more to be in a team! :D

rain! stop calling me auntie you auntie. D:

risa mummy! my kanda is cmi la mygod. you know, i idolised you alot in the past. and presently still am! HAHAHA. :D i love mummy's kanda alot! so dont worry okay, you always got me as a fan! and you dont piak kanda seriously. xD also, PLEASE DO THE MATHS ASSESSMENT BOOK I GAVE YOU OKAY. i will check! :D

rabbit daddy! your lavi is LOVE. okay i shant say that later mummy jealous. hohoho. anw, everytime i look at you, i think of your gay name. and how it so doesnt fit you. hahaha! i hope everything is alright for you at home, esp after hearing a little about how your family is and stuff today. anything you can always talk to me! i offer seriously good advice one. :D and im not bragging okay. hahahas. :D

4z'07!
the bbq was great! i miss you girls alot alot alot! cant wait til the day we can all gather and crap again. :D

minah! hope everything is fine for you! even though this still sounds very mean of me but, DUMP THAT BASTARD IF HE EVER DOES ANYTHING TO HURT YOU EVER AGAIN, alright? and you can always talk to me! now that i can identify with you more. :D good luck for a's! im sure you'll do well. ^^

yanhui! babe! thanks so much for the nyny treat with shermin! miss studying and going out with you alot! saw your japan photos and im getting so jealous. i wanna go!!! and i wanna learn jap too! and i still wanna learn aikido. heh heh. omg if i start now you'll be my super senpai since you're BROWN now! D: congratulations once again babe. ((:

shermin! can you cosplay again soon! i wanna see shermin cosplay again! :D thank you so much for introducing the whole concept of cosplay to me! now im freaking hooked to it hahas. :D thanks so much for the nyny treat too! ^^ i miss going out with you already. cos everytime we go out, it's always so much fun! and your blog always, always, always, never fail to entertain me. :D im so glad we still keep in touch! hope to see you soon! :DDD

RANDOM!
lauren & lily

lauren! tell me when chapter 3's done okay! i wanna read it soon! and i havent been really active online so i dont check your blog that often. heh. so you gotta tell me. and you know what! my labtop kena reformatted and all my pics are gone. WHAT THE HELL. all my yuuvi pics... T__T maybe someday i can kope from you again! :DDD and i'll try my best to drop by at SOY okay! please cosplay la you toot. if not i have to wait til cosfest to see you cosplay. :/

lily! thanks for all those times you've listened to my horrible rants! i've not forgotten you as a friend, remember that! and you should change your scary ava on cafe la. it's freaking eerie okay. hur.

;;;
that's all i can manage for now. it's been a horribly long post! im sorry if i've missed anyone out but it's simply too taxing if i list out every single person who has made my life a better one in the year 2008! if i missed you out and you really want me to dedicate you sth, you can tell me one hahaha. :D then i'll have one post specially dedicated to you. :D to everyone, hope you had a fulfiling year and may the new year be full of joy and laughter for you! ^^
;;;

love, melo!

97

2008-12-31T02:01:00.006+08:00

i wanted to blog about the ppl who have made my days in the year 2008 but i forgot that i havent blog about christmas yet. HAHAS. so i shall save that for later and blog about christmas first~ :D

christmas eve, 241208.

went to watch twilight with pinkie and chibi suzaku! at first i was quite skeptical about the movie cos the trailers didnt really appeal to me. afterall, i have a certain dislike for english movies and shows. but i went ahead with the movie since pinkie strongly recommended it[she watched it twice before that alr. -.-] and it turned out great! i like jasper! at the baseball part. and uh, edward cullen's eyes [not his looks. i dont find him goodlooking at all. no offence to edward cullen fans out there.] and alice! she's really pretty, just like what pinkie always say. :DDD and kei, remember to bring rope and masking tape the next time we go watch movie with her k. and i dont want to sit next to her alr! it's either you die or we die together. put her in the middle! then i wont be the only one kena whacked. :D after the movie we went to find the guys. after gawking at cosmode in mos for awhile, the rest went to the arcade and left me and phyllo in the fast food restaurant. and i watched my beloved to aru majustsu no index [otherwise known as index]! and half of bleach ep 200. -.- cos some toot go and shut down his labtop halfway through the show cos the rest came back. HUR. then took a bus down to orchard, cineleisure. rotted at the arcade for awhile before heading down to sakura for our dinner! :DDD after entering the restaurant and placing down our stuffs, i chionged straight for the sashimi! HAHAHA. took a whole plate full of salmon and tuna sashimi and shared with pinkie. a pity seph and kei couldnt join us. and after that, ate a whole lot of other stuff too. HAHA. like, tempura, prawns, and MANGO PUDDING. shinji was being toot and not using a spoon to eat the pudding cos he says that in camp they dont give spoons to them for desserts. haha. after dinner we went over to PS arcade. there, i rotted again as i watched pinkie play drum mania and spidey and neko play guitar freaks. i went home at like 1130pm. didnt do a countdown like last year. sigh. i miss tiffy and inezlau! okay pictures~

