uh... i know i mentioned that i will upload streetfest pics the last time i was here but i didnt do so. D8 okay anyway nobody reads this blog so it kind of like just died. but since nobody comes here, i thought it would be a good opportunity if i used this platform to say things that i couldnt mention on twitter or anything. lots of things have been on the top of my mind, some happy some not. but ah well. just ranting it out will make me better i hope. i have a feeling that the only person who may come across this will be raynor lol. best buddy if you read this, msn me afterwards lol. :D
alright so since when did i become such a big SHINee fan? okay first things first. i wasn't in to k-pop until recently, like start this year/end of last year. so i've missed out a lot of things when i wasn't into the k-fever yet. the times of dbsk, suju and wondergirls are times when im not totally into this whole fad yet. when i really got into this whole thing, 2AM became my first love. then with the release of SHINee's latest album, Lucifer, i fell more in love with them. primary reason - taemin's long hair. i think some ppl do know that i have this crazy fetish for guys with long hair. but sadly not everyone knows. ahh whatever. anw, i really admire taemin's long hair, and i do love the songs in the album as well. so question is, is it really wrong for me to only love them because of their new album? for me, i dont see what's wrong with it in the first place. so stop questioning me since when i became their fan. im not jumping on to the bandwagon or anything just for your information. not because they're like the most crazy and hot topic around for now. it's because i genuinely like taemin (and his hair), because he just reminds me of myself sometimes (being childish and naive etc). i really want to dance like him as well, he's my next dance god after jo kwon lol. :D but as much as i love SHINee now, i still have 2AM in my heart. so ppl, dont question me if i jumped over to SHINee or what. NO. I STILL LOVE MY 2AM. and i am still super sad i couldnt go the fanmeet on tgx day 1. but i still bought the album nonetheless! so it shows im a true fan right? pfft. im gonna buy SHINee's albums too to show support okay. i will buy both type a and b alright. so ppl please stop coming and ask me why im suddenly into SHINee. it annoys me.
secondly, i want to wish don a happy birthday here, although i think he wont ever come across this lol. and yeah, wanted to have a celebratory dinner of some sort tonight. so i asked my mum if we are gonna have dinner. and nooooo, they are gonna have dinner tgt with my mum's "boyfriend" and i wasnt invited. not that im sulking, cos i think if i see him face to face, the first thing i'd do is kick him in the nuts or give him a tight slap or flip a table at him (for real, im not kidding. ppl who know me well, you should know i have a temper and DONT MESS WITH ME.) but hello? my brother's birthday dinner and i dont get invited, and he gets? what kind of fucking reality is this man. he's has always been an asshole, and everyone sees it. but nooooo. blinded by love. or so she calls it. that fucker's an obvious shit and fucktard wth. i would sue him if i had the opportunity. i would get a gang to beat him up if i had a gang. im dead serious. if i were the leader of DOLLARS he'd be dead by now. fucking asshole. ANGRYYYYY.
and then comes school. i think i mentioned this so many times on twitter that everyone's sick of this. but hey, you dont understand me you shut up. you dont want to see my tweets dont follow. get it? this is the first time (after jc that is) that i felt that school really sucked so much that my absences just keep increasing. hey, not that im doing it on purpose. does anyone have any fucking idea how fucking stressed i get with school? nah, i dont think anyone can come close to feeling how i felt. having a useless group mate in every single project is one thing. lousy classmates another. retarded school location is the third. what more to make school more sucky? at those points in life i looked forward to nothing else but cosplay and events and weekends together with the great ppl. even cheer was a drag (which led to my disappearance shortly after school term started for the sem). even jc wasnt as bad because i had great classmates and friends who understood me, and dance was the next thing that took things off my mind. but i genuinely hated jc for its system, its teachings and its regulations. it's fucked up. that's why im enjoying poly, which im not so much enjoying for sem 2.1 thanks to TAS and a whole lot of other rubbish. cant wait to get over this semester. although i think my gpa's gonna spiral down like shit, you think i care anymore? im not under any fucking scholarships, im working to earn my own keep. who needs all those things to my name? DHL, STB scholar candidate... whatever. you guys are the ones who have come up with this image of me being 'angelic', 'innocent' and whatever else you've thought me to be. sorry, i am not that kind of person you guys think me to be. im evil, and im like a gangster, so dont mess with me. you want to play punk with me, you'd end up like that certain girl on facebook. if you're all talk no action (NATO), then fuck off. im not interested in ppl who can only say alot behind ppl's back but not right in the face. useless. grrr. thinking about it makes my head hurt. lots of shit at sentosa, and im not missing anything there.
