LOVE.

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Thursday, October 30, 2008

9:15 PM

HYA. i havent been posting pics so i shall post some now~~~
lauren the IT genius has somehow 'extracted' alot of d.gray-man pics from some funny .swf format movie. lol.

my allen-kun<333~~~

some really nice lavi and yuu combi with allen's words. XD

super 帅 allen and his beloved white ark. :DDD

then there are also fanart pics that i've koped... and this is one damn funny one. XD

yuu smiling... SO WEIRD. *shivers*
he's obviously possessed by lavi! im super sure of it. lavi posessed him OMG.

and my newest love~~~

tachibana shito.

so 帅right!! XDDD and his seiyuu is... SAKURAI TAKAHIRO.

*fangirls*

i love sakurai and suzumura! XDDD

yays~~ <333

okay i shall blog about sth later. XD if im free that is.

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12:00 AM

i used to think that there wouldn't be a day when i would actually emo. it's like, melo and emo? no link.
but ever since my jc life started, these shapeless emotions appeared very often.
why, you may ask. im not too sure of it myself either.
but i was thinking, perhaps if i disappeared from this world, it would bring salvation to probably 10,000 ppl in this universe; ppl who are implicated by what i do, and what i am.
ppl like my mum who gets so stressed out by me cos i failed my promos and currently unable to promote.
ppl like my form teacher ms ng who probably got into alot of trouble because of me and my half-assed crappy work and attitude.
ppl like shermaine who becoms so pek chek when i dont pick up her calls in the morning.
ppl like claudia whose bag gets heavier everytime she keeps my hwk for me; and my hwk is just an extra burden she's willing to carry for someone like me.
ppl like dyane who cant find someone to pei her during chinese lessons cos im always missing.
and to alot of other ppl. im just nothing but trouble.
so if i could disappear, how nice would it be.

message to all aliens and mad scientists: come kidnap me if you need a human for some weirdo experiment or sth. and please do kill me after that.

dance has changed my life entirely. into something good, into something bad.
i wont blame dance for my shitty results. or my less-than-90% attendance.
all i can do is blame myself. cos afterall, it's my own fault for being so engaged in the whole dance thing.
my own fault for being so over the moon just cos i was labelled as a 'good' dancer by many.
perhaps i thought i could go in that direction and be some good dancer for life.
so i just kept dancing. for the whole year.
and i was wrong. i realised i totally cannot do anything by myself.
and i realised this at the syf auditions last tuesday.
i cant catch steps at the snap of a finger. or just like that.
i cant exhibit techniques right there and then. i need to dance for at least half an hour or so, get warmed up, then i can do my pirouettes and stuff.
how weird. at this rate i wont be able to achieve anything, right?
but that's just the bad things dance brought about.
the good things far outweigh the bad of course. there are many. i shant name them since i've always ranted about the good stuff about dance in the past.
i was being such a one-sided idiot all this whole time i realise.
now im just a mashed up screwed loser.
how nice.

my studies cant earn me a pass for my promos. my attitude is shitty. i wont be promoted. full-stop.

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Friday, October 17, 2008

12:26 AM

*sigh* i feel super nostalgic today. went to toa payoh to help my mum do the registration for hdb's half yearly sale. so after that, was kind of free [despite being sick. D:] so i went to walk around. so long never go toa payoh, it's like... yeah. reminds me of alot of things. tkd mostly. sigh... i wanna go back soon. like really soon. anw, took a butt-rotting journey of bus 145 home. passed by alot of places. balestier, mcnair, boon keng, lavender. all the places i spent my childhood at. balestier; wonderful memories of my now senile grandma. mcnair; where i lived at for a decade ever since i was born. boon keng; where the fun of my childhood really took place. lavender; tkd trainings and macs after that. rahhh. i want to go there and explore again. one day... shall go there alone/with someone soon. like walk around the whole big area! 8D and reminisce about the nice [or not so nice] past. i wanna go race course road and look at the mee toh building. the small small building that i spent my 6 years of primary education at. the place where the courtyard is so small that i think is only one quarter of cedar's courtyard of the old building. the place where the staircases are dark, yet cosy. the staff room that is accessible to all. the classroom that looks ancient and old but still really lovely. the hall that holds the buddha statue and where we pay our respects to buddha. where chinese dance pracs are held. where table tennis pracs are held. not to forget the small cosy canteen and the homey hopscotch area. well... someday, i wanna go back for a walk. at balestier, mcnair, boon keng, bendemeer, towner. the places which holds my precious childhood memories. <3