me, phyllo, mao, rein, shinji, neko, pinkie ashley & spidey!

pinkie and i! :DD

chicken! sitting dangerously on phyllo's bag. :D

okays! so now i shall recite out a list of what i got for christmas from the zoo peeps~~ :D

pinkie: disney stuff! [5 in total! more than guys. :D]

rein: candy!

neko: more candy!

kei: chibi snowglobe. -.- [mine was small and the rest were normal size la!]

phyllo+spidey: d.gray-man sling bag. 8D [apparently they claim that my adidas sling was rotting and dying that's why.]

phyllo: chicken stitch!

yeah that's all for eve. nothing much happened. heh.

christmas, 251208.

rotted my day away at home. what a freaking waste of my 2008 christmas. Dx

96

2008-12-23T02:18:00.006+08:00

i finally feel like blogging hahaha. ~~it's cos i got chased off the PC and i cant watch my code geass that's why.~~ so now im using the labtop HAHA. okays anyway. shall blog about what happened in the last week. :D

121208. EOY eve!

went pinkie ashley woman's house to stayover! cos someone was so nice to offer me her place for stayover so i wont have to wake up so early to go expo the next day. :D reached her place super late, like 4plus. and found kei sitting on the bed sewing the boot covers for stupid pinkie. -.- then they did the anya trials. like testing the wig and eyebrow facepaint glue thingy. haha. i think suzaku trials took place before i reach i dunno. hahas. after that went to 201 hawker to eat dinner! stingray<3~>

131208. EOY!

woke up at 7.30am cos kei was supposed to be at pinkie's house at 7.30 but she was LATE. so i woke up so early for nothing lor. DDD: but okay anyway as soon as she came we started to prepare and we left ashley's house at about 9.45am. haha. so reach expo about 10.10. or sth like that lah. met ayano darling and we went off~ i left pinkie and suzaku behind haha. uh yeah so halfway through EOY i saw peihua and her team! then uh, she asked me and ayano to join her team and walk around. so we did. and the team consisted of me[kanda], ayano[allen], peihua[lenalee], rabbit[lavi] and krory! :D for the first half of the day only though. cos after that ayano left and ether joined us. yeah. :D oh oh and risa mummy was our usher/nanny. :D i love mummy~~ <333>

rabbit, peihua, krory, me and ayano<3

the only pic i found with ether in it! ~~cos i lazy to find. haha. :D~~

the doubutsuen code geass team~ [shinji, seph, mao, kei and pinkie ashley!]

team judgement! <3>

jo from burst angel! :DDD

prince sai~

princess esu~

[cardcaptor sakura! :D]

peggy and jesuke! [hurhur i know their names. LOL]

[lamento]

deo and his trademark cosplay, NARUTO!

141208.

blog before alr hahaha. <3

161208. minishoot.

went out with mandy, peihua and joey mummy for a minishoot today~ to help mandy improve her photog skills and help peihua improve on her lenalee poses. i just went there to extra. HAHA. the pictures are okay, it's just me hahaha. i look weird. DDDx i just found this pic very nice cos of the pose. not cos of me. HURHUR.

i want to see the casual shots. Dx and also my lenalee ones! mandy havent send me. T___T hurhur but i wont post cos i think i'll look horrible. HAHA.

i shall stop here. cos got nth to talk about alr. :D have lah but i dont want to blog. cos it will become a super long post. :D

95

2008-12-14T21:28:00.002+08:00

141208 is such a nice number isnt it. :D
cos it's special.
and i hope the special-ness will last for as long as it can. <3