exams are coming up but there's yog to deal with. i dont think i'd fail or need to take supp paper. but this sem, since it's already screwed, im just gonna do whatever i think i can, and just pass it. heck with 3.88 or whatever. heck it. projects, screw you. exams, im gonna eat you up. all these subjects, you're gonna die and fuck off from my life okay. dont mess with me and put me in a nightmare anymore. i dont want any title to my name, i dont want any high gpa that's so difficult to keep. if life's just screwing with my results then so be it. i dont believe i cant do anything without good results. pfft.
it has been a long long post so far. but nope, im not stopping yet. if you're tired just close this window. im not begging you to read it. im just ranting that's all. listening to k-pop calms me down in a sense i guess. oh well. i still love anime dont worry. hakuouki and vocaloid, i'll be back with you guys soon! but for now it's Lucifer and Up&Down and nothing else yeah. ^^
gahh. let's move on to more happy things. cosplay! yay. for the past month, it's seriously been a hell hectic. but hey, i didnt neglect my projects or anything amidst all this. so dont go around accusing me for not doing my work or i'll seriously slap your face. there was cosfest, tgx and the ph shoot. cosfest was fun cos we had a weekend chalet, which was seriously damn enjoyable and fun. :D lots of epic things happened and well, yeah. everyone was cool. (: tgx was a mad rush! thanks to ilr project plz. but im not gonna mention about sch anymore. it was fun! day 1 ph paired up with almighty jesuke. really could feel the kira-ness and shiawase-ness to be having her as a partner. taemin i love you yeah. (: day 2 back with my lenny, with awesome okita and heisuke transformed into GIRLS. pretty and epic. gahhh. *rin gives loves to all* man, tgx sure was epic. not to mention awesome cosplay photog well-known on an international basis, SHIROIN was in town! enjoyed super epic moments with him, and all's worth. :D ph shoot was full of crack i swear. and im gonna get my head cropped off. ahh well. taemin~~~ im so glad you were my vincent. and i fail as your servant. i will uh, serve you better when i sk for your casual shoot. *raises eyebrows* now it's just epic planning for the rest of this year. planning for 2nd cf trip! and gonna take part in that teenage competition AND IM GONNA WIN IT. i want to do kpop twinnie. ): since im cosing girl i want to dance to miss a's bad girl good girl plz. ahh. crack be win! if we incorporated crack with serious stuff i think we'd stand a good chance, dont you think? ahhh. more tbc when the judging criteria is confirmed i guess. lol. planned for events like afa and stuff as well, photoshoots are piling up (i have no idea where my money's gonna come from), and lots of tentative rubbish plans that keep popping up GOSH. seriously need a proper diary to keep track of all these. AISH. but i guess that's all for cosplay so far. taking a break for sewing and shooting and whatnot for now, need proper planning and time management and work in order to supplement this lovely hobby of mine. im thankful for all the friends i made through this hobby. i love every single one of you. (:
oh yeah and im still with darling in case anyone's wondering. lol. just cause you dont hear about us doesnt mean we dont exist already lol. just that we're all busy with our own stuff, and we dont get much time together... but we are still in love. ^^ just hope we have more time... and more money... i want to go on epic shopping with darling soon. i want to buy stuff... i want to shop... i want to dress up to go out. D: i never ever put make up unless it's cosplay. i never do bother to dress nicely unless someone asks me to. i think i should start to put more effort in dressing up i guess. lol.
ahhh. it's been so long since i typed the first sentence. i think you must be falling asleep as well. if you ever reached this part, good for you! otsukare~~ but i dont think so lol. just mindless rants blah blah blah. i need to go do my fem reflection paper which is 20% weightage and it's due tmr. \o/ im awesome arent i. and i barely started on it whee~ im awesome. seirously man. haha. ahhh fuck those things lah. if i cant do well then i also heck care. lol. maybe the reason why i left it til this last minute is cos i dont really care anymore? yeah. i dont really care anymore. okay. so fuck it. fuck you school. *notimpressedplz* im gonna do abit of work and toggle between SHINee and school byebye people if you ever existed.