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Wednesday, October 15, 2008

6:52 PM

yesterday was fun. kind of. er... pe in the morning was crappy. i thought we would be playing games, but we ended up doing conditioning. pfft. damn crap la. after that i had stomachache. D: like OMG. =____= and i was sick for such a long time. anyway i got well after that. after school i went to clean up dance studio with daphne darling! XD i vacuumed the studio while she packed the pantry. i tooke about 45mins to vacuum the whole place la. D: even though it might not seem very big but then again there are alot of other factors contributing to why i took so long to vacuum. esp the dust. OMG. it was freaking dusty lah. D: anyway, right after i finished vacuuming the place right, the stupid grp pe ppl STEPPED IN WITH THEIR SHOES! wtf. and they didnt ask permission to play table tennis WTH?! and it's not even one minute from the time i finished vacuuming the place okay. im serious la. HUR- i was like on the verge of tears alr. my hardwork...is gone. OKAY IM GETTING SO WORKED UP THINKING ABOUT IT. and i suffered from severe body aches [or maybe it's just the fever] from vacuuming! and my right wrist hurts from holding the vacuum for so long. pfft. oh forget it. rawr.

didnt go for ogl meeting today. heck. i didnt even want to be one anw. DDD: ether lah, sign up for me. it's just a waste of time submitting the forms and all and going through interviews this and that. D: rawr. i dont know la. i just hope they let me drop out of the whole ogl thing. i wont have time anyway. =_____=

okay i think i shouldnt be blogging and should be resting. later kena scolding from someone again. bye~

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Monday, October 13, 2008

5:05 AM

WHATEVER ETHER. just because you are tall. D: ( *it's a frown but it looks like this cos stupid blogger dont allow the usage of the arrow symbol. pfft*
anyway, im just here to voice out some thoughts. ignore this actually.

i have no idea why i tend to think so far ahead. and count the various possibilities that could happen to me, when i cant even deal with what's in front of me right now. i tend to jump over the hurdles thinking it's an easy feat, but just to realise that everytime i jump over one my stamina decreases. there are so so so many hurdles in life and i have to clear all of them. it is just so difficult, and impossible. but somehow, i will manage. i think. now im just staring at this hurdle right in front of me, contemplating -or rather, hesitating- whether to jump over it. im afraid i cant clear it, and then i fall. or maybe i would jump over it, but then somehow i kick it over or sth. i dont know. im scared to move forward. yet even before this hurdle is cleared im already thinking of the 10 other hurdles that are in front of me. sometimes when i think of them, it makes me happy. but some just makes me depressed. the happy thoughts are rather self-imaginary; normally they are just fantasies of things that could happen to me. whether they will happen or not, im not sure. but these happy thoughts could possibly be the one which keeps me moving forward. the one thing im most afraid of, is that i wish for too much. or perhaps dwell on sth too much. im not too sure myself either. but one thing for sure, i fantasise like crazy. of many things. not just of myself but of others as well. i dont know. my mind right now is like a protein molecule in its tertiary conformation. i need to time to straighten out my thoughts.