94

2008-12-11T19:41:00.002+08:00

i feel like doing random blogging today. D:

今天和ether出去！去了suntec买些东西。好像很久没有和boyfriend这样两个人一起出门了。希望她的match不会输吧。跟她在一起的时间总是过得那么快。我们讨论了很多东西，有cosplay, 有同学之间的纠纷，等等。心情不好时跟她讲话最好了。因为很entertaining。哈哈。

这应该是我第一次用华文来blog吧。不知为什么，总有一种诗意的感觉。哈哈。我喜欢这个感觉。(:

嗯。。。昨晚一直听着周杰伦的《说好的幸福呢》。有很多感触，但是我不想说。只有一句话吧。歌，很好听。:D 而且，很久没有为了听歌词而听歌了。很多时候，我听歌时，总是想着能配合音乐的舞步。但昨晚竟然有了突破！哈哈哈。也不是算什么突破啦，就是。。。听着歌词，有一种截然不同的感觉咯。哈哈。不知道成语有没有用对耶。哎，管它的。很久没有用中文了，有点生锈。哈哈。

EOY就要到了。还有两天。制服和白色衬衫都还没烫！T___T 而且明天可能会去ashley家过夜。因为从那里去会比较方便。我cos的神田大概还是fail的吧。因为太矮。*叹气*

okay blogging in chinese is so gay but fun. :D cos i presume alot of ppl cant understand my rubbish chinese. LOL.

哦，今天在回来的路上，老婆打了电话给我。谈话内容实在太好笑了，但不方便说。所以不能告诉你们。总而言之，我真的很开心有这位老婆。哈哈哈。allen-darling, i love you. :D

可能是昨晚太迟睡的关系吧，今早起来时[至少他还会打给我吧。。。]，眼睛又红又肿。但只是右眼啦。所以出门时，我戴了帽子。然后是斜一边的，斜的角度能够遮住右眼。有emo的感觉，但只是纯粹为了要遮住变形的眼睛罢了。哈哈。去和ether会面的途中一直有很多人用异样的眼神看我，但是我都不睬他们。看什么看，没看过人家戴帽子吗。D: 真是的。

哎，我看还是gay到这里为止吧。但是好像用华语来blog还比英文比较快耶。哈哈哈。天大的笑话。LOL.

~~你为什么来跟我说话。。。~~

~~有没有人感觉到异常呢。。。~~

93

2008-12-10T20:05:00.004+08:00

finally i managed to kope some pictures of ms ng's wedding from somewhere. :D yay. anw, ms ng was super super pretty! :D and the food was nice. [except for shark's fin. D:] DONT EAT SHARK'S FIN PPL! [esp someone who keep eating shark's fin cos of cousin's wedding. Dx] okay anw there's nothing much to blog about her wedding so i'll let pictures describe how pretty each and everyone of my darlings were. :D

ether, shermaine, me, dyane and claudia! :D

part of CG24/08 with pretty ms ng and mr lee. :D

the few of us who stayed until the last of the wedding, and took a class photo. :D

yups! that's it for ms ng's wedding. now i shall blog about the nyny dinner with yanhui and shermin! :D so i was late in meeting the two of them cos i came from sitex. and it was freaking crowded. hurhur. if not for phyllo and spidey i think i would be lost. haha. :D i went there to collect my psp from my daddy. :D it's fixed! YAY. that week without my psp was horrendous. it's like hell. D: but at least it's fixed now! HAHA.

okay so anw went to cityhall to meet the two lovelys. then we went to nyny to eat! it was my supposed birthday treat which is super belated. hahas. but it's okay i dont mind! :D the food was super good. i ate pasta. then shermin ate chicken chop and yanhui ate pasta too. then we had mudpie for desert~ and we had coolers for drinks. so there were cherries in the drink. :D so we took the stalks and played with them. okay i know we're damn lame. we tried to tie the stalk into a knot using out tongue. and all three of us were successful! [although yanhui took super long. haha.] and the waiters there are so mean, they laughed at us. D: but it's okay. it's all in the name of fun! so anw, i had alot of fun chatting to them. :D the last time we had a good talk was since the 4z bbq hurhurhur. okay so after dinner we went to raffles city to walk around. but the shops all too branded so we didnt go in to much shops. so we went suntec instead. :D cos yanhui wanted to go otakuhouse! we did alot of stupid things too. like pretending to be japanese tourists and asking ppl to take picture for us. :D and because of that, i learnt a new phrase; to ask for a picture in jap! okays anw, after walking around for awhile and went to the arcade we went home! took many photos but managed to kope a few from yanhui's blog. so shall get her to send me more. :D anw here are a few~~

