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Tuesday, July 29, 2008

11:12 PM

I WANNA QUIT JC LUHS.
i cant stand how that short potato zheng dui me. like WTH. i hate how i am being controlled by him. what if i do all those stuff, and i end up not being able to take promos? then what's the point of me pleasing him and do whatever he says? idiotic short potato. you should have a cylinder borer driven right through your short stupid body. and i can use my scapel to cut you into 30mmX5mmX5mm potato strips and use you for stupid bio experiments.

my life is as screwed as a 5cm long screw i guess. how things take a turn for the worse in just one day is simply amusing. today, i realised im late for school yet again. today, i had to go see the dm. today, i didnt teach alot of steps [and im supposed to finish teaching my cheoro by friday]. today, i started to think of quitting jc. it has hardly occured to me that i will actually even habour the thought of dropping jc and change to poly. partly cos i would think this year, 2008, will be super wasted. not in the sense of friendships, cos i will never regret making all those great friends in tj. but in the sense of the MONEY. i freaking spent so much in jc lah. D: but when i think of it, maybe it would be better for me. i dont have to put up with short potatos and fakers all the time. a change environment could help i think. havent talked to my mum about it though. she will probably go mad. somemore she railed at me today when she came back from work for no apparent reason. =.=

i want to take business studies. at least it's a useful course. i want to open my own shop in future. ^^ so business studies is the right thing for me! even if i proceed with a'levels i will want to go smu and do business [although it involves yucky econs]. today was the very first day i really really opened my ears and listen to econs lecture! and it's not that boring afterall. maybe it's cos today they were discussing about ERP, COE... etc, which i am especially interested in for i dunno what reason. HAHA. :D weird huh. anw, im quite set on doing business cos i dont think my lousy grades can get me anywhere in medicine. o.o this is all so screwed la. everyone's telling me to go pursue my dream of being a professional dancer but you know, it's impossible. i dont have ballet background! who's gonna hire some funny dancer who doesnt have the basic backgrounds man. they must be out of their mind one la. sigh-

i think my future is bleak. i cant see any light. man, can someone please show me the way. im lost in this gigantic forest of the future. what awaits me could be disasters after another, or success after success. i dont know. and i dont have a direction to turn to. i need guidance. i need help. T-T