~~im thinking too much i guess. i can feel that your concern is genuine but, what are we right now?~~

OKAY STOP IT WITH THE EMO CRAP. *bangs head*

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Sunday, October 12, 2008

2:25 AM

went to the clarke quay japan matsuri event today! with moyashi (now i feel weird calling him el LOL). saw ALOT of ppl. XDDD which makes me super happy! ^^ saw deo, sai, miranda, miji, mandy, woonie, peihua and xiaohau! XD yayaye. super happy. of course also i see ppl i usually meet up with like neko, rein, mao, seph and shinji. =D there was cosplay competition but other than that there wasnt anything else. okay there was a singing competition after that but it's not so interesting. no offence though. there was this group who sang for 10mins? yeah. but they sang quite well. ^^ okay actually there wasnt much to do there. me and moyashi just ended up sitting by the river talking la. D: and listening to the ppl singing. XD

i think i smsed over 100messages today laa. i messaged ALOT today. =______= partly cos of the event i think. like trying to find ppl here and there and stuffs. rawr. there were two casual kandas today. which makes me even more depressed. i wonder if i can even pass as one for EOY. i think i should make a nametag and says "im chibi yuu" or sth so that ppl dont criticise me for my height. DDD: okay, im worrying. pfft. EOY got so many d.gray-man cosers, the standard is gonna be high... T____T

oh and this is stupid. I FAILED. I CANT BE PROMOTED. pfft. and you know why? all cos of the bio dept's stupid moderation. pfft. they made the passing mark 46, and i got 45. like WTH?! if i passed bio i would be promoted successfully you know. D: and maths. i didnt really check maths. but mr tan told me i was 2 marks away from passing. if i passed either one of them i would've been promoted. WOW, how nice right. RAH. this is crap lah. why am i so suay.

okay my eyes are half-closed alr. so i think i should stop blogging now... no pics taken at the event though. cos my hp cam is only like 2 freaking megapixels. LOL. and i found hiroki-sensei and nowaki-san's blogs! and spammed. XDDD yayaye im so excited for the junjou PS. 8DDD okays i shall go sleep now. nights~

p.s. peck, claudia mummy, ether boyfriend! im sure we will promote together successfully!!! dont give up! we can do it! ^^

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Monday, October 6, 2008

12:47 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEILA DARLING!!! <3

no matter where i am, where i go, where i end up at, you're always my bestest sheila! smile always!! and let's camwhore alot more. xD

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Saturday, October 4, 2008

3:19 AM

dear allenwalker, I don't really know how to tell you this but the mafia wants you. I think i realised it when we skinny dipped outside of Chicago and i saw you sit on Manchester United's Goalkeeper. I'm sure you're ashamed enough to understand that there is no solution to this. I'm returning the couch cushions to you, but I'll keep your suicide note as memory. You should also know that i always wanted to break a new life as a clone.

Go burn,
melo.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
this is seriously DAMN FUNNY. XD
koped this from claudia's blog. it's damn interesting. ^^
~~and wow skinny dipping with allenwalker would be too hot for me to take. 8DDD~~

Here's what you do:
Dear (friend), I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.

___12___,
-Your Name

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'm joining the convent
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the purple monkey
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduationL
asagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyed - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F – My virginity
G/H – Your neighbour Martin
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today abou
tO/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt – Eat cake and die
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

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2:53 AM

Pick your birth month
→ Strike out anything that doesn’t apply to you
→ Bold the five-ten that best apply to you
→ Copy to your blog
→ Tag 10 people from your friends

list
1. Claudia
2. Peck
3. Dyane
4. Sheila
5. Yingiet!
6. Casper
7. Darren
8. Yishan
9. Mao
10. Daphne darling.

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally(Ego ahaha). Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic. Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: ~~Suave and compromising.~~ ~~Careful, cautious and organized.~~ ~~Likes to point out people’s mistakes.~~ Likes to criticize. Stubborn. [so says someone] Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. ~~Concerned and detailed.~~ Loyal but not always honest. ~~Does work well.~~ ~~Very confident.~~ Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. ~~Loves to look for information.~~ ~~Must control oneself when criticizing.~~ Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. ~~Hardly shows emotions.~~ Tends to bottle up feelings. ~~Very choosy, especially in relationships.~~ ~~Systematic.~~

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

i think i cancelled out most of the descriptions in september. =_______________=