my pretty roses! :D

attempt to be japanese tourists 1. [actually not really, cos yanhui backed out of the ask-ppl-to-help-take-picture-in-jap plan]

my boyfriend! :D

anw, here's remy after disappearing from the surface of my blog for such a long time. along with a new addition! remyII.[temporary name, i shall name him again. :D]

92

2008-11-29T05:10:00.003+08:00

MS NG'S BIG DAY IS FINALLY HERE!!! :DDD
congratulations ms ng on your marriage!
i know i've been a realy problematic student, esp with my attendance and results and everything. i hope you'll forgive me! and im sure you'll look very very pretty in a wedding gown. :D anyways, your misery shall end cos ~~im not continuing JC hahahaha. joy to the world right?~~ this isnt meant to be sarcastic or anything but yeah, sorry for the trouble thus far. i wont be bringing you any more problems! so your teaching career can be more smooth-sailing. haha. omg, cant wait for the wedding. and see pretty ms ng! :DDD shall blog about it when i come back later! or another day. .__. anyways, gotta sleep now. 5am. DDD: need to go with kaen to buy her nehneh prom dress somemore before meeting the JJR team for awhile. .__. LOOL.

91

2008-11-29T04:11:00.008+08:00

okay i shall put i darker gray since minah requested for it. :D MINAH. HOPE YOU'RE DOING WELL. ~~and pardon my meanness but dump the bastard already.~~ anw, this post shall be dedicated to class chalet, woonie's concert, AFA and also the doubutsuen dinner on tues. HAHA. :D

CLASS CHALET.
19-21nov.
OMG. it was fun stuff. :D met dyane peck and claudia on day 1 to go buy bbq food. dyane and peck were being such aunties and easily amused by stuff in a regular supermarket. -.- LOL. then aft that we cabbed down to NSRCC to meet up with das and saw our wonderful chalet! and it's called the home of 24/08 cos it's really cosy and nice! packed abit of stuff and me and claudia got to cleaning cos it was really dirty and i couldnt take it. dyane and peck the meanies just had a whale of time laughing at us can. SO MEAN. D: and they treated us like maids! but the sense of satisfaction is more than enough to overpower anything in a sense la. so aft that, we played a few rounds of mahjong and then i had to go off to meet tessie to collect my costume. :D met rein cos he wanted to buy stuff for his RO cosplay. so collected my costume and accompanied him to shop for some cross necklace. and found on in 77th street. :D aft that went back to chalet, and the fire for the bbq was barely started. .__. so i had to help out. after a few tries, the fire finally got started and we finally started bbq-ing at around 8.30. HAHA. late huh. the food was super nice! [except for the uncooked ones. LOL] i love claudia mummy's sausages! after bbq-ing i solo clean up the whole place okay! then aft that bathed and those staying over [dandan, peck, dyane, me, claudia, ether, das, zucheng, zongyao] gathered in dyane's room to play polar bear and other lame games. HAHA. slept at 5am plus. D:

day two! i woke up at 2pm please. cos nobody woke me up. D( i highly doubt they did anyways. shermaine won her match! i was supposed to go along to support but apparently i didnt hear any cries of waking me up. hur. so didnt go. anw, so when i woke up, dyane attempted to cook lunch for us. instant noodles. darling, it really is okay so dont be depressed! then we left to bowl. i totally pwn-ed das for awhile but aft that he took over me again. .__. sigh. i bet he bowls very regularly! D( then we left for eastpoint to have eighteen chefs dinner! zongyao found us there. cos he went sch for obi training. mark and claudia joined us back at the chalet. and mark was staying over. fun stuff. some of us chionged mahjong, while the rest played card games. took turns to bathe, then aft that is chionging polar bear AGAIN. hahaha! so fun. lols. slept at 4plus cos everyone was too tired. e and shermaine shared a room with dyane cos dandan and peck left for home. ether shared a room with mark and claudia. haha. so anyways, we were gossiping and stuff even aft we off-ed the lights. haha so fun to hear stories. lol. we should do that some time again okay! :D the next day we woke up and checked out. sad to leave the chalet but, it was realyl wonderful to have lots of ppl there. and so that is the end of our temporary home of 24/08. :D

WOONIE'S CONCERT.
21nov.
we were late. thanks to the stupid cabbies who dont even freaking know where the hell yong siew toh conservatory of music is. .___. and i got chased out of a cab just cos the freaking cab driver didnt know how to get there! anw, picked up lily at clementi in another cab and headed down. went in late and the ushers werent even finding places for us. just shooed us into the concert hall and left us stranded at the aisles. wth right. after some time one of them took the initiative to approach us and directed us to the gallery for more seats. the concert was damn nice! i love the poe-translated piece cos it was so suspense-ful [lol i know this word doesnt exist]. i loved the doraemon remix too. GAH. i love all. :DDD and i kept seeing woonie on stage! you were good moyashi! :D and i hope you loved the flower. ~~i spent alot on it okay.~~ HAH.

sher, me, woonie and joey mummy!

AFA'08.
22-23nov.
OMGGGG it was super super damn damn cool! :D first day was shopping. second day was picture taking. @__@ anw, i wont be typing much about this cos i've got LOTS OF PICTURES! okay not alot. okay alot. but i'll only spam a few. :D first day: met lily and walked with him for awhile. then saw dmsasaki so we kinda clicked together. until hiroki-sensei aka lavi aka kaen came. so i went to find her and we went to walk. had lunch at subway with sensei and friends [shiki, yaoi, misa and some whom i didnt talk to. D: im antisocial i know.] then waited for phyllo to come cos he wanted to eat subway too. then went to find the zoo peeps! that's when my real shopping started. HAHA. i bought a pretty cure mepple plushie! and my allenwalker alarm clock. 8D then mao gave me an oryazae plushie. phyllo gave me a kanda poster [YAY!] and seph passed me the crown clown mask he made. 8DDD i also got the keychain that was for the doubutsuen peeps from phyllo. :D pics time!

my doubutsuen keychain done by phyllo! :D
*inserts heart shapes*

my beloved allenwalker alarm clock! it's really tiny i tell you. but who cares! it's allenwalker for goodness sake. :D

the crown clown mask~~

MEPPLE!

oryazae! watch moyashimon! then you'll know what it is. and the anime is seriously nice. :D

my allenwalker picture! taken from the big d.gray-man billboard at AFA.

me and phyllo. [see see! my butler carries my things! HAH.]

OKAY DAY TWO!!! :DDD pictures pictures and more pictures~~~

rein and his partner. Ragnarok Online.

deo and sai! :D

naruto and sai in formal wear. Naruto.

soubi~~~ SO 帅 RIGHT! :D

er... me. DDD: super ugly but oh wells.

kanda. D.gray-man. [this is the nicest photo so far alr! T___T]

DOUBUTSUEN DINNER.

25nov.

after the job briefing, went to tampines to meet the doubutsuen ppl to have dinner. waited for phyllo at tampines mrt before going off to find the rest. some ppl geh kiang la, insist they were at century square arcade, so he bet with me that if they werent there he would treat me to dinner. turns out they were at tm arcade, so he lost. :D had swensens dinner, but im not so mean as to make my butler pay full lah. cos i ate baked rice, quite ex also. HAHA. so i paid half, he paid half. :D chatted about alot of stuff and laughed really hard. *is reminded of the L REINbow* anw, everyone was there except kei. cos that nehneh never respond to anybody's messages. -.- so only seph, neko, spidey, rein, ash, me, phyllo and mao were there. jiji is in camp, and ice is overseas. so yeah. almost the full team was there. :D okay anw, so we had alot of funny stuff la. and spidey treated us to giant earthquake and we could choose one flavour each! there were alot of funny flavours like YAM, lime sherbet [-.-], choco mint and stuff. so it's like when the ice cream came, everybody just grabbed their own spoons and started digging at the ice cream. damn epic la. and i scolded dunno who [cant rmb] for koping my butterscotch. HAHAHA. after swensens went to walk at the pasar malam for awhile. then went back to century square for arcade. lol. i didnt play, while i watched the rest. woman, control yourself man. cannot anyhow splurge. hahaha. anw, so seph, spidey, mao and rein played mariokart. OMG LA. damn cute and damn funny. :DDD had a really good time laughing and stuff. i zao first cos it was alr damn late, like 9.30. and i live damn far... so, yeah, i left first. but the day was fun! i wanna see kei and pull her hair soon. HAHA. :DDD

89

2008-11-18T01:46:00.003+08:00

sunday, 161108.
doubutsuen outing today! so fun. i think i only went out with them once. HEH. met at 1am at chinatown mrt! i wasnt late, for once. and rein was late so he owes me a 1.5L green tea! :D then when he finally came, he got lost. and it was so hard trying to meet up with him la. *does the L REINbow action* HAHAHA. okay yeah then we went to the chinatown point macs to meet seph and the rest as kei they all collected their KOR costumes. went to pan, but i didnt go in. too many temptations! was outside with rein jagar-ing the bags. and shinji's huge backpack. HAHA. cos he came from camp. and he was still in uniform. lol. :D stupid spidey kept showing me the dgm cup and I WANT TO BUY IT. DDD: the rest were also irritating me with the allenwalker figurine on display. HUR- mean ppl. then aft that went to eat at a coffeeshop. [intended to eat at some dallas fried chicken place but no seats. haha. there were 9 of us so yeah.] went spidey's office after that to do props/ash they all try costumes/play guitar hero/gay around. mao helped me with my sword again. thanks mao! :D went to the toilet with kei and ash to try their costumes. IT WAS DAMN FREAKING NICE. and ash, im jealous of your tummy. D: kei's pants too baggy so need to alter. anw they look damn good! if i wasnt cosplaying kanda for EOY i would be doing that alr, heh. but then again, the costumes were ex, so yeah. D: we played around, chatted, and did props until like 7plus then left spidey's office. i went home cos mummy wanted me to [HUR], while the rest went vivo for dinner. and then at night skype again. LOL. im really loving my times with the zoo ppl. :D YAY and pillow made my keychain today! i want it soon. HAHA. :D

90

2008-11-18T01:31:00.004+08:00

went out with hiroki-sensei and nowaki-san and ayu today! OMG it was so fun. >DDD we met for lunch! nowaki-san said she was on a diet. OH PLEASE. she's alr like damn thin and if she continues dieting she will disappear into air. D: sensei didnt eat anything, i think dieting also. ~~omg what's wrong with the egoist pair~~ and ayu ate alot! like this whole freaking big plate of chicken rice. HAHA. and she ate alot of other stuff after that. okay no, only corn. i ate corn too. :D

anw aft lunch, we went CK to look for shirts. GUY SHIRTS. omg it was so funny. cos sensei couldnt decide between colours and me and nowaki-san were trying to confuse her even further. HAHA. :D ayu was trying on gray shirts as well. and it fits her perfectly! well the size 14.5 shirt also fits sensei just nice lah but she keeps thinking it doesnt. IT DOES OKAY. haha. so in the end sensei bought a gray shirt and ayu bought this pink-blue socks. for misaki cosplay! :D aft that we went to buy more food (that's when i bought corn, ayu bought before we went CK. haha. and nowaki-san bought tutu kueh. :D). then went over to people's park COMPLEX [omg reminds me of sunday the rein incident. the L REINbow.] aft that we headed to mustafa! looked around the place searching for stuff for the photoshoot. but couldnt find ducks. sensei bought her yellow gay gloves there. :D i wanted t buy my concealer there but the stupid woman refused to let me try cos they ran out of testers. like wtfish. so i didnt get my concealer. darn. aft mustafa ayu and nowaki-san went home, while i went to toa payoh with sensei. :D

on the bus there we saw a cedarian! started talking about cedar stuffs. and also random topics. :D then aft that she helped me look for my stupid kanda boots' belts. arigatou sensei! :DDD okay then aft i went her house to take the shaman king cos she forgot to bring. AND I SAW HER GAY BARBIE DOLL COLLECTION! >D

behold, the gayness of it all. HAHA.

oh and and and this is her playing crazy taxi at the temasek club when i accompanied her for her archery class a few weeks back. she was venting her anger on it cos archery class got cancelled. HAHA. >D

oh yes! and she bought piyo piyo slippers for the photoshoot. DAMN CUTE! :DDD and piyo piyo soft toys! YAY. they're so cute. HAHAHA. i cant wait to see them on the photoshoot day. :D after sensei's house i went home. HAHA. so yeah, nth much. tmr got yoga class at 7am. lol. provided if my mum's going though. then got dance at 10. then cip-related chores at 2 - 6 probably. good thing is it's at botanical gardens, near my house. :D oh well. i shall stop for today. today was fun, and gay. HAHA. :D

88

2008-11-15T21:21:00.003+08:00

there was team judgement outing today! more like meeting over lunch + random reckying. HAHA. i was late. as usual. GAHHH. but they didnt kill me since like everyone was late! except peihua. XD and i think they're used to ppl being late. lol. ~~if you study in a girls' sch this is extremely common haha~~ anw, we ate at taka mos burger. and we met sehu[adi] for the very first time! yeah. OH OH AND I SAW EILEEN LIM! XD that stupid girl, never come for our cedar dancers outing the other time! and she had new hair and everything. :D feels so good to see her after seeing her on o'level results release day. HAHA. aft that we went to CHIJMES to spy on team bloody rose which is woonie's vk team cos they were having a photoshoot there. but i find them very what, lol. cos they went ahead with the PS without the leader and some of the members. damn what right. then after that we went arounf the cityhall area to recky places for our photoshoot. on the way to the old supreme court, i saw iyn yi! she went to the singapore biennale thing. and at the old supreme court, i saw ayu! she was having her blair photoshoot. XD she looks so pretty with her blonde hair. :D then aft that we went alot of places, like VCH, boat quay, and fullerton. woonie left after that, but the remaining retards decided to explore the inside of fullerton hotel.

mandy and peihua are so swaku im serious. they didnt know we can just walk in and see see fullerton hotel la! they thought the hotel management would throw them out just cos they're not guests or sth. i laughed like crazy la. so we went in and explore. the revolving door is just super cool omg. XD we went around looking for a piano that we could play on, but sadly they locked all the available pianos. D: so we decided to explore the toilet. it was so freaking nice can! there was a comfortable chair in the toilet omg! D: and the doors, sink, mirrors and EVERYTHING is just so freaking pretty and high class la. D: we stayed inside for pretty long haha. then after that we headed to raffles city cos adi said that there might have an available piano for us to play. sadly there wasnt. so we decided to go to the basement to look at food and me and sherwei totally couldnt hold back on chippy's fried mars bars. 8D so we shared and ate it. XD peihua and mandy had been pigging out all the way, with ice cream and cotton candy. so at the basement they bought apple struddle. adi bought donut! so the 5 of us just stood at one corner and ate our food. :D aft that went to meet my mum and we went holland v for dinner.

ate at sushi tei! :DDD it was quite ex but she said she got money. and i ate my beloved zaru soba. 8D it's super nice can! i can just eat it plain without anything to go with it. :D it really tastes nice! i dont know why some ppl dont like to eat soba leh. DD: oh. soba reminds me that my wife flew off for malaysia today and she'll gone for a week. SIGH. i'll be bored. nobody to go crazy with me for a week. and she wont be going for afa! darn. i hope i can stayover at her house the day before eoy though. i think we'll be gaying alot HAHAHA. <333>

i think i've never posted my team photo here before so i shall do that today. this was from the last outing though. :D

[the guys are the photogs! our team is strictly ALL GIRLS. XD]

okay i got nth to post about alr. i dont want to talk about the vp talk anymore. just for updates anw, im 95% leaning to poly education. so yeah. D:

87

2008-11-09T22:03:00.004+08:00

IF YOU KNOW TERENCE LEE, VOTE FOR HIM! :D

just click on his retarded pic. HAHAHA. :D
AND YOU CAN VOTE 10TIMES PER DAY! :D

86

2008-11-09T14:38:00.002+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS TO ETHER KUM YU LING FOR GETTING THROUGH THE FIRST ROUND OF CAMPUS SUPERSTAR!!! <333
oh man ether boyfriend is sooo pro. XD and my efforts of waiting almost 4hrs for her are not wasted! :D you go ether! YAY~ so, we met at 10 in the morning outside mediacorp yesterday. the queue started moving shortly after i arrived. then we got seperated. D: supporters not allowed to go in what the hell. so i waited at the foyer for her for almost 4 hrs for her before my psp batt died and i went off to look for shermin and yanhui at thomson plaza to go 4z bbq together. im really sorry for pangsehing you ether! and when you called me you scared me lah. HUR. anw, omedetto gozaimasu! :DDD

anw, 4z bbq! :D
it was fun. really. it was so great to meet with all the other 4zenners again! and thank goodness tweety bird wasnt there. HAHAHA. anw met up with yanhui and shermin to buy some stuffs for the bbq at thomson plaza. then shermin's mum fetched us to the bbq venue which is at shermin's uncle's house. they had a shnauzer which is really cute! and it's called cherry. :D the name of my missing pomeranian. D: aft that went to bukit batok mrt to fetch the 4zenners! took a bus back to the condo and we started the bbq! oh but then there was like the guy who was washing the bbq pit when we reached and he was like kind of chubby and there was erm, some unpleasant stuff showing... *horror* anw. aft that we started our bbq! the main bbqers were nida, yanhui and shermin! and denyse who came late. XD nida is damn funny la. she was bbq-ing with heels. HAHAHA. the food was damn nice! thanks to all who prepared them! <3>maybe i will be too lazy to organize one in the end.

anw. the vp talk went really bad. like. really. bad. D:

85

2008-11-04T01:27:00.004+08:00

1. where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket?
japan. tour the whole of japan man. XDD

2. what's your favourite thing to do?
dance. watch anime. [the top 2 things that came to my mind when i saw this qn.]

3. do you think money can buy happiness?
like duh, no. ><

4. if you were given a chance to receive something, what would it be?
probably the whole collection of d.gray-man products plus a ps2 to play the ps2 d.gray-man game. XD

5. things that you cant live without:
d.gray-man. my psp. my labtop. my bed. my money.

6. what are you afraid to lose?
anything that's mine.

7. if you won US$1million, what would you do?
settle all my debts first, donate some to charity, spend some going on a shopping trip to japan [bringing some of my best friends along also along with my family], revamp my house [cos it's really old LOL], buy lot of d.gray-man stuff..etc etc.

8. what do you dream of doing in the future?
actually, i dont know. to be unrealistic, it'll be to be a doctor like 江直树. to be realistic, have my very own business. XD

9. list down 3 good things about the person who gave you this survey:
bubbly, CUTE, lovable. :D

10. what makes you happy?
d.gray-man.

11. what kind of person do you hate the most?
those who like to shoot ppl without even thinking of what they are themselves first. very good example --> betty boob.

12. if you have a super power what would that be?
teleportation. i need that seriously.

13. would you go for happiness or money?
my superficial side says money. my angelic side says happiness.

14. who do you think is the most important people in your life?
family [standard answer] and friends<3

15. if you had a girlfriend/boyfriend, would you die for him/her?
i dont have one in the first place. =_____= but even if i had one, no. the guy's not even my husband yet, why would i die for him? LOOOL.

16. who's the last person who hugged you?
virtually, it'll be allen dearie. in real life, i cant remember. .___.

17. what is the one thing you want to do badly right now?
get my effing op done, and get the see-the-vp thing over with. ><

18. who are you close to?
this is gonna be a longggg list. claudia, ether, dyane, shermaine, peck, moyashi, hiroki-sensei, lauren, ayano, kenneth, leon, dicky, sheila, darling daphne, angel, ashy, yishan... and probably alot more just that their names have not appeared in my mind at the moment and im rushing this post because someone is rushing me!

19. are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like him?
im not those confess-to-guy kind. i only say so when the guy has confessed to me. =_____= so no. it's nothing to do with courage. it's principle. :D

20. if you could do one thing all over again what would it be?
retake my bloody promos to make sure i get that one more mark for bio so that i can freaking pass promos dammit.

21. 8 things that scare you:
horror shows, cockroaches, HJJs, jaywalking, the dark, insects, unknown white flying objects, losing my stuff for no reason.

22. 8 things that you like/love the most:
friends, dance, psp, anime, labtop, games, coco, family.

23. 8 important things in my room:
psp, labtop, pillow, bed, whiteboard, clothes, my mugen! [ohmygod. XD], my d.gray-man poster!!!

24. 8 ppl to do this questionnaire:
yanhui, shermin, ryan, hiroki-sensei, dyane, claudia, yingiet, peck.

[allen dearie made me do this questionnaire. <